h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I still carry and torch for Suz. I may even be fair to say that I have for more than two years [on and off] been obsessed with her. I torture myself when I'm here and online by visiting one of her webpages... It is torture to see her and know that I can't talk to or touch her, know her or be in love with her. It is torture to see that she is happier without me and happily in love with someone else.

I won't stop loving her, I won't stop hurting because I can't.

Well, all I can say is that I honestly know how you feel because you did the same thing with me, after the thing with mom you pushed me away and wouldn't let me back in, I still don't think you have totally yet. I still to this day love you and still have some hope of maybe rekindling the friendship that we had

I'm sorry, I may have pushed you away... If I feel like I'm losing someone I push them away first, it's a defense mechanism.
I never tried to stop you talking to me, or end our friendship... though I did offer to, for Suz. Because she was insanely jealous.

Hey there

Listen, I dont know if you're ready to start really dealing with things or not - sometimes people get into the mode of pain-filled living and just dont want to feel free and/or happy - but here's something that really helped me when I got ready to change. When I got ready to step beyond all the angst and the drama and just start living :

http://www.loveandaddiction.com/LoveAddiction.CFM

The book itself is the best, but maybe the web-site will help some too.

Keep passing open windows Honeybear


Kosh

Thanks...
This addiction is a symptom of deeper problems that cause me to need external validation...

Really do know how you feel right now having just been pushed away by someone 'I' love..dont even know if im even still wanted as a friend yet, though he said e didnt want to lose that..will just have to see, and that is the worst part..the waiting to know if youre still worth getting in touch with,still mean that much..