Poems by Smudger.
Created | Updated Jun 21, 2003
Endings. 1982.
There I was playing it cool
Thinking I was nobody`s fool
Now theres no place for me to hide
To repair my dented pride
When I think back to what you said
As we lay there in your bed
My feelings for you I would never show
I would simply just get up and go
Now it comes as no surprise
Im not worth much in your eyes
I never gave you much consideration
And blamed it on my situation
The fact that I was already married
Not thinking of the hurt you carried
Just seeing you from time to time
Now the hurt I feel is mine
Truth. 1982.
Im losing touch with reality
My mind is full, yet my thoughts go free
Drifting past me like floating clouds
Empty faces in the city crowds
People Ive known, places Ive been
Go floating past me, as if in a dream
Up on a roftop looking down
Theres a man with no face dressed like a clown
In the frightened city no one dare
To stop and look up as if to care
For deep inside they know they will find
That what they see was all in their mind
I long to leave this frightening place
To break away from the human race
To reach for a clowd way up in the sky
A welcome refuge for me to cry.
THE Loser. 1983
Why does your memory go on living in me
When Im trying so hard to forget
Why cant the past just leave me be
Alone with my thoughts to lement
Im all right in crowds and busy places
Its while alone I feel so strange
You stand out so clear from a thousand faces
Which my mind tries to rearrange
I find myeslf in a mysterious mood
Which I have never felt before
My feelings cant be understood
Yet my thoughts cry out for more
I know I shouldnt live in the past
And that life must carry on
But wheres the shame in coming last
When the reason for living is gone.
A683723 - Search Engine Poetry
Post: 6
MOODS. 1986
Shades of gray and darkening skies
Deep searching looks from empty eyes
No hope of a future not even a gleam
Not a ray of sunshine to be seen
Long dark roads that go on for miles
No sounds of laughter or even smiles
Just long dark days that came and went
To add to your feelings of discontent
Deep dark depressions with clouds of despair
That appear to follow you everywhere
Large open spaces with deep dark voids
Echoes of lonliness leaving a chilling noise
Sounds in the distance way back in your mind
Desparetely trying to recall a time
Of music and laughter from way back when
Will I ever recapture those days again.
Hurt. 1980.
Its because Im full of hurt inside
My feelings for you I appear to hide
Ive been in love and hurt before
And cant express my love no more
Time will cure or so they say
Until that time there is no way
I can share my love with you
Even though your love is true
Although just now I appear to have fun
Its because the time has not yet come
For me and my feelings of to part
Who wants half of an aching heart
Im afraid for me there is no hope
With a love affair I just cant cope
If through this you still cant see
Please please my love leave me be.
Together. 1981.
Words of love are easy to say
People use them all the time
They use in the games they play
To ease their state of mind
I know were both love torn and bruised
As weve sailed all through lifes weather
Even though we are still confused
Let us go on ahead together
Lets forget all our hutrs and pain
And leave behind the troubled past
We`ve nothing to lose and a lot to gain
Together we could make this last
Together we`ll find piece of mind
Lets lock this feeling within
Though in the past lifes been unkind
In the end we can truely win.
Homeward Bound. 1970.
Turbine turning, heart is yearning
Homeward bounders, atlantic pounders
Run ashore, once again
Drink some more, you drunken men
Sailor sitting, all alone
Sun is setting, thinks of home
Writes a letter, to his wife
Dont feel better, its a lonely life
Anchor weighed, away you go
Wish you had stayed, or dont you know
Sea is rough, pounding foam
Had enough, heading home.
SAD SONG. 1983.
Dont play that song if you please
It brings back too many memories
Of a time that seems so long ago
Of places where we used to go
We used to dance so close to that song
Every time we heard it played
But now all those days are gone
And just the memories have stayed
Yet it seems like yesteday
We were laughing-crying-living
Now lifes different in so many ways
So empty and unforgiving
That song brings it all to mind
Of the way it was back then
So if you would be so kind
Dont play that song again
Time of my Life. 1969.
