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I know how you feel

Post 1

Skelligsbro

Rather a bold statement I agree but upon reflection, REFLECTION is my favourite pastime. I met a girl once fell in love wrote her name somewhere, still keep her memory in my heart, lost her address but never gave up I'd find someone like her or maybe even her. Right now I'd settle for finding, wait for it ....me. I've reflected and reflected and reflected and come to realise that every person you meet, every relationship you have reflects back to you none other than your SELF.

I came to your journal because I have a brother who was born on August 20, I stayed because I was captivated by your style of writing, and felt connected . This is my lifes theme searching for a connection, a REAL connection with people, I love to write (and read)and talk (and listen) about feelings and thoughts and well you know "stuff".

I was fascinated by the candour of your journal enteries (please feel free to have a read of mine, today's was a doosey) and wondered if you had talked to your wife about your feelings ? and if not why you aren't concerned she might read it ? and get upset... anyway I enjoyed it.

I'm just going back to review some more of your page, so I'm leaving with the sincere hope that we will talk again.

Byr for now


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Post 2

sdotyam

I don`t doubt it for a moment. Its something we do, us males. It`s strange the way people connect with each other on this site. My first contact was from a young lady (younger than me) who shared the same birthday and also read my homepage and then introduced herself. We email each other regularly and are not too far apart geographically. I mention that only because of the world-wide possibility of contacts on this site. Another even younger lady with whom I swapped emails with lives on the kibbutz in Israel where I met, loved and lost the girl in question on my homepage.
It seems even the trivial matter of choosing your handle can lead to unexpected results. When you consider there are over 180,000 researchers with access to h2g2 and only 366 possible birthdays - thats nearly 500 with the same date.
Did I notice correctly a nz at the end of your server address? Are you in New Zealand?

I have not discussed the contents of the homepage entry with my wife. She would not understand my feelings, to be honest I don`t understand them myself. She does not access the web and would be unlikely to ever read those words,
nor would it change the way I feel if she did.
When I`m in the mood to write, I just write down the thoughts in my head which sometimes works o.k. and other times,such as annoying threads, is in your face and in need of editing.


I know how you feel

Post 3

Skelligsbro

Hello again

it seems we have a mutual aquaintance, either that or I only converse with people born on 20 August, the list so far : you, Lighthouse Girl and my brother. Perhaps I could start a gathering based on 20 August, doesn't quite have the pull of say Friday The Thirteenth but stranger things have happened.

Truth be told I've lurked amongst (why does that saying intrigue me?) some of your conversations with Light (my shortened version of her full name) and i liked the easy rapport you have developed, well in fact I envied the connection you had made. Same old same old, I'm forever looking for real people, real connections, people who aren;t afraid to say what they feel, even when it hurts, no especially when it hurts!

So once again thanks for replying, I'd like to stay in touch and check out your page from time to time, it goes without saying but I'll say it anyway please feel free to visit me at your leisure and tell me more, yes yes please tell me more about what resonates in your heart. Does your Soul speak to you ? is that the thing that is missing in your life ?


I know how you feel

Post 4

sdotyam

Hi there
You seem to be doing an excellent job of keeping keeping information about yourself to the barest minimum.
I`ve been to your homepage where you tell us...well, nothing really. Is it a game? Like a detective puzzle to solve, to find out who is Skelligsbro? Lets see what we know...you`re in New Zealand but you`re from Liverpool. You`re male. Your handle is from a book by David Almond called Skellig.
Question: why did you leave England and Liverpool, a place that you`re obviously facinated with?
Answers: Desmond Decker and the ACES. The Cavern Club is on Matthew St. Pete Best was the drummer who left in 1960 before the Beatles were famous. Or did you mean Tommy Moore who left the year before?
Does my soul speak to me? Yes it does. It tells me that I should escape the prison I have created for myself.
However, my upbringing, that shaped my moral beliefs and guides my every day behaviour tells me I cannot leave.
Now-- I await some real detail about you.


