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hendrixgal Started conversation Mar 23, 2004
Sorry for this post but i am feeling very down.
Hubby is away (AGAIN!!), kids are in bed and i am suffering terrible PMT. I need to get drunk but obviously can't cos of the kids but i want to run down the street screaming. I feel like crying (in fact i think i will) and eating the entire contents of the cupboard.
I am so sorry for this post but i need to get the fact that i am so completely and utterly peed off off my chest AAAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Oh GOD what can i do?
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U643499 Posted Mar 23, 2004
Hello sweetheart. PMT is effing awful. I think a good cry can do you good. You get it all cried out, and then, because you are worn out, you will sleep.
Buggar of it is that in the morning eyes are all puffy !
I think it's worse as well when there is no other adult to talk to. I think you're about the same age as a friend of mine - late 30s - and a million apologies if I'm wrong.
Her parents and family all live away and she gets very down, not only with the pmt, but because she has probs with her kids and her husband is epileptic. I think I'm a bit of a wild mother figure to her. But she always says 'don't be nice to me, make me laugh' There are times when she says she just wants a drink to calm her down, but can't because of the home thingie.
I don't really know what else to say. If it was me I would scream (preferably when I'd just flushed the loo because that drowns out the noise to a certain extent.
I am here for a while if you want to let it out.
Jen
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hendrixgal Posted Mar 23, 2004
Thanks Jen, yes you are right i am now 36 (boo hoo) and feel like crap. Hubby works away a lot and all my friends are married with kids. Mum still lives in Yorkshire and i now live in Derbyshire so i can't even go round and see her. Have done the screaming while loo flushes (thanks for that), though now neighbours think i have plumbing problems. I have succumed and am treating myself to a glass of wine and it is amazing how much calmer i feel already (does this make me an alcoholic?). Sat in bath and cried and feel much better (think steam may help with puffiness but i could be fooling myself there) and have eaten giant mars bar (feel a bit sick now), it didn't even touch the sides. Have now taken to hugging dogs and telling them how much i love them (God help the kids if they wake up). Feel bit ashamed as have left a rather abusive message on hubbies voice mail (serves him right, he should have answered it) and fully expect phone call later asking what the hell he has done wrong now.
Thankyou for you reply it really has helped me a lot, it's great to have virtual friends.
P.S. (must remember to calm down with the bracket thing going on)
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U643499 Posted Mar 23, 2004
Hiya Anna.
Now you're making me laugh. There is nothing better than leaving abusive messages on the mobile ! God you feel vile when you've calmed down and somebody's saying 'why did you say that' Tee hee.
I have always lived away from 'home' since before I was married. I used to get really down. But now I'm older and wiser, I think my mother must have been down as both her daughters lived away and she was on her own.
I have always gone in the toilet and cried. Only a very good friend, and now you, knows that. She thinks it's funny (in a nice way).
I lived in Nottingham for 17 years and used to go into Derbyshire. Matlock and Matlock Bath; Black Rock. I can't remember where else.
I don't know about being an alcoholic. All my friends, young and old drink to excess. Maybe it's because of the job and the life style. It's often a case of have several drinks before you go out. Whatever.
I don't judge. Work hard, play hard.
Jen
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hendrixgal Posted Mar 23, 2004
Hubby still has not replied (oh dear must have really upset him) but at this moment in time i don't give a monkeys. Glad you like Matlock, not far from us and does superb fish and chips at the local cafe. i did used to drink to excess (Oh God you have no idea) until i got pregnant for the first time and i just stopped, though i still smoke (but only occasionally) as i am really a slave to that unfortunately. Your toilet secret is safe with me and i shall use it forever more (thanks).
Now i must go to bed cos that glass of wine is really taking effect (yawn) but thankyou so much for being there tonight. Your friend is right you are a wild mother figure but you know what you are doing and you have calmed my soul tonight.
Thanks again.
Good night
God Bless
Annaxx
P.S. (I am STILL doing that bracket thingy)
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U643499 Posted Mar 24, 2004
Night night.
Fags !! Drink !! When I was pregnant with my kids nobody said not to smoke or drink. Bad mother that I am I did both.
My son was born 8lb 9oz something and is now about 6' 4". My daughter was borm 8lb 4oz and now weighs 7stone 7lbs. Of course she is on a permanent diet.
I don't smoke anymore, but the drink. Oh dear. Your hubby will be fine. He must love you and men will forgive anything won't they. Wink wink (there are no smileys for this)
Jen
PS Wild Thing by Dave, Dee, Dozy, Mick and Tich is close to my heart !!
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