h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

"without the people around me"
"you've taken that away from me"

Do you mean the real life people? Or are you including the virtual worlders here?

I would say that I'm concerned for you too - but I mostly see your problems as things you should be more than capable of sorting out for yourself as long as you believe in yourself enough (ie as much as I do from this limited virtual view of things).

"without the people around me"

By that I meant the people in RL who I have to interact with on a day to day basis. Friends (what few I have), family, co-workers (and now former co-workers), and now I'm not stuck at work all the time, I was planning on going back to band practices and church.

However - now they know - they will behave differently towards me. Pity everywhere - and if there's one thing I really really can't stand, it's pity.

If one day, I don't feel like talking about something I've said in my h2g2 journal - I can just not access h2g2 that day - or ignore those convos till I feel up to it. In RL - you can't just avoid stuff that easily, as people don't accept no for an answer.

Someone Else: You okay
Lifson Kofie: I'm fine
SE: No you're not
LK: No really - I'm fine
SE: There's something wrong, why don't you tell me?
LK: Look - I've just got a lot on my mind at the moment
SE: Tell me, get it off your chest
LK: Look - no - I'm fine. I just need some space to sort things out
SE: You'll only make it worse by bottling things up,

etc. etc. etc.

I don't want that. The practical help and advice I got by leaving my journal on h2g2 was great. No pity - just advice, practicality, and the ability to get on with my day to day interaction with everyone else still thinking that I'm a relatively normal person, instead of some fed-up self-harming lunatic that needs to be pitied.

Looks like that's over now. I'm just left to screaming silently in my head, as my only outlet has been taken away from me.

Are you saying this virtual place is gone because they will be watching it now? Obviously the real life situation has changed but you had moved on from some of those people anyway. I'm not so convinced anything is different here since you already "outed" yourself to some extent - depending on whatever it is that isn't supposed to be known.

Lifson, there's still the e-mail outlet. There are always people you can contact. SEF and me being two of them.

Tube
caring

since when do you listen to what i say? this is a first for me. There is only concern to be found at the hall, no one takes pity on you, believe me. I told one person. and your kicking off. i think that its good to be reminded that this is a public place that anyone can read.. didnt mean to pry, just being nosy, as no one knew where you were.

SEF:
"Are you saying this virtual place is gone because they will be watching it now?"

Yes

"Obviously the real life situation has changed but you had moved on from some of those people anyway."

Only through working so much - I was planning on going back at the soonest opportunity. Can't do that now.

Tube:
"Lifson, there's still the e-mail outlet. There are always people you can contact. SEF and me being two of them."

Thanks.

thenoone:
"There is only concern to be found at the hall, no one takes pity on you, believe me."

It's the same thing in effect. People react differently to you when they have that kind of information.

"I told one person. and your kicking off."

Yes - because one person tells another, who tells another, etc. Also - you had no bl**dy right.

"i think that its good to be reminded that this is a public place that anyone can read.."

Yes, but most people have the common sense and decency to realise and accept that people in online communities have psuedonyms and anonymity for a reason. Even if I did know who someone was in RL, I would not go round telling the RL associates of that person, the people that the person has to interact with, what they had written online. It's called decency, and respect for anonimity...not that you've ever showed any vestage of either.

"didnt mean to pry, just being nosy, as no one knew where you were."

B****cks. Besides - weren't you lifetime banned from here?

I'll just confirm Tube's volunteering of me as contactable via email.