h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

So I'm alive.

Obviously, I've recently come to terms with the death of an idol. It hurts to know that the single ideal culmination of everything I wish I could someday be in art no longer possesses a representative; there has ceased to be a beacon of hope that what I love is in the world and not in the past. But I am satisfied that it *was* once, and that it can be again. Because I still have the books (and they most of their covers) to prove to me that during my lifetime, genius survived.

The rest of my life is perfect, obstacles and all. I have overcome everything that I hated about myself a year ago and everything I hated about my immediate world three months ago or whenever I last bothered posting. All that hate's gone now (It's all been replaced by a pile of corpses!). There's still some anxiety and a fair amount of disdain but they pose no threat.

I am an assured, receptive, responsive woman of substance whose sense of self comes not from others but from herself. Oh, hell yes.

Okay, a lot of it still has to do with what comes from others. But I've come to feel I deserve that now, not as though I've secured it with my writing style or absurdism or position of mediocre authority or infamy or unique youthful whatever it is. Not that I realized it at the time. People-pleasing doormat. I had nothing to hide, so I don't know why I did, but I have since found confidence and security, and I (consequently) don't get bullied in any way. I don't do anything I don't want to for fear of making anyone unhappy. No more trying too hard. I have somehow learned to just *be* and have fun and love and see people for what they are.

Why am I expounding upon this? So I can say that if I seem different, please forgive me: I am.

And if you're not pleased... please know that the ability not to care or cater is one of the best things that ever happened to me. Here's to those who wish us well, and those who don't can go to hell. Try not to think it means I don't like you anymore. I'm not an extremist.

On with the show.

Not much to mention though. Finished two regular semesters, returning for a short one to wrap things up before the year is through, and then starting fall in the best way I can think of... in an ass-kicking low-rent ideal-location penthouse townhouse apartment with a giant furry orange couch and a set of homemade china and furniture, the perfect class schedule, a dozen or so completely lovable friends, a new round of scholarship cash, the time and place to go dancing, my perfect screwball romance, a year's priceless memories and future plans, and about a fraternity's worth of friends on call for parties and similar fun. That's pretty much the short version. The summer I'm spending at home, relaxing and preparing for my imminent return to brothers, dancers and lesbians.

I am happier than I've ever been and I hope all of you are too. Message ends.

Wow. That sounds like quite a busy year!
Nice to see you around again KM!

- X

Growth is a wonderful thing. Like life, it happens while we're busy making other plans, thank you Mr Lennon.

I have only one - shallow, but nonetheless pressing - question:

HOW MANY MUPPETS DIED IN THE MAKING OF THAT COUCH???

It could be made purely of Animal-sheddings, you know. No need to get all riled up.

*calms down and tries not to visualise people sitting about on bright orange animal sheddings*

*envisions a bright orange leather couch*

*wonders what you'd feed cows to get that color*

*hugs KM* Congratulations! One of the best lessons I ever learned was the ability to do what I wanted when I wanted.

I'm very very happy for you.

Go KM!

Change is good- be it physical, emotional or whatnot- all are growth and advance us in some small way. So to be different is to be good, as to remain stagnent is evidence of no growth.

To allow youself to be yourself i a hard battle, but once won, is well worth it! Well done! *claps*

KM, I'm so happy to hear you're doing ok! It takes a whole lotta gumption to come out and say, "Ok world! Here I am and here I stay! I'm happy, I'm living my life and I don't wanna hear any negativity from YOU!" You're so lucky to discover it so young. Most people go through life never knowing that. *big hug*

Awww!

I love everybody.

I just wanted you all to know.



And you're never online, and... hold on. Damn AOL. You could ALL have been online, and I wouldn't even know. I hate AOL. And he's sick and tired, too. Damn it.

But I *love* you guys.

Yeah, like we didn't know that...

*blushes nonetheless*

Look mommy! It's a blushing bubster! I wonder if it comes with all the attachments?

*squidges KM*

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