h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

why... at nearly half past two in the morning..... 24 hours after I l last went to bed, and then didn't sleep at all.... so tired... am I not sleeping? well... cramp again for one damn thing damnit. err. keep loosing rack of when I did actually last sleep... err. night before last, so.... err guess I've been awake since about 8 AM Saturday? I so oughta feel like really tired... nah. - desite which had a really high energy day again today. did stuff.... tidying bits of cleaning, put away an aboslute mountin of laundry, from Sunday (about a dozen hand towels, more than that tea-towels, and at least a dozen flannels, plus dishcloths, and maybe 8 bath towels, a ... dozen shirts I guess, about the same in knickers and socks, a pair of jeans and a pair of trousers, and a fw other things
My blood pressure is so wonky... sure that's the thing making me so ill feeling right now half the time; notice it when doing the laundry earlier; bending dozens of times, to get towels etc., out of the dryer, and then fold each and put in a pile; was the bending over bit.... - exactly the same, then later on, cleaning the bath, before I bathe, bending; soon as I bend to reach the back wall side of the bath, and clean along it, I get the blood pressure drop... dizzy... fainty feeling, light headed sort of weird feeling in my brain... etc... - been getting the same feelings a lot, just alking about in town etc... though, actually the pastcouple days, cept for the few times I've induced it, by E.G., sorting laundry, its not been quite so bad in 'general'
Did a chicken salad tonight... cooked up four decent sized chicken thights, tow of which I had tonight, and the other two kept back, in the fridge, for tomorrow night (maybe ricsotto, stir fry, another salad, not sure yet), Moved a bunch mor e essential music onto the IPod... I've been doing that in such a ... piece meal fasion, which is stupid relaly... anyhow, got Sir henry at rawlinson end onto it, which might be an interesting listen during chemo Thursday not heard it in ages plus the Ruttles, and some old blues and dub things

Found an excellent use for my Cigarette case, no I don't smoke; its perfect for holding the little individual eye drop thinggies; can fit a good 15 or more into it, over the two sides, and the elastic is about right to hold em in place - yeh.... just to... annoy nurses as much as anything... they'll so be unhappy seeing me take a cigarette case out of my handbag.... and then... pull eye drop thingies from it

Cammemile tea now brewing, just had a cup of the Carabien peppermint.... but, I must try sleep at some point, so seems sensible to gradually wind down a bit... just did my nails and hands this Almond a oil cuticle oil pen has lasted so well... may need to revisit bodyshop soon though, for more... haven't been in their for ages... Lush has corrupted me that dry hand wash/conditioner from Lush... gosh... that'd have saved my hands so much pain had I got it months back gona pick up some more of it this week I think, so I can have a tub by both the kitchen and the bathroom si sink/basin alongside the alcohol gel, and ordinary handwash sitting by each - gona be so hard to 'turn off' this steralising, hygine thing once I'm actually able, I guess... hopefully I can... its ... a bit... ep epically .. over the top >

Bath tonight was gorgeous, with a marshmellow bath-bubble bar I think it was, plus of course, my useual luxeary bath melt skin so soft... Hmmm... especially noticable in places now. given .. the lack of hair, like on my legs its like super sah shaved smooth.... kinda ... nice were that perminant really mmmm.

Guess I oughta go drink this cammemile whilst its warm, and finish moisturising,..... then maybe try bed, fi the cramp sods off for a little while; I can't do the processing pain into colours etc., whilst trying to sleep, its too much of a conscious effort, and isn't really possible whilst sleeping etc.... hmmm... at least I think it isn't... not that sleeps guarenteed of course - kinda tempted to mention the sleep thing to them in clinic again, but, really, if they're just gona keep saying 'sleeping tablets' its a waste of time, after my experience with the zopiclone I don't really wanna touch those v evil things again maybe I should have followed by Dad's advice... and just stuck to odka...

and, so... that ended up, me emptying the kitchen bin at 3 AM, and putting in a new bin bag; and having to do some serious bin squishing outside, to fit the bag in; actually now I'm not even sure they did empty the bins today.... Guess they nay be a day late due to bank hol Monday


Then... I had more tea. and moisturised, and stuff. and had more tea.
and got into bed, to the sounds of the dawn chorus, at about five minutes to 4
and.


slept.





and.


slept.


until just a few minutes after 10 AM.

