h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Gosh. forgot about that! err. yeh. I tend to forget everything thesedays, stupid chemo drugs

out tomorrow night, for a meal; with the people I normally go to ten pin with; not that I've been to ten pin in months... - heck, not sure I'm even strong enough now to pick my bowling ball up, so weak and muscle wastage etc damn chemo drugs
Might be a laugh... I have a feeling some of them will be a little shocked to see me... alive as it were err, damn chemo drugs
I may even indulge in a couple of - if I angle my purchasing time for beer correctly, I'm sure I oughta be able to at least use cancer to wangle a couple beers out of people
so tempted to turn up though.... in a dress taht'd.... really throw them hmm... maybe not... I'm not that* much of a sadist

Just been looking at teh menu for where we're going.... I've narrowed starters down to a choice of two, and dessert is just a no brainer, there was only one choice (the most full of choc and cream thing, err, I forget what it was called damn chemo drugs starter I think I may have either the garlic breaded mushrooms, or... err, whatever the other one was I thought looked OK )
Can't decide on mains though.... tempted by the chilli thing, with rice and stuff, or maybe chicken ceaser salad, or the veggy pie thing looks quite yummy, actually...

William went home today, after being here a couple nights, I did the laundry today, I forgot to do yesterday; was almost set to go put the curtain rail up, as I felt like I had the energy for it... then my energy just went damn chemo drugs so that ... didn't get done - may attempt doing the curtain rail tomorrow, although that may just knacker me out, before the meal.

oh. and I'm being picked up at 6.40 for the meal. (if I don't write it soemwhere, I'll probably forget), err, now I just need to remember where I wrote it. damn chemo drugs. I miss not having a working memory err, which reminds me, must go finish putting the laundry away

damnit. now only two weeks until radiotherapy starts Hope I can recover a bit more before then. - travelling to and from hospital each day will be so knackering, and If I've still got fatigue from teh chemo, then get fatigue from the radiotherapy.... - can't end up having to taxi there and back each day, that'll just cost a fortune.. sod that...

Still thinking of trying to book a few days away, somewhere not too distant, for W and I, in a hotel, for next week, probably towards the end of the week (have council coming a week Wednesday to collect the old matress, and a massive bag that I need to fill up some more, with various rubbish to dump)
so tired. not been sleeping again. much, or at all. more tired I get the less I sleep. natch.

Definatly booking the weekend away for W and I; well, Friday until the Sunday, back here on the Sunday, so ready for the radiotherapy on Monday the 6th so... not looking forward to radiotherapy
think I may have to skip the starter and the dessert tomorrow.... weighed myself again tonight not lost any weight afterall and... then i foolishly tried on my Levi's, after the bath.... I was wearing them, right up until cycle3 of chemo, if not even, for the first infusion of cycle 4. they barely go over my calfs now, though they're fine on my thighs, and. I can't even button thenm up now damnit. maybe I should lower my hydrocortisone dose even more... even though that'd mean having to get super-funky with a sharp knife, to get the 10Mg tablets, not even into halfs (as I take now), but down to 2.5 Mg quater tablets... not sure that's even possible damnit. forgot to take hydrocortisone this evening, then realised I felt far too well, so remembered, and took it an hour or two later than I should... which means there is even less chance of sleep tonight. Took the melatonin though, which I guess may help... though it doesn't always seem too again now, having been back on it a while...
whole bunch of hot flushes this evening... - thought the chemo drugs oughta be wearing off more by now, it'll be a month Thursday since the last infusion, and sill feeling as rubbish as if I'd just had an infusion a week ago... do wish they had some kinda follow up clinic consultation, after chemo, so i could have gotten information on recovery times etc, but they seem to have forgotten bothering to do that for me, and the person who said they'd follow up the missing consultation for me, either didn't bother, or... dunno