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Hey,im a 16 year old male who is going through a rough break up with my 16 year old female childhood sweetheart,we had been going out for 3 years previous to her dumping me,and have went through high school together.

We have done everything together and we have been through a hell of a lot.She was my first proper relationship,my first proper kiss,and the first person who i have had a sexual relationship with.I have always been their for her (her parents are abusive),i have tried to help her out with this issue as ive always tried to speak to her when she needed it.She was always been their for me when,my parents had a divorce (about 5 months ago,1 week before christmass)...she was their.she was the only one i had,ontop of that i blew my mates away for my gf as they were always being constantly mean to her and always picking on her,so now im left with no friends,no love of my life,and a messed up family,and im aslo in the middle of my GCSE's!.

Anyway that was the background information on my recent life this year.

My girlfriend and i were so in love till about 3 weeks ago,when she was acting very wierd,she was eating less,and never wanted to eat,and she was always sad and looked like she had been upset,i asked her what was wrong and tried to comfort her,she did not reply,or sometimes she did and she said nothing was wrong.This went on for about 2 weeks then we had the prom/ball,which you have at the end of high school she loved it and said it was the best night of her life,and that she would love me for ever.Now about 2 days ago,we made love,she stopped half way though because she said it hurts.She had never done this before,and we just found sex as we waited 2 years! in order for both of us to be 16 in order to have sex.I asked how it hurts....she just said it hurts and lay down beside me,about 1 hour after that i took her to the bus station to catch her bus,we had chance to talk about stuff for about 30 mins.

I asked her what was wrong again,she asked how upset i would be if she dumped me,i told her that i would not be able to cope with it of course....She then asked if we would be friends if she did dump me,I said no probably not it would hurt to be around you if that would happen.I gathered onto it that she did not want to be with me,so i asked dont you love me anymore,she replied no,i love you... still,and i said i love her,I asked what was wrong then,she said with university soon (2 years away 0o)and not being able to see each other alot,that she would have to dump me.Her bus came and about 2 mins before,she said she was confused what to do about us,and told me to forget about the conversation,as if none of it mattered then she gives me some flowers to go home with.

I go home,go on bebo and read this(hurts me to read it again ,this is to my brothers girlfriend from my "ex")theres lots of reasons
i havnt done anything yet

but its gonna be soon

im gonna make sure james (thats me) is very happy in the last few weeks we have together

and only one person knows the proper reason why im doing this and its not my fault

ofc james will be my best friend
im sorry would it be eisier if i end it then

because i cant change my mind

i wanted to do it in person

i owe him that at least
i just said we wernt gonna go out forever


do you know i still love him

but not in the same way

love sucks

i just said we wernt gonna go out forever


do you know i still love him

but not in the same way
love sucks

hmmm
okay

but
akk i dont know what to say

this is so messed up

These were said over the past 2 days to 8 hours ago,so i presume that she already has dumped me,that someone else knows why,and that she doesnt love me in the same way.

So now are the messages i just read.... the updated stuff from about 1 hour ago ,from my "ex" to my brothers gf

how is he doing? any better

cmon i need to know

great i feel like shit

no

i would help him

but how does that work your ex gf comfoting you
over her dumping you

i feel like a piece of crap

hmm

i really want to hug him right now

i must seem evil

So what am i ment to think about all of this,please someone help,before she said all of this on bebo,she was going to speak to me in real life about what was happening and now ive just read a message send directly to me saying:James

i will always love you

but not in the same way anymore


i still care about you

go and lie down
please

ill still come and see you if you want

What am i ment to do!,is she still coming over to see me,to dump me!?
does this mean shes dumped me?without even saying it directly to me?
how can she throw these 3 years away that she loved so much and never wanted to go?

Please someone has some knowledge on this stuff fill me in,my brains really messed up right now.....Please!!!!! Thanks for reading

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