h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

So, there I was, doing fine, in a reasonably good spurt of life.
Me and Frankie were friends, and I was happy with that...
Id moved out of the 'hoping you get back together' phase.
So she comes out one night on a Drum n Bass night I told her about, it was all fine.
Then she starts bumping and grinding with me, then we pull.
We continue to pull all night, I ask if she wants to give us another go.

She said she did.

I said that she was high as a kite and drunk.
She said phone me in the morning.
After I went home I got a text saying how lush it was to see me again.
I phoned her the next day and asked if she was for real the night before.

She said yes.

I don't here from her a couple of days.
My phone calls and texts were ignored.
I finally got a text back.
She said there was a lot of shit going on that she couldn't talk to me about.
She said she didn't know what was going on with anything.

My friends said leave it, she's playing games.
I said she ain't the type of girl to do that.
Besides, I trust her.

So a week later.
I'm still fretting over Frankie, whats going on, what she won't tell me.
Getting half-answers and unanswered calls.
So I go to a little metal night I know, try to find a girl to take my mind off of her.
But who should turn up but Frankie.

I go to the bar, buy her a drink.
Come back.
"This is my girlfriend." She says to me,
"You see why I couldn't talk"
I wasn't gonna get angry, I was calm.
I half suspected she had a boy or a girl anyway, it came as no surprise.
Just a quiet word, five minutes all I wanted.
I took her off to a quiet corner.
"Don't play games with me." I said.
Her friends turned up, with girlfriend in tow.
I said just give me five minutes.
I don't know how, I don't know why,
We ended up having a screaming arguement,
She accused me of lying, "we never pulled that night."
I denied it and screamed, "Why'd I put myself through this?"
I'd had enough, this had gone on too long.
Chucked my bottle at the wall, punched it hard, then was gone...




Not sure what happened then people, started as a summary of some events, ended up trying to morph into a poem.
So what happened next?
I ended up getting absolutely bollocksed in a flat with a load of girls and some rude boy gangsta wannabes. Actually, not wannabes, rude boy gangstas.

But thats a different story.

All that happened a couple of weeks back now... And to be honest, I'm glad I've seen her in that light. The fact that I defended her integrity to my mates just annoyed me, either I was very naive for a year, or shes changed since we were together. It could be either, she has finished school, moved out and got a proper job and new friends since we split...
But accusing me of lying when she knows brutal honesty is my way in this world, is just a grave personal insult. I'd like to say I hope her girlfriend got the right end of the stick and dumped her. But I don't, I don't really feel anything for or about that girl anymore. A slight sadness and mystification that someone you trust so much can fail in that trust so badly, but nothing strong.
I feel quite strong right now. Haven't called her since that night, my only weakness being one drunken text message when I saw her walking home...

So to be honest maybe those events were needed, to draw a curtain over taht part of my life. I certainly feel freer now then for a long while. But maybe thats just because lifes been going my way for a couple of weeks (weekend in Newquay, action with a couple of girlies, and a threesome from the other direction of what I was expecting, sharing a girl with a mate.)

I don't know, I feel optimistic, I feel I've just started to roll now, and I need to keep this up and make sure I don't get stopped again.

I see relationships as like ecstasy. Happy as f*ck for a while, then the comedown and the aftermath comes and gets you. Thing is, I can deal with a days comedown, but when the price you pay for that happiness stretches into months, you have to ask is it really worth it?

"We ended up having a screaming arguement,
She accused me of lying, "we never pulled that night."
I denied it and screamed, "Why'd I put myself through this?"
I'd had enough, this had gone on too long.
Chucked my bottle at the wall, punched it hard, then was gone..."

Hard luck chuck. I had exactly the same experience a few years back. Bummed me out good n' proper. You're welcome in Newport if you ever fancy a couple of bevvies.

B

Really? Your ex stood with her *girlfriend* having an arguement? Theres more of them out there than I thought...

Things are ok right now... Something snapped back the other night and Im glad it did. Now I can get back to concentrating on getting the multiple women a guy as gorgeous as me should have in tow. Currently we have the tiny blonde girl, the half-italian's back from Italy at the end of the week, and I've a couple of phone numbers to work on. The beauty of not getting into relationships...

I'd love to come to Newport mate, but you're added to the end of a very long list of people I've got the visit. Moneywise Im living hand to mouth right now, just had a holiday in Newquay and Ive bankrupted myself for a while. Im surviving by going to the pubs and clubs where Im familiar with the bouncers/staff so I won't get searched on the way in with my rucksack full of wine kindly donated by work.

Anyways, Im sure Ill have something depressing to post soon to combat this optimism!!!

Ah. No. When you said girlfriend, I just assumed you meant girly-friend, not lesbian love partner. Although I have been dumped for a woman before now, just not on that occasion to which I referred.

B

Resolution is painful. Meh.