h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I wish all those other journal entries weren't there but i'm going to keep them in anyway. Ho hum.
Many many things have happened since last time. Quick summation of my life: i'm going back to uni soon into second year, hopefully moving out with philly, heather and susie, also hopefully getting a kitten; and i'm in love with my best friend who has a girlfriend who was my ex-flatmate's ex-girlfriend which is how she met my best friend and she thinks i hate her and their relationship is going down the tubes cos she's so paranoid. For the record i didn't hate her before and even when i was jealous i made a huge effort to be nice to her, but she still thinks i hate her and moans about how i hate her to my best friend and keeps making him choose between me and her. And basically i do hate her now because a) i'm not going to make an effort if she's not going to accept it, i have better things to concentrate my feelings on, and b) she's making my best friend's life miserable. I wish he didn't keep telling me every minute detail of their relationship though cos no wonder she's paranoid about me if he's doing that, plus it just gets me really upset and worried and frustrated. And he's being a asswipe to all his other friends and expects me to defend him and tell them what's up with him cos he can't be bothered doing it himself. The only reason he says i'm the only one he can talk to is because i'm the only one who won't yell at him and get angry and tell him all his problems are his own fault and if he just pulled his finger out his ass for five minutes he'd be able to sort half of them out. but i DO want to tell him that, and i do get angry with him, i just don't vent it at him because i wanted to keep him and for him to trust me. But i can't cope with it anymore cos all my anger and frustration at him gets bottled up and manifests itself in other, more self-destructive ways. I think i'll have it out with him tonight, because everyone has told me that he seems to have no regard for my feelings at all anymore and he's just using me cos he thinks i'm never going to tell him to bugger off because i'm so 'obsessively in love' with him but screw that, i'm at the end of my patience. Hey, it only took me NINE MONTHS to get to this stage (or four months if you count from the start of his relationship with his girlfreind). How selfish do i sound now? He's just offered me a lift to the union but only if i pay him in. I'll see how it goes tonight, but i don't think i can last much longer.

unrequited love is the worst thing ever. theres nothing to be done but try adn get over him

hey, i'm over him! yay!
he's still my best friend though, and he and said girl have been going out on and off since then, basically. i must stress 'on and off' because they break up LITERALLY every five minutes and she runs off crying every five minutes (she has got a point about the stuff she yells at him for though) and he always says he can never get back again with her after that last fight and then the next day, they're back together. i've just tried to extricate myself from the whole situation. i'm better friends with her now though mainly cos he wasn't exactly treating her very well and much as she's not my kind of person, that really wasn't fair and i couldnt let him get away with it. thank you for the attention though.