Oh. how. odd.... ; felt so ... 'groggy' when I woke up an got out of bed... a differnt kinda feeling to the useual blood pressure nonsense and faint feeling stuff I get normally on waking/getting up now -
actually kinda like the groggyness I got from the zopiclone sleeping tablets, the first few times I used them, back months ago, when they worked and didn't set me off on some paranoid/hallucinating/panic attack/anxiety screwed brain thing, like they did recently, the last time (ever) I tried using the sleeping tablets...



6 hours?! I don't think I've slept that long, straight for, well, I don't think I have this year.

and, truth be told, I don't actually feel any better for it, perhaps, even less good, on sleeping... still sort of fuzzy headed... even now, after being awake some time...


did morning medication (folic acid, hydrocortisone, on waking. ),

went to clean and steralise kitchen.

and nearly fainted.

Lodger, had washed up.

Oh. My. Bob.
cleaned then steralised worktops, microwave, cupbaord doors, drawer doors/handles, fridge handle/door, taps, etc, in next to no time, thanks to having clear worktops. cleaned cooker top, toaster. etc.

coffee on to brew.
Cafinated mobile on, sent some messages to William, asked him to book appointment for eye clinic, as I kninda knew I'd either just not get round to it, or forget, or get to it late, since I was up late.... - got appointment booked for 2 PM Friday; we've ... I've an appointment Friday morning, 11, AM, with endochrinology, so hopefully that'll work out nicely for once, and save an extr atrip over to the hospital; if timing works well, we'll even have time between the two appointments, for going up to teh chip shop/cafe near the hospital we've discovered (still can't decide what to have, before my final chemo thursday, maybe fish N chips again....)
finished pot of coffee, started on juice, and water, eye drops, eye cream/antibiotic, etc

Did a late breakfast/lunch thing, at about midday; sort of duck egg scrambled with roast beef and grated cheese, and butter and black pepper (needed cream really but didn't have any, so had to add a little water, to reduce viscosity of the duck egg proteins), was gorgeous...... on top of pain au levain, toasted, with buttery goodness ozzing everywhere (should I just book an appointment with cardiology now, to save time?)

piddled on net a while, sorted Emails, etc,; ordered up two bath sheets, and four more hand towels, in purple, of course - was tempted by pink though... but purple seems to the towel colour coordination be these days... and it matches the purple leather collar I wear... and the wrist band and, my purple silk shirts, and. there seems to be a purple theme. - for once I am not to blame for the purple thing....

got to 2 PM, kitchen cleaned etc, coffee pot cleaned, had had by then two cups of tea; back on Indian tea again, earlier in day anyhow ; I had utterly gone off th etaste of cafinated/indian tea, feels good to be back drinking it again.... real* tea : I'll still switch to the poncy hippy tea now though, for the rest of the day (peppermint carabien, and plain cammemile seem to be favoured ones ATM)

now copying CDs to ITunes, hence to IPod.

next up is doing my feet;
suddenly noticed the other night, one of the heels was..
suffering from the chemo drugs (quite common apparently with ABVD).

got to sort it proper; if it peels badly, as it threatened the other day, then, major infection point/risk. so gona try sort it real good now, (did a quick fix at whatever middle of night/morning time it was when i first noticed, of course)

speaking of infection risk... damnit... cut myself shaving yesterday; seems my platelets are good though, clotted so quickly and, simularly, got a sore bit on my lip keeps trying to open as a cut/wound.... ; plenty of lip butter/balm in use of course, but even so
such stupid little things... but... no. compromise.

gona do my feet in bedroom; floor needs a sweep anyhow, so I can then just clear all the crap up, straight after...

leftover two chicken thighs i cooked last night, in fridge, to formulate something for dinner with.... maybe a stir fry thing (have mushrooms, onions, ginger, garlic, green pepper), or, perhaps a risotto... or if I'm lazy, maybe just a salad again (have mixed leaves and cucumber floating about)

I think, I may even try a nap this afternoon/early evening, before dinner... head sort of feeling like it needs it... not as awake feeling as I useually am, even after two or three days not sleeping. how annoying....

2legs? Hello? *shakes 2legs* 2legs, wake up, you're dreaming...

...that's the only way I can explain the fact that your lodger washed up. Either that or you've somehow used so much coconut moisturiser that you've slipped through a wormhole into an alternate reality

Deb

I know! its... like the second time I recall him washign up ... since ... end of Januaary!