Time drags by when Im all alone
Yet my life has seemed to fly past
Time fly`s by when Im home
And has never appeared to last
Memories flash through my mind
Of times from years ago
Many thoughts of different kinds
Of dreams I cant let go
When my bed it was a ship
And the floor it was the sea
I used to sail on many a trip
Those dreams meant a lot to me
The times I played-laughed and cried
In the woods near my home
The times I played won or died
The time I wondered away alone
Then the day came at last
The day I fell in love
I forgot all my lonely past
And blessed this happening from above
Now I dread the days apart
Yet still send my love to you
Your always with me in my heart
Our love is long and true.
Thoughts. 1981.
I sit alone and wonder why
As I listen to the traffic thundering by
I seem only to come alive at night
And go to bed when the dawn breaks light
I seem quite often to sit and brood
Yet it puts me in a tranquil mood
As I fill my glass Im prone to say
Well heres to another uneventful day
For what Ive got I should be glad
Yet inside myself the feeling is sad
Will what I write while I brood
Ever really be--understood
The silence fills my thumping head
I toss and turn when I go to bed
Then I wake up feeling pain
To start the emotions all over again
Its so frustrating where do I begin
Is being happy really a sin
Today I`ll be happy for a time its true
That time will be-- when Im with you,
Goodbye. 1971.
I can tell by your eyes your going to say sorry
I know cause I can see inside your head
Girl you dont have to worry
You told me last night in your bed
Now I`ll pack my world and go
Looking for someone else to share
Though deep inside my heart I know
There will just be nothing to compare
Like a fading actor leaving the screen
He leaves behind an empty stage
Guess its time to close this scene
To start again on a differnt page
Old worn letters tell of our history
Of our early days so full of mystery
These are the things so desperately sought
For once they`ve been lived they are never forgot.
Confusion. 1981.
My hands reach out as though to touch
The one I need and miss so much
Will this vision I have ever come true
Will I never again ever hold you
Or is it all over, is this the end
Is there nothing left to say
Can I no longer on you depend
To see me through another day
Without your love I couldnt last
My heart and soul would stay in the past
If I am to be--really free
Please give me back the real me
So I can frame it to hang on the wall
I really gave to you my all
We shared the smooth with the rough
Yet in the end it was not enough
New Found Love. 1981.
From this life I dont want much
Just to hear your voice and feel your touch
And for you to look the way you do
But most of all just to be with you
Youve come to mean so much to me
I dont want ever to be set free
For with out your live I just dont know
What Id do or where I would go
With you my life has just begun
Now I know the feeling of fun
If you were ever to take this away
I just couldnt face another day
Without your love I just couldnt live
Guess in the end I`ll learn to forgive
All the bad scenes from the past
And make our love truely last
Reflections. 1983.
When I think back to what we had
It makes me feel rather sad
To think we went our seperate ways
Holding memories of them special days
Although weve been patred for a while
I still at times just think and smile
As a memory from that time when
Rushes back into my head again
I may be at home or far away
Then I will think back to a certain day
Something you did or something said
Will come flashing back inside my head
And when Im driving in my car
It seems I cant go very far
Without passing somewhere we have been
And I find myself recalling the scene
Although weve left all that behind
I still at times have you in mind
Im living in an empty shell
Yet I would never ever tell.
Love. 1969.
Love is old to some its new
But love is here to stay
It is not love unless its true
And should always be that way
If someone took all the love away
The world would grow all dark
And lovers would drift their seperate ways
Leaving echoes in the empty park
If war machines were built to last
In the end the world would die
But love love will never be in the past
And only lovers know the reason why
No knows or can even say
The reason it has to be
Believe that it was meant this way
For love is you and me.
Pain. 1982.
Seems to me theres always a way
To save some love for another day
But now youve taken it all away
Whats left for me to say
Im sitting in the crowded park
But I might as well be in the dark
Id like to call you on the phone
Yet I know that you wont be alone
Vivid memories fill my mind
Of times when we were one
Screaming thoughts of a certain kind
Of our love when it had just begun
Now weve gone our seperate ways
The hurts too much to bear
This nagging thought with me stays
Was your love ever realy there.
