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It's been awful long time since I left England.... Believe you me
22 years!!!! OMG I really waste long time only to concentrate on 'recovering' from my mental problem... And still I can't get back myself.
Japan attracts many European ppl, but it's really conservative and they have had bad complex to the 'English' (American English) after defeating WW2. It's absolutely nonsense.
Japanese parents push their children to learn American English much more than learn how to survive / to be independent in Japan.
As most of my folks here know that I've got Japanese problems... since I lost my voice. Though I can speak now, but I really have difficulties to live in Japan because all of Japanese except for medical staff or very limited Japanese can't understand my situations. They force to write Japanese how many times I insist that I can't write Japanese in pen if I try to do, then I will have fits. After they see me having fit, they try to calm me down.. too late. You know if they see me, black hair, eyes, looks like absolutely 100% Japanese, they don't care my Japanese problem so that they speak to me Japanese and if I speak other languages (when I refuse to speak Japanese). they push me strongly to speak Japanese.

This won't happen in other counties. I mean if I talk about my problem, most of my overseas friends understand what I mean whereas Japanese friends (I FOUND THAT I HAVE NO JAPANESE FRIENDS ANYMORE... I can say that they are bit familiar acknowledge like neighbours.)

I feel that I'm a stranger in Japan. And I find that I can't go back to England..
I know it'll be becoming impossible to complete my last PLAN..

All I can do is to post something here even though there're not many folks responding here, as well.

But all in all, this is like my very slight 'line' to keep the relationship between me and England.

So sorry for this gloomy journal. but I really am not keen on CURRENT JAPAN.
Too much to live

I am soooooooooooo happy if you will remember me and will keep in touch with me

Well, I'm very much looking forward to hearing from you soon

Take care and have a lovely day

Hello Taamyu, I am very sorry to hear about your situation and I hope that it will improve soon.

from one who has always been different and never felt like he "fitted in"

be yourself!love, it's who YOU are - I don't become what others want me to become. I am myself! and no one on this planet will ever change me - I bow to no one

dispel all negative thoughts from your mindand only think positive ones

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Taamyu, read all this threadsee the strength that is within it, from my son, my daughter later in the posts and her accident and methen on to all our friends and the power vibes they send - everything about this thread is a morale booster to each and everyone of us


Remember! I don't do negative thoughts, so I know you are far stronger than you thinktake no backward stepsforward onwards and upwards only!

believe in yourself and you'll come out a winner
ride the storm and good weather will follow

Hiya Kat
It's really hard to live in Japan.
Don't misunderstand about Japanese.
They are not good and gentle race.
Most of all are not interested in any other ppl except for their family members.
that's why the Fukushima nuclear power planet problems haven't solved.
All they do is to demonstrate against the nuclear power plant, but they never think how to 'remove' how to 'solve' those problem. Compare with Chernobyl case.

Hiya Animal

It seems that I've got negative thoughts, but I am sure that this is very logical thoughts when I think of my future deeply. So, I'm so sad.
And, since someone insulted me by nonsense behaviours/words, I lost 'smile' (in the end of July). I can't smile anymore
I can make a smile, but I can't smile in heart. This is what my dead grandma wished that she believed me saying ' you can get through with it and show your charming smile in future' it takes 22 years to get my smile, and a person took off my smile in minutes with insulting me.

As I wrote to Kat, Japanese ppl are not so kind that you think. They don't behave like adults. lol. though I'm a Japanese... oh no. I love my home town, but I don't like any ppl living around me. I can't believe anyone here. You don't have to what Japanese ppl say.. oops, I'm Japanese... oops oops oops... please forget I'm a Japanese... lol

When I'm writing something in English or non-Japanese, I feel really safe and I think as if I can get back myself. like... IT'S ME, TAEKO.

hi taeko

yes im still about lol, but only for a local cybershop when i can

the way the weather is at the moment you wouldnt like to be here, its wet and most of england is flooded take care jimxx

Taamyu
I have never fitted in any where, except maybe here. What other people think of you can only worry you if you care about their opinions. If you don't care about them, then what they say cannot hurt you. The only thing that matters is what you think of yourself. You are a human being, you have a right to be here, to live your life as you see fit. So s*d the lot of them. Live, love and be happy, as the saying goes.

Below! is as good as a typical Yorkshireman's attitude ! We speak as we see it !

I can't help about the shape I'm in
I can't sing, I ain't pretty and my legs are thin
But don't ask me what I think of you
I might not give the answer that you want me to

(part of lyrics from Fleetwood Macs - Oh Well)


I'M ME! DON'T CHANGE IT

be you Taamyu

Asd Beauty goes, I'm not a great star,
There are others more handsome by far.
But my face I do not mind it
I am behind it
It's others in front I jar.

Hi Taamyu

I too have found a similar attitude where I live when I attended an employability course and those who run the Employment Programme, they say that you must network (to help me find hidden jobs)with your friends that you made at school, work as well as your family. But with me I can't do that as I lost all contact with my friends at school when my best friend moved away whilst I was at boarding school for a year and lost contact with another friend when I moved with my family to Scotland. I have only one family member that could be help me find work but she is also looking for permanent work too. The rest of my family live as far as Staffordshire and in Ceredigion in Wales.

Hiya Jim
It's still 'warm'... sometimes 'hot' here
We've not had comfortable Autumn

Also, I don't feel good with meeting anyone here at the mo

Do hope cool lovely Autumn will come soon otherwise, I really will die..

Take care you too

Wow Animal

Is that true ??

Oh well, I won't change myself. I don't want to follow what the other tell me as they want me to be. Because no-one understand who I am.

Well try to be ME

Wahey Liquid
So glad to 'see' you here again
I am such a happy one cos all of you here catch me up anytime
So, I can survive
I'm hibernating now since Friday night Zzzzz
I will try to stay still in my flat so it's very safe to live here.
Will come here sooner or later

Hiya Kat
It's sometimes very good for ME to be alone, but feel so lonely when I need someone to talk with Thanks hootoo.. cos this is one of my most comfortable places to see my mates/friends in UK
It's getting more and more difficult to live here.. I get old and am becoming
Also, I'm fed up with tennis as I need a partner to play with
(I mean I don't like tennis but I need a partner whenever I want to play tennis.. and I haven't anyone to play with ) very stressful.
Try to clear all things what I'm thinking and get back myself.
Need more time to do though
Take Care and Have a lovely Sunday evening

all true love