h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I am.. for at least .. 42hours and counting a non smoker, once again. This is brief note to remind myself not to start again, because I am worth far more than I seem to believe... after all, would I put my friends thru this form of misery? NO. My sons? NO (not even when they really annoy me) So why was I stupid enough to do this to myself?

Because I'm an addict. Because I'm a prat. And because I thought one wouldn't hurt. Well it did matey, so learn from this, and don't let me nag me again, because the next time I start I will be really, really annoyed with myself. (Currently, I am only vexed a bit, but we can go for annoyed if you want). Let us feel confident there won't BE a next time I start. It is no fun stopping, Zyban, cold turkey or whatever. I am sweating and cold. I am shaking and jittery. I still want to kill something and I have no reasen for it atall... except that I want to inhale a tube of dried leaves in my capacious gob and then cough my lungs up. Once I have stopped properly I can resume my normal, sunny counternanced way of being. I will stop biting peoples heads off if they smile at me, (not that many people HAVE this last couple of days.. I appear to have a neon sign over my head saying off, I don't want to be friendly) Infact, people have been avoiding me... I cannot THINK why! My kids have got their earplugs in and their tin hats on. I have told my friends, smokers and non smokers alike I am going to be antisocial this week and avoid all contact with anybody. Nothing personal, but I like them all too much to be vicious tongued with them... its hard enough to be civil to the lads. Perhaps I should utilize this frustration and remonstrate with a couple of organizations who have treated me shoddilly? Ooooh! YES!

I daren't go near the Nicotine Craving thread... there's bound to be some smug perisher out there who isn't having any trouble or angst, or I will see lots of encouragement; I don't "DO" encouragement or sympathy or ever so there there there.. I find it a foreign language, and I find it hard enough to accept "nice" on a normal day to day basis. I shall only cry and then get cross at myself for being a wuss if people are nice... so be warned... DON'T! Infact... I think the best thing I can do for the next 48hours is just shut down all communications. I will be able to cope much much better once this wretched drug - and that is what nicotine IS, its a drug - is out of my bloodstream. Its only another... 48 plus..5 and a half equals..53and a half hours....lets not figure out the minutes and the seconds shall we, its too too depressing. Its not positive either.

I tell you what, let's go and remonstrate with Yellow Pages! Yeah!
Because they DESERVE some verbal nasties and a bit of righteous anger!
(which is another story, and one I shall recount another day).

See you all over the weekend, better tempered, I hope.

Now who's got a touch of posting finger?