There I was playing it cool
Thinking I was nobody`s fool
Now theres no place for me to hide
To repair my dented pride
When I think back to what you said
As we lay there in your bed
My feelings for you I would never show
I would simply just get up and go
Now it comes as no surprise
Im not worth much in your eyes
I never gave you much consideration
And blamed it on my situation
The fact that I was already married
Not thinking of the hurt you carried
Just seeing you from time to time
Now the hurt I feel is mine
Truth. 1982.
Im losing touch with reality
My mind is full, yet my thoughts go free
Drifting past me like floating clouds
Empty faces in the city crowds
People Ive known, places Ive been
Go floating past me, as if in a dream
Up on a roftop looking down
Theres a man with no face dressed like a clown
In the frightened city no one dare
To stop and look up as if to care
For deep inside they know they will find
That what they see was all in their mind
I long to leave this frightening place
To break away from the human race
To reach for a clowd way up in the sky
A welcome refuge for me to cry.
THE Loser. 1983
Why does your memory go on living in me
When Im trying so hard to forget
Why cant the past just leave me be
Alone with my thoughts to lement
Im all right in crowds and busy places
Its while alone I feel so strange
You stand out so clear from a thousand faces
Which my mind tries to rearrange
I find myeslf in a mysterious mood
Which I have never felt before
My feelings cant be understood
Yet my thoughts cry out for more
I know I shouldnt live in the past
And that life must carry on
But wheres the shame in coming last
When the reason for living is gone.
A683723 - Search Engine Poetry
Post: 6
MOODS. 1986
Shades of gray and darkening skies
Deep searching looks from empty eyes
No hope of a future not even a gleam
Not a ray of sunshine to be seen
Long dark roads that go on for miles
No sounds of laughter or even smiles
Just long dark days that came and went
To add to your feelings of discontent
Deep dark depressions with clouds of despair
That appear to follow you everywhere
Large open spaces with deep dark voids
Echoes of lonliness leaving a chilling noise
Sounds in the distance way back in your mind
Desparetely trying to recall a time
Of music and laughter from way back when
Will I ever recapture those days again.
Hurt. 1980.
Its because Im full of hurt inside
My feelings for you I appear to hide
Ive been in love and hurt before
And cant express my love no more
Time will cure or so they say
Until that time there is no way
I can share my love with you
Even though your love is true
Although just now I appear to have fun
Its because the time has not yet come
For me and my feelings of to part
Who wants half of an aching heart
Im afraid for me there is no hope
With a love affair I just cant cope
If through this you still cant see
Please please my love leave me be.
Together. 1981.
Words of love are easy to say
People use them all the time
They use in the games they play
To ease their state of mind
I know were both love torn and bruised
As weve sailed all through lifes weather
Even though we are still confused
Let us go on ahead together
Lets forget all our hutrs and pain
And leave behind the troubled past
We`ve nothing to lose and a lot to gain
Together we could make this last
Together we`ll find piece of mind
Lets lock this feeling within
Though in the past lifes been unkind
In the end we can truely win.
Homeward Bound. 1970.
Turbine turning, heart is yearning
Homeward bounders, atlantic pounders
Run ashore, once again
Drink some more, you drunken men
Sailor sitting, all alone
Sun is setting, thinks of home
Writes a letter, to his wife
Dont feel better, its a lonely life
Anchor weighed, away you go
Wish you had stayed, or dont you know
Sea is rough, pounding foam
Had enough, heading home.
SAD SONG. 1983.
Dont play that song if you please
It brings back too many memories
Of a time that seems so long ago
Of places where we used to go
We used to dance so close to that song
Every time we heard it played
But now all those days are gone
And just the memories have stayed
Yet it seems like yesteday
We were laughing-crying-living
Now lifes different in so many ways
So empty and unforgiving
That song brings it all to mind
Of the way it was back then
So if you would be so kind
Dont play that song again
Time of my Life. 1969.
