h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Yes,I clearly feel hesitation in my attempt to start my digital diary.
Not so much because of the intimicy, but of other reasons.
First of all I am a sceptic in relation to digital relations; I do love peronal e-mails with a few women in The Netherlands, but incidently I also want to meet them in real life. I want to use mailing as an extension of physical daily social life and not as a substitute. Of course I'm only speeking for my self ,about myself.
- more and more I'll try to forget the possiblility of a reading audience- .
Besides this I realize how superficial "digital friendships" can be, or to express it in opposite terms: how suggestive their impression can be.
My second hesitation comes from my hunger for real nature and for streetlife so to speak. Being much on the internet feels for me as an electronic coffin and I ám already fearfull of death, so why give it more space in my life than strictly necessary..........
Practical surfing feels very nice, but no more than that. Chatting is something I never do. I can't stand it.

And in the third place I am somewhere afraid - despite my hesitations - for addiction. It is such an easy medium and correspondence can feel very impressive and I do realize I can sometimes feel very lonely; it's part of my existence.That makes me also critical towards myself besides other attitudes.

But St Broulan (oh my god, I forgot her exact name),"my ace", accidently(?) gave me a little push and therefore she is "Saint" Boulan from now on...(speaking about "impressive"...).

At last my main reason to overcome my hesitation is the fact that this site is part of the BBC. Yes, I do love the BBC (BBC 2 and BBC world/BBC radio). I watch it more than the Dutch T.V. I hardly ever look at movies on T.V., whatever station it is on and whénever I do see one I only look if there's no advertisement in between, as the commercials have; in any country. BBC is higly professional, skillfull and "civilised" in such a way that I do feel at home in many of their programs. At home ,in Holland,there is a website for singles and it is connected to a quality "Labour" newspaper and that background makes ME feel at home at"even" a site like that. Maybe it's hypocrite, but it doesn't feel like that.
I am just explaining myself, not judging others (!!).

It's been a long day; tomorrow the "Paradox" of helping in relation to the attention of my ace St. Broulan.