h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I took an over-dose on Saturday... I washed about 40 lanzapine down with Vodka... Last thing I remember before loosing conciousness was spilling this charcoal stuff they give you at hospital all over my Rankin novel and the bed... I woke up yesterday thinking it had all been a rather unpleasant dream before discovering I had a shaved chest with those sticky things on for keeping the wires that monitor you on...

I feel a lot better today in my mood and within myself for it all, tis like I got somethuing that was eating and tearing me up inside out of my system...

the glue on those sticky things is a smeg to get off, it took me several days of scrubbing my chest and ankles and such for it to finally come off, so I hope yours has come off easier..
I also hope that you didnt get a rash from them dry shaving you chest...

Alex, take care of yourself, and try to discover your selfworth, we are all worthy of a lot xx

oh stealth... im glad you're getting better now though

That is really shocking.... spilling something on a Rankin novel!

Glad you're ok and even feeling better

Stay possative.
and lets hope you never get that low again. Take care

..Angel..

Lets hope that you continue to feel positive, though at times such a thing seems to you the obvious way out, I think a lot of people will be hurt were the worse to have happened, as there are people who do care about you. Hope things move for the better and a little sunshine enters apon your life

Very happy you're still with us, dear.

I only managed to keep the plateau in my mood up until Thursday... spent most of the small hours of Friday self harming in a number of ways All the intrusive thoughts of suicide running around my head, all the reasons why I deserve to die took all I had in me not to OD again... cutting isn't helping me as much as used to I really don't think I will cope with all that's wrong within me for much longer.

Hon, if you want me to call...

If I can make it to the 19th then *maybe*... *perhaps* the Doctors will do something for me, either have me back as an in-patient so I'm safe from myself until I get some control over myself or change my meds or the doses or something...
But I have to last out until the 19th which mean getting through the 18th and the 18th is gonna be hard, I have to see the psych working for my opponent in the court case, I have to prove that I'm unfit for trial... I can't cope with going through a court case, I'm not strong enough to stand there on trial ad defend myself against the b*llsh!t case against me... I don't even have the first idea of how I'm gonna deal with the intrusion of a hostile doctor into my mental health case...
Another date I have to try and survive until is the 2nd of December when I start CBT.

But to answer your question, don't feel you should call not getting a call isn't going to change anything... besides I'm too fragile to deal with awkward silences.
The only phonecall I want from the US is one from Stephanie explaining why she has abandoned me.

I'm watching 'Good Will Hunting', I always forget when I put on this great film just how much it makes me cry... being so unstable right now isn't helping...

I kinda thought so, but I thought I'd remind you that if you need3ed to talk... All I really have to talk about is baby stuff right now anyway...

Baby stuff is cool, but...

Understood, dear, really