h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

This is odd.

I don't mean, odd like your Aunt Agatha's obsession with gherkins odd... I don't, even, mean odd, like oh, look what a strange outgrowth I appear to have on my left knee that's grown overnight, odd. but.

I've felt so .... 'normal' all day.

slept terrible, maybe got two hours sleep, so awoke expeting to have a reallly rubbish day.

Took drugs etc., etc., exactly as per useual.

And... went into town with W, in search of some socks I want, which we couldn't get, but I ordered them from my fav female clothing shop, which actually does things like socks and shoes in my size raindeer socks with grippy hearts on the bottom - don't like slippers, but socks are OK, but with floorboards etc, need non slip ones really... and, they were supper cheap; she looked at them, said they were £3, per pair... then by the time she put the order in they'd halfed in price, free delivery to store, ready to pick up Monday

was hot normally when I'm out, so today I only wore a cotton dress, no sleeves, and leggings plus ankle boots out, and it was quite cold, but at least I didn't overheat...

Just... feel so odd... so not unwell...

mentally more than anything; no brain fog not any fatigue, etc, still getting random pieces of cramp in legs and feet, but not the massive all over body pain I get every day normally, nor the all over muscle weakness... whcih is nice..

But... why? I don't think I like things without expliations.... there has to be a rreason but I cna't figure it... not changed any meds or suppliments baiscally eating the same as ever I do, etc...

just cooking up a chicken and mushroom and rosemary risotto for W and I... must go check that.

out this evening with a local LGBT group, just to the pub we use a lot anyhow, for a drink and chat... which should be good, must shower straight after dinner so we're not too late hmm... must decide what body wash to use, and what I might wear.... maybe the leopard print leggings and my leopard print dress... still need lepard print b boots, and handbag some time...

Oh. and one very odd thing... I threw a CD on a little while ago, as WWIII has just broken out outside, and... I'm 'feeling' emotions from the music.... first time in nearly two years I think

Maybe the good thyroid meds have had time to build up, and the others to go all the way away?

Yeah, super scientific medical talk

May the weirdness of normality continue!

Wait, no... The normality of weirdness? The weirdnality of normalness? The normalness of weirdnality? Whatever, may the brainfog never descend again!

the thyroid meds was about my best guess too Though it seems odd that I was still so much better when I didn't take them for ages, and idn't then not develop any symptoms of being low on thyroid whilst not having any if anything, now, with the hot flushes and heart palpiations (still getting them of course), seem more like symptoms of over-medication on the thyroid mesds.... but, annoyingly so many of the symptoms of low and high, even on a single hormone, can be the same; and with all the differnt hormones missing, its difficult to say which symptoms a sign of any given hormone, and then if its a sign of being low or high... - combined that with the fact you can't measure hormone levels fo my cortisol, and for cortisol and all the other hormones, the 'normal' 'refernce range' is so big as to make any blood measurements meaningless anyhow, which is why your ment to mainly dose them on symptoms of over/under replacement, once one has gotten to/in 'normal range' as it were

I'd not say the brian fog has gone entirely, but as near as makes no differnce compaired to how rubbish I've felt now for so long; TBH Not sure if I quite recall what feeling 'normal' is anyhow - its easier to say 'this isn't normal' than 'this is', in some odd way

err... like for the symptoms thing; low testosterone; hot flushes. high testosterone; hot flushes. low thyroid cold all the tiem (never had that symtpoms). too much thyroid, hot flushes, too little cortisol cold sweating, shivering cold plus fever.... and... yeh, half the time I get opposite symptoms of low when I am low, and visa versa

I can't imagine just how terrible a person I must have been in my previous life, to end up with a body quite as rubbish as mine in this... assuming one believes in reincarnation

I'm just hoping, rather selfishly, I admit that you'll be feeling well enough in July for a proper visit! You, W, and Clive are the only reasons I specifically want to do Cambridge (though I might poke around the university as long as I'm there).

Oh I think I'll be well enough for the visit! - I can do most things, its just an effort for doing everything whereas it never was... E.G., walking up the stairs, actually going outside, but, on a good day I'm basically fine really, even if I do stuff and I'm just utterly vaccant...- I kinda have to just turn off completely a lot of the time, as too much brain energy is bein gspent processing body pain and inability to process sensory inputs, like noise in the street, etc, so I just go autopilot and do stuff, whilst letting my brain float away to somewhere that is anywhere but me... hmm... kinda hard to describe but like today and yesterday, and oddly most evenings, I'm fine - I can basically just ignore all the pain most of the time (sure I could do painkillers, but I'm not doing painkillers more drugs to hide symptoms is not a fix IMO), and I can just proces the pain away, or work through it, but the brain fog bit... - I apoologise in advance if I seem really distant not with it and generally just ... not caring about anything; my emotions just dont' function 99% of the time, due to the not having hormone thing and the synthetics not being adaquat replacements... - I'm sort of just an empty peroson in some respects, which is soul distroying but... I'm hoping it might improve err... hoping that a lot really, its all a bit dessolate inside my body really , emotionally etc.