h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

8 June 2005

I am still unemployed, despite applying to twenty companies and attending three interviews. Animal Medical Care dicked around with me so much that I've written them off. Starbucks interviewed me and said they'd call me later that day (Monday). No call. I've applied online to Food Lion and Quik Trip (grocery store and fuel station). Maybe I will hear from one of them soon.
I'm getting scared now. Cash is very tight here and new things have come up that need financial appeasement from myself and my mother. Tomorrow I'm going to hit the pawn shops with some stuff I don't use