Time drags by when Im all alone
Yet my life has seemed to fly past
Time fly`s by when Im home
And has never appeared to last
Memories flash through my mind
Of times from years ago
Many thoughts of different kinds
Of dreams I cant let go
When my bed it was a ship
And the floor it was the sea
I used to sail on many a trip
Those dreams meant a lot to me
The times I played-laughed and cried
In the woods near my home
The times I played won or died
The time I wondered away alone
Then the day came at last
The day I fell in love
I forgot all my lonely past
And blessed this happening from above
Now I dread the days apart
Yet still send my love to you
Your always with me in my heart
Our love is long and true.
Thoughts. 1981.
I sit alone and wonder why
As I listen to the traffic thundering by
I seem only to come alive at night
And go to bed when the dawn breaks light
I seem quite often to sit and brood
Yet it puts me in a tranquil mood
As I fill my glass Im prone to say
Well heres to another uneventful day
For what Ive got I should be glad
Yet inside myself the feeling is sad
Will what I write while I brood
Ever really be--understood
The silence fills my thumping head
I toss and turn when I go to bed
Then I wake up feeling pain
To start the emotions all over again
Its so frustrating where do I begin
Is being happy really a sin
Today I`ll be happy for a time its true
That time will be-- when Im with you,
Goodbye. 1971.
I can tell by your eyes your going to say sorry
I know cause I can see inside your head
Girl you dont have to worry
You told me last night in your bed
Now I`ll pack my world and go
Looking for someone else to share
Though deep inside my heart I know
There will just be nothing to compare
Like a fading actor leaving the screen
He leaves behind an empty stage
Guess its time to close this scene
To start again on a differnt page
Old worn letters tell of our history
Of our early days so full of mystery
These are the things so desperately sought
For once they`ve been lived they are never forgot.
Confusion. 1981.
My hands reach out as though to touch
The one I need and miss so much
Will this vision I have ever come true
Will I never again ever hold you
Or is it all over, is this the end
Is there nothing left to say
Can I no longer on you depend
To see me through another day
Without your love I couldnt last
My heart and soul would stay in the past
If I am to be--really free
Please give me back the real me
So I can frame it to hang on the wall
I really gave to you my all
We shared the smooth with the rough
Yet in the end it was not enough
New Found Love. 1981.
From this life I dont want much
Just to hear your voice and feel your touch
And for you to look the way you do
But most of all just to be with you
Youve come to mean so much to me
I dont want ever to be set free
For with out your live I just dont know
What Id do or where I would go
With you my life has just begun
Now I know the feeling of fun
If you were ever to take this away
I just couldnt face another day
Without your love I just couldnt live
Guess in the end I`ll learn to forgive
All the bad scenes from the past
And make our love truely last
Reflections. 1983.
When I think back to what we had
It makes me feel rather sad
To think we went our seperate ways
Holding memories of them special days
Although weve been patred for a while
I still at times just think and smile
As a memory from that time when
Rushes back into my head again
I may be at home or far away
Then I will think back to a certain day
Something you did or something said
Will come flashing back inside my head
And when Im driving in my car
It seems I cant go very far
Without passing somewhere we have been
And I find myself recalling the scene
Although weve left all that behind
I still at times have you in mind
Im living in an empty shell
Yet I would never ever tell.
Love. 1969.
Love is old to some its new
But love is here to stay
It is not love unless its true
And should always be that way
If someone took all the love away
The world would grow all dark
And lovers would drift their seperate ways
Leaving echoes in the empty park
If war machines were built to last
In the end the world would die
But love love will never be in the past
And only lovers know the reason why
No knows or can even say
The reason it has to be
Believe that it was meant this way
For love is you and me.
Pain. 1982.
Seems to me theres always a way
To save some love for another day
But now youve taken it all away
Whats left for me to say
Im sitting in the crowded park
But I might as well be in the dark
Id like to call you on the phone
Yet I know that you wont be alone
Vivid memories fill my mind
Of times when we were one
Screaming thoughts of a certain kind
Of our love when it had just begun
Now weve gone our seperate ways
The hurts too much to bear
This nagging thought with me stays
Was your love ever realy there.
