h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I hurt myself, I focus on the pain...
Everyone goes away in the end....
I tore my mind and pushed my soul into a brown paper bag...
What on earth is going on in my heart?
Has turned it cold as stone?
Now suddenly life seems too long for me!
What kinda world is this we're living in?
One where your love never wins...?
Please forgive me if I act a little strange...
For my oh my, you know I'm not in love...
I've just a good mind to die...

So I say 'Good Bye'.

PLEASE PLEASE DONT...yet.

i dont really know you, but YOU reached out to me when i felt like this, so PLEASE let me feel i might help too

See the other thread on ace forum ytthing

PLease give me your phone number

Terri

Stealth you are the first name I remembered when I came here.
I liked it - stealth speed was something I had hoped to gain on the computer by now
You have been there in the pinch for others.
Please reconsider because things change. Maybe not today or tomorrow or in the way you wish but you can count on change and all of it is not bad. Some days you are so low the smallest rise can start a new cycle but as I know it can take stealth determination an hour at a time, a day is too much to bite off at once.

Call someone-hit something-rage- write anything but please do not choose to go away this hour.

Oh and act as strange as you like, often as you like.
It takes stealth strength (many a world leader does not have) to admit you are feeling weak and it is the only way to get stronger when you are feeling this low.

Well said abbi. Stealth, a couple of hours before i posted to you, i was feeling incredibly low & wretched, as if the only soulution was to sdisappear. No one seemed to understand my stuff, i was tired to the point of falling asleep on the bus & worst of all, the person who was, i thought, someone who loved, or at least cared for me was incredibly cruel & rejecting.

NOt that this makes your problems less, it doesn't BUt maybe if you know we have been there too it might help, you honestly can say wahtever you want (within "mod" boundaries on here) & there will be non judgemental folks to listen.....and CARE; we do, otherwise why would we respond?

Please take care Stealth & keep in touch.



zdt

Please, Stealth say you are alright I still want to drink more teikilla with you at teh next meet you can attend, things can get better, if we give them chance too, You've been low, very* low before, and things came along, they'l do it again, maybe not today, tomorrow next week or even next month, but some time they will

Come on , SOMEONE has his phone number? he needs direct contact, a real voice on the line.

Don't post it on here but there are ways off hootoo we can work this out.

Stealth, if you're lurking, you can see we care, it's a start. get in touch please.

zdt

I thought I had it, but I can't find it

News at http://www.underjoyed.co.uk/journal/

(Yes, Kam, if you can and do come back, I realize that you'll likely be annoyed at me, but I thought that I should let those that are worried about you know what's going on.)

Annoyed or pure rage is far easier to deal with than the death of a friend.

Very true... At least a friendship lost because of anger can be fixed--a friend lost through death is just plain lost...

Still no sign?

I woke up this morning [Friday the 11th] at around 7:50, I couldn't walk for the first few hours but eventually I got there. And I was discharged from the Princess Royal into the care of my Consulatant and my CBT at Linwood CMHC just after Lunchtime. This was were I had a quick check in with Dr Jeczmien before going to the day unit where I felt very ill and waited for an existinhg appointment with Lydia my Behavioural Therapist... CBT session went well.

I want to cut and try to kill myself again quite strongly but I have these feelings under control now with the aide of lorazepam.

Sorry for any concern.

Don't worry, Stealth, i reckon many of us on here know exactly how all that feels. i seem to remember WE first met on hootoo when i sent out a "suicide note" posting?

Glad the medication is helping a bit, it's a question of "whatever takes the edge off the pain even slightly" isn't it? I am not allowed anything, so *ho ho ho* i just self medicate with cigarettes & , which is basically slow suicide, i realise, BUT is possibly better than the instant version ; no going back on that one, whereas if life does look up enough, it's possible to say "hey, i think i'll carry on with this for a while if that's Ok?"

I can't tell you how relieved i was to see your "eyes" on here tonight.

& for having the strength to NOT give up & take the easier route!

I may get inspired to make a cheesebox out of this. Keep talking, i get ideas from all sorts of things (yup, this is the person who made a box called "you can't get blood out of a turnip!" 'cos she was so underwhelmed by her supposed lovers lack of response!)Nasty, evil little me huh? Dunno how that one's going to go down at the expo, they shrieked when they saw the syringe full of what appears to be blood!

zdt

I think at least I if not my former fiancé too would like your art!

I tried to take the "easy" route and failed as the pills I had available to me were insuffient to kill me, realising this I took the easy descion to seek medical attention so as not to leave disable for life and trapped in a body wanting to die unable to do anything about it.
I deserve no .

Glad you are still kicking.
Good luck with the medication and struggling through the added side effects.