h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I wrote this many years ago about a real life person with whom I was in love. During my time on hootoo I have had many good pieces of advice and because of that I have decided to destroy the original piece of paper I wrote this next passage on. I carried it for 4 years of the 10 that I loved her and she, upon finding out how I felt carried it for a further 3 years. Nothing will ever happen between us and it is time for me to stop hanging on to the past. However, I would like a record of the passage as it is possibly the best piece of writing I have ever done and just because I may want to read it again someday.

"As I stood on the pavement in the bitter, biting night air, I looked at Claire, taking in every little detail of her face. I knew this would be the last time I saw her, so I studied her face, her deep inviting eyes and her long silky brown hair which was plastered against her neck in the pouring rain. I also remembered her warm personality, her sense of humour, her intense love of life and that wonderful smile. The smile that would brighten an entire room and always cause me to smile myself.

But the smile was absent tonight, and her sense of humour had been locked away. I didn’t want it to end this way. “So, I guess this is goodbye then?” she said. I nodded, unable to find words. I slowly moved towards her and reaching up, brushed my hand gently against her cheek. She took hold of my hand and leaning forward, we kissed, long and tender. Images of the times we had spent together flashed through my mind, leaving a picture of her that would never be forgotten. As our lips parted, I held her in my arms not wanting to let go. She had touched my life and a piece of her would remain in my heart forever.

I turned to leave and gave her one last look. A sudden sense of loss overcame me and I started to feel empty. As I turned to go she whispered “I love you” so softly it was almost lost in the rushing wind. I slowly walked down the street, things becoming a blur and all I could see in my mind was Claire. I turned round to see if I could… but it was too late. She had gone.

And as I continued down the road I was thankful for the rain because it masked the streams of tears running down my face. I heard myself whisper “I love you, too”. And the rain seemed to fall harder."

Awwwwwww ...what brought that on today?

Just need to stop living in the past and concentrating on the present. I don't know how I expect to be stable enough to learn new spells and skills when I can't even grasp the basic principle of living for today!

I apologise for the seriousness. Normal insanity will return as soon as possible.

S'ok dont apologise! ...cant be daft ALL the time!

Have you tried actually asking for some focus? (a litle candle spell should do it)...
I have the same prob..ave troubkle stopping about n worrying about things sometimes..makes it difficult to relax enough to get in the right frame of mind for anything creative doesnt it. I tink i must be geting better though..cos ive recently sttarted to try spells n stuff again..n the last two (both almost otally my own) have worked quite briliantly..surrisingly really.Id like to work on more on properly tuning my psychic side now..as well as carrying on with spells n stuff ..ive always been quite psychic (also empathic) but ive got to learn to focus it n trust it..sill ive got a witch o peser for help now (eh jon..know youre lurking <pokeystick&gtso hopefully will get there eventuallly.
its not always easy to let go of the past..but always good to try! ...apparently blue candles are really good for cleansing ghosts n stuff..im yet to try it..

I've got a couple of spells in mind but for them to work I have to accept past events and realise I can't change them.

I'll get there eventually. I'd love to develop my psychic side. I've never even seen so much as a ghost! I would love to learn how to tune into spirits and reach my spirit guides.

*decides to visit bookshop at lunch*

I reached an animal guide once.. was surprised that it dturned out tpo be a sparrow!

Ive never seen a ghost..feel a lot though...which is just as hard for a lot of people.Sometimes i pick up on auras too..dont see them..just get a strong sense of a colour about a person,sometimes their fellings n moods too.

i meant actally ask the powers that be for help with whatever it is that neds to be let go of...srengthh or whatever... ive found them pretty obliging if you ask right..

I see what you mean. Will have to sort something out later tonight when everyone else is in bed!

hmmm yeah..it does help if its quiet!... have you got any blue candles?

No - but got to nip into town on lunch break anyway. I'll pick some up - I also need other bits and bobs too.