h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Okay, I'm seriously thinking about getting a tattoo. I don't know what of yet but I want one. It will actually probably be one of my friends' designs but I don't know if I'm ready to have something that permanent yet. I've mainly been thinking of when I get all old and saggy and such. I know that I'm going to get three more pericings for my B-day, which is in a month!! Yayage! (I know stealth, I took your phrase) Gah! I remembered my Senior Pics are I think in three weeks, and I haven't had a haircut in something like six and a half months, I need to get that done...

What of the furies?
Not to worry, your not the first to acquire the habbit of 'Yayage'.

You 'membered!!! No, that was kind of a phase thing, plus the design is huge and would take something like eight and a half hours of tattooing, and I'm not up for that long. Amanda did design this wicked cool Celtic Cross that I absolutely love though. I think that when I have it done it will be right between my shoulder blades. I was lurking around some of your journals, sorry I don't particularly like butting into the middle of some of them, but you sound more unhappy than usual and I'm here if you need me, okay?

Inbetween the shoulders, I have always felt, is the second sexiest place for tattoo on the female body. The sexiest being the small of the back. I love Celtic designs...

Yeah, I am more unhappy than my usual level, I feel like crying, I feel lost, I feel pointless, I feel like anything could push into another suicide attempt.

Being online only makes me more unhappy at the moment. But I still come here, hoping that will change, it used to relax me, having some form of human contact used to do me good.

Now I don't just feel like crying I am. Which only makes me hate myself even more.

well if there is anything that I have learned from my short years on this earth, it's that tears are a good thing for the most part. I've cried untill I physically couldn't cry anymore, it's a clensing process that sometimes your body just needs to go through. yeah it sucks and sometimes happens at bad times but sometimes you just need to go ahead and cry.

It can be a good thing, yes.

So emotionally how are you??? I mean if you need to just vent, don't worry about how you sound, and if you need to just vent in an e-mail... you remember it I hope and if you don't I can give it to you again, use the yahoo one though...

I'm really not too sure... At the moment I'm scared for my mother's health. I'm convinced that no-one involved with Sproutlore likes me. That upsets me. I've liked almost everyone I've met through Sproutlore. Intrusive thoughts have been getting more frequent. They always cause me emotional pain. But, for the last few days I haven't really felt much at all... but it isn't the emptyness that comes with BPD, I don't know what it is.