h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

If I could find it, I would probably try it. No, really. For nearly have of my life I have experienced what modern medicine terms "substance abuse". I decided to use my journal to vent many of my frustrations now that I have begun a new life--sober.
When my life turned into a scene from "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" this summer, I knew it was time to quit. A series of minor epiphanies have followed:
A) I'm really not a social person after all. I used alcohol and marijuana to numb any anxieties I have when in social situations.
Many times, getting ready to go out took just as long as the evening's entertainment itself. Several glasses of wine here, a
bowl or two there...and I could be the charming, witty person that was hidden under a blanket of intense shyness.
B) I don't really like the bar scene, either. It's boring. Everybody just sits there, the music is too loud, I can't hear the conversation of my companions, and invariably I am bothered by drunk jerks.
C) Alcohol really makes me sick. Oh, I used to drink anyone and everyone under the table. But now after only one or two I am retching violently and suffering from the "DT's" for up to 24 hours afterward. As I understand it, this is one of the red flags of alcoholism, signifying the final stages before death.
D) I am really stupid when stoned, and have lost some of my short-term memory from massive usage.

But none of these epiphanies have entirely stopped the craving. I have to learn all over again how to be an adult and deal with life's problems. And I have to be comfortable with myself, tarnished halo and all.

It gets better.

It has. My one-month anniversary of sobriety is tomorrow (October 25th). I feel much better physically, mentally, and spiritually. I have even started dreaming again. I didn't realize until now that I had stopped dreaming while I was asleep. That was really weird when I discovered that!

Gragulations! But, keep in mind, 'ODAT'.

"Yo Fraulein, accept my apologies please. I send a wish of strength and fortitude your way!"



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