h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

A couple days ago I went crazy. Not schizophrenia crazy, or delusion crazy; more like the "my God, why is my mind acting this way" kind of crazy.

I suddenly felt really hollow inside, a little paranoid, and my thought processes weren't working the way they should have. I felt really detached from myself, my surroundings, the past, the future, etc...

It was quite frightening.

It lasted until last night, but a good night's sleep seems to have cleared it up.

While I was in that state of mind, it was hard to remember what being in any other state of mind was like. Now, it's hard to remember exactly what being in /that/ state of mind was like.

Either way, I'm glad to be rid of it.

I think what caused it was a sudden realization of all the bad parts of my life, and a sudden forgetting of all the good parts.

I get them. You suddenly realise that you're behaving in the certain way in which you were behaving immediately before, after or during a period in the past during which everything went horribly wrong. Singing and sitting on hills cures it slightly, but it's quite hard to make another good part of life appear as if by magic as good things usually only happen when they're good and ready. Climb a tree or something. We never had these problems when we lived in them. I try and tell myself that remembering the bad things is good, especially if it makes you fearful so to do, as it means you're more aware of them and therefore more likely to try and ensure they don't recur.

I find it almost impossible to shake myself out of these moods when I get them and it scares me to feel so detached from everything. Occasionally they are just due to the old hormones going haywire and they are the easiest to cope with. I once had a state like yours that lasted for months and I basically had to hibernate so as not to lose all of my friends!