h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Entry: My termination - A1104049
Author: Patron Saint of Kittens... aka Pantherlady who's an owltrons thundercat and is THE Werepanther of h2g2 - U222826

Well... i wrote it, but im not sure what to do with it now.

Hi Pantherlady

This is a powerful story. Well written.

The sentence "It was so much to take in, more of a fictional story than my life." makes me think

I'm glad hootoo comforts you this site means so many things to so many people. Thank you for posting it here.

thanks... its clearly not finished yet coz its still happening, but it helped to write it.

x

I'm going to do something I don't normally do and assume that this is written from personal experience.

So firstly

I'm glad you posted this. It's good for people going through the same thing to have personal accounts to read. It was a brave of you to be so honest and you have my respect and sympathy.

I hope it helped you to put it all down in words and share it with us.

I was moved and horrified and profoundly impressed by this piece. This is not the time to tell you how well-written it is. I have posted more in your U-Space.

Thank you for sharing it here.

Ben

Pantherlady,

That was a beautifully written piece about a harrowing subject



I for one had no idea of the pain and torment going through a situation like this brings.

Thank you for posting this and I hope things get better for you soon

KJ

I wish you well, and hope that body and mind heal well and whole. It was very moving to read this.

Thank you everyone. I'm glad this has gotten through to people as its something close to me... that i still need help with.
x

Just a note to say, I've updated the story... thanks again for the support xxx

You write so simply and so powerfully...

Thank you for updating it.

Ben

Very well written, and very chilling.

Maybe people would be interested to know more about why you decided to abort your child. Did you see any alternatives?

Perry.

I'm 17 with my whole life ahead of me and parents who would be incredibly disappointed by me... i chose to abort because of this. You can say i should have given up for adoption perhaps, but then i have the knowledge there will always be someone out there and I couldnt deal with that... not that i can deal very well with this. It just seemed simpler...

This is one of the most moving pieces I've ever read here.
It's also beautifully written.
Relating an experience like this needs a rare balance, composure to make it coherent but emotion to make it compelling.
I hope you find comfort in your writing. You've surely made a lot of us think.
Pin

thanks

when will i know if this story is finished?

I don't know, but I think you'll know when it's done. Does it feel done now?

Hi Pantherlady, (these names seem suddenly frivolous when the subject is as strikingly 'real' as this one, )

I hesitated for some time before reading this piece; the title leaves nothing to the imagination, and it is a tough subject to read about on what is essentially (for me anyway) a 'fun' site for people who like to read and write.

Like others, i'm not too sure about commenting on the style for fear of seeming insensitive to your situation. But i figure if you wrote and decided to post it here, you'd rather hear what people think; i think it is well written, a frank and insightful account of a bewildering and painful experience.

Your own uncertainty about whether it is 'finished' says a lot; a word that has come into our everyday language from the psycho-analyst's couch is 'closure', and it seems that this is part of a desire for that (whatever it is exactly). I hope you have found some comfort from writing down your experiences and feelings in this way.

For readers, there is much to be learnt (is that the right word? It sounds rather cold, but i think you'll understand what i mean) from your account. We humans can do so many clever things with wheels and engines and moon rockets, and yet we still struggle to communicate on the most basic levels.

I hope you will come to feel good enough about yourself and the choices you've made to enjoy the life you saw ahead of you and wanted to be able to live. I hope it doesn't sound trite to say that if that life (travel, uni, love, life, achievement and enjoyment) seemed reason enough before you chose, it can provide a direction for you now; it seems wrong (not morally, but... well... unfair on all concerned) to have chosen and for that choice to rob you of what made it the right choice.

well, i had promised myself not to try to sound 'oh-so-very-wise' about your situation, and off i go doing just that. Always easy from the other side of a screen. I simply wish you well.

Sticking to the writing, i think it is great that you've been able to share this with is in such a sensitive and expressive way.

You may find this an odd question, but do you think that the personal nature of your narrative 'helped' you to find the voice that comes through here so strongly? I haven't looked at your Personal-Space, but have you written much here? You write well and whilst i realise that in this case it can't have been a 'pleasure', i wonder if you *do* enjoy writing in a more general sense. I feel sure you must, to have been able to convey your feelings in this piece; so i'm looking forward to reading future entries here.

Well, i've done all the things i thought i should avoid in commenting on this entry, but i hope you'll take the positive and be understanding about any lack of sensitivity on my part.

As to 'when will it be finished'... I agree that you will probably know when it's finished. On a more constructive note, i think it has probably gone far enough in terms of the narrative, and with a little work on the end, to bring it to a close, it may well be finished now. After all, whilst the feelings and emotions involved are still with now and aren't going just to disappear overnight, this piece is not a diary. Well, see what you think; that's just my thoughts about it.

Hope all that is of some interest to you, , and that you perhaps feel that you are moving away from the dark times towards the light, and look forward to reading future writings from you on h2g2

cya
spiff

Thanks for that!

Ok - let me see. Ive been doing some thinking, and i need to wrap this stroy up soon. I don think it'll be over for a while yet, but i also think that not much will happen really. Lots more tears yes, and heart ache, but nothing new. So i'll be wrapping up the story soon... I think alot of people who have read this have chosen to be careful about what they say, and for that im greatful. But I also want to say that Spiff was right, if i didnt want people to read and comment i wouldnt have posted it here at all. I hope im strong enough to accept what anyone has to say about it.

I want to say thank you for lett ign me write it on here because just doing that has helped me get over alot of it. And peoples feed back has helped too. So thank you... I dont feel so bad about it now, just sad that it had to happen.

I love to write, mostly when im upset. This was one of those times...

Anyway, thanks you! xx

I think its finished, but if you think otherwise please let me know...

I told my mum now. She was a doll and was so understanding. I love my mum