This is the Message Centre for U521150
does it count?
U521150 Started conversation Nov 29, 2003
oh i feel so sad. i had a rehearsal and concert with my orchestra - devon youth orchestra - today, with some other people randomly filling up spaces and also with a 'choir', i say it in quote marks cos it was the 1 and only day they sang. the orchestra played shotakovich carnival thing, with the choir also we played excerpts from carmina burana by karl orff.
i woke up - at my friends house - kind of ill, sore throat, but didnt say anything. Her cat bit me affectionately if a little hard. i was fine.
then over the day i just felt more and more ill. sore throat was added to and joined by aches, hot and cold flashes, stuffiness, shivers, headaches, lightheadedness.
i texted lovely hannah, before i started feeling really bad, said 'say hello to rosa'. shes with rosa, see, i ask her if it would be okay if i could come over to rosas in the evning when i get home, but both hannah and i say it would be intrusive, no, not the best of ideas. then over the day i started feeling worse and worse. and i didn't text hannah for any help, because she's with rosa right now and i dont want to intrude, you cant have intrude without rude, i dont want to be mean.
but now we come to the crux of it all, rosa lives ten minutes walk from me. what the f*ck do i do? i feel absolutely manure-like in both ways now, physically and emotionally. i was crying in the car home after the concert. it's only 6.45pm.
and i dont know if -
im not sure whether i hurt myself or not. i bit all my nails, admittedly trying to go too short but it didnt hurt at all, didnt succeed. i washed my hands in the toilets for ages in ice cold water so they went numb, then scratched them a bit, but i didnt feel the scratching and the numbness went away. did it count? i dont know, im sorry.
and i dont know what to do, i just dont. im crying and the first thing, the only thing i want to do is be around hannah. and yes rosa too, shes the 2nd person id go to cos shes so great and wonderful. but i dont want to intrude, dont want to ruin their evening and night together, but i dont know if i can last the night alone.
what do i do?
does it count?
cinnamon_spider Posted Nov 30, 2003
Really? You sound like a stalker. Yeah, I dozed for a bit, listening to my CD, then woke up and decided to come on.
How are you?
does it count?
U521150 Posted Nov 30, 2003
Oh my gosh, I'm even more of a stalker than you know...I went online after hanging up and pootled around, and I did think, "oh she was tired so she might be napping or something before she comes on". 
I'm fine thank you.
How are you?
does it count?
cinnamon_spider Posted Nov 30, 2003
Kind of tired, still a bit achey. Can we talk on the other messagey thing, I want to get it as long as possible!
does it count?
Patron Saint of Kittens... aka Pantherlady THE Werepanther of h2g2 and Queen of BBNs Posted Dec 1, 2003
*Don't mean to butt in here, but i hope you feel abit better later...*
does it count?
U521150 Posted Dec 1, 2003
It's not butting in at all, thank you 
Yeah, feel much better now.
Key: Complain about this post
does it count?
- 1: U521150 (Nov 29, 2003)
- 2: cinnamon_spider (Nov 30, 2003)
- 3: U521150 (Nov 30, 2003)
- 4: cinnamon_spider (Nov 30, 2003)
- 5: U521150 (Nov 30, 2003)
- 6: cinnamon_spider (Nov 30, 2003)
- 7: Patron Saint of Kittens... aka Pantherlady THE Werepanther of h2g2 and Queen of BBNs (Dec 1, 2003)
- 8: cinnamon_spider (Dec 1, 2003)
- 9: U521150 (Dec 1, 2003)
More Conversations for U521150
Write an Entry
"The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy is a wholly remarkable book. It has been compiled and recompiled many times and under many different editorships. It contains contributions from countless numbers of travellers and researchers."