h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I am.. for at least .. 42hours and counting a non smoker, once again. This is brief note to remind myself not to start again, because I am worth far more than I seem to believe... after all, would I put my friends thru this form of misery? NO. My sons? NO (not even when they really annoy me) So why was I stupid enough to do this to myself?

Because I'm an addict. Because I'm a prat. And because I thought one wouldn't hurt. Well it did matey, so learn from this, and don't let me nag me again, because the next time I start I will be really, really annoyed with myself. (Currently, I am only vexed a bit, but we can go for annoyed if you want). Let us feel confident there won't BE a next time I start. It is no fun stopping, Zyban, cold turkey or whatever. I am sweating and cold. I am shaking and jittery. I still want to kill something and I have no reasen for it atall... except that I want to inhale a tube of dried leaves in my capacious gob and then cough my lungs up. Once I have stopped properly I can resume my normal, sunny counternanced way of being. I will stop biting peoples heads off if they smile at me, (not that many people HAVE this last couple of days.. I appear to have a neon sign over my head saying off, I don't want to be friendly) Infact, people have been avoiding me... I cannot THINK why! My kids have got their earplugs in and their tin hats on. I have told my friends, smokers and non smokers alike I am going to be antisocial this week and avoid all contact with anybody. Nothing personal, but I like them all too much to be vicious tongued with them... its hard enough to be civil to the lads. Perhaps I should utilize this frustration and remonstrate with a couple of organizations who have treated me shoddilly? Ooooh! YES!

I daren't go near the Nicotine Craving thread... there's bound to be some smug perisher out there who isn't having any trouble or angst, or I will see lots of encouragement; I don't "DO" encouragement or sympathy or ever so there there there.. I find it a foreign language, and I find it hard enough to accept "nice" on a normal day to day basis. I shall only cry and then get cross at myself for being a wuss if people are nice... so be warned... DON'T! Infact... I think the best thing I can do for the next 48hours is just shut down all communications. I will be able to cope much much better once this wretched drug - and that is what nicotine IS, its a drug - is out of my bloodstream. Its only another... 48 plus..5 and a half equals..53and a half hours....lets not figure out the minutes and the seconds shall we, its too too depressing. Its not positive either.

I tell you what, let's go and remonstrate with Yellow Pages! Yeah!
Because they DESERVE some verbal nasties and a bit of righteous anger!
(which is another story, and one I shall recount another day).

See you all over the weekend, better tempered, I hope.

This is not sympathy.

Well, *I* am going to give you a big and say 'Well done, chica!'

(you don't scare me! )

As for the Nicotine Craving thread (I haven't been there in ages either) I guess some people need that sort of group encouragement. Like people who go to Weight Watchers or Alcoholics Anonymous (the nameless drunks ). I'm more like you. I'm not a 'group person' at all. But it seems to work for some.

Anyhoodle, this too shall pass and you will be back in the land of the living soon enough.

az

Ummm, ok Witchone..azahar may well be not scared of you but I am!!! No damned sympathy or well dones from me!! Mind you I have never been through the dreaded withdrawl....

I'll wait to see when you come back to the land of the living before I attempt a conversation, let alone more pomes!!!

let me know when you are back !!

spike

Thank you each for such restraint.. muchly appreciated - specially the red wine...a fine anestheic if ever there was one. I'm on my 4th day now, so there won't be any going back now, I've done the worst bit.

Now to crack the habit of 40 chewing gums a day!!!!