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Post 5

Skelligsbro

In an effort to not bore the pants off anyone brave enough to visit my page I left some cryptic stuff on my first attempt, re-reading my second attempt indicates it hasn't improved much, I am most willing however to tell you anything you want to know and I'm always open to suggestions about the content of my page. i'm relatively new to h2g2 and just feeling my way. Your answers to my pop "Pop Quizzes were all correct but they are only surface stuff, I have a great interest in Pop Music especially 1970 - 1980. The reason for this is in itself a short novel. Yes I do love and miss Liverpool but I have a real dilema because I also love NZ. I miss my family who all live in the UK and at times I feel lonely and isolated.

I had to try hard not to get defensive about your reply because I felt a little hurt, as if you were attacking me - there you've learned something about me I'm very sensitive.

It sounds like your moral standards are very similar to mine and this confirms a theory of mine, in that I believe every one we meet reflects aspects of ourseleves back to us, a familiar theme in my writings and replies to visitors to my page. My point being your response triggered something inside me that I need to look at, it reflects more about me than you, but converesely if you did feel something / anything when you lurked on my pages that also is a message for you to look at yourself.

Enough for now, like I said should you want more info just ask I have nothing to hide


apologies

Post 6

sdotyam

Having re-read my second posting you have every right to feel defensive.It reads jarringly and made me wince. My apologies.
I was annoyed at something else, nothing to do with your postings and that childish outburst was the result. Not a nice way to welcome someone new to this site. I guess I won`t make an ACE!
Your newly edited homepage looks better and it was inexcusable to be so critical to someone just starting out on their journey.
There is an old saying: He who peeps shall see that which shall vex him! But that shouldn`t affect us here in this place as we are here to see what other people are writing and talking about.

I think your questions are very difficult to answer with any degree of accuracy because our tastes change as we grow, but...lets see,
film has such a wide and varied appeal that to declare any one film from one genre as a favourite is difficult,however, I love `Braveheart`. Although primarily an action movie it moves easily across other film `types` romance,comedy,tragedy.

Many years ago I read Robert Heinleins `Time enough for love.` Coming in at a whopping 600 pages plus.If you can get through the first 100 pages its a great read. Its sci-fi,but the moral questions it raises about life, sex and the meaning of love are disturbing and thought provoking. Also,its full of beautiful women.

Talking about beautiful women - I love listening to Madonna.Her`Ray of light` album is brilliant.

Food..something to look forward to everyday. My favorite used to be steak, mushrooms and chips. I guess now its curry.
Well thats all for now.


No offence taken

Post 7

Skelligsbro

Hi thanks for coming back and thanks for your encouragement and answers to the quiz. Yes it's very difficult to pick an all time favourite in those categories, the question however promotes thought - I like that.

Curry -yum, my favourite is Chicken Tikka Masala, can't get a good one in NZ but always OD on my returns to UK. Our mutual friend Light is a big fan of yours and I hoped that we too might be able to kindle a friendship. i guess time will tell.

You seem to know a lot about the Beatles and Liverpool have you ever been on the Ferry?

Bye for now smiley - smiley


Its o.k. to cry aloud

Post 8

sdotyam

Hi there
Yes i have been to Liverpool, once, it was a long time ago and i dont remember anything about it. We were staying with some friends of my parents and they lived in chester. We went to the zoo there as i recall.
I liked Beatles music and still do, and the trivia you mention is stored in the minds of many people of my age.
I see from your recent journal entry that you have taken the first step to unburden some of yourself and let people in.
Our mutual friend is a good listener as I try to be. But i find its easier to talk with someone of the opposite sex about anything thats `sensitive` as i have little or no experience of discussing such things with any male friends or male members of my family.My father did not encourage such things and would not accept that its good to cry. He was very young though when his own father died. They mess you up your parents, they don`t mean to but they do. Its a cycle that probably will never end, until we really understand the human psyche.You don`t mention what started the depression.Was it a relationship? Or was it a combination of lots of things one after the other. I believe that crying when you`re with someone can be very theraputic - my wife has seen me cry many times, and has held me. But crying alone is just, well -painful. I`m sure you`ll find that sharing the pain will make it easier, whoever you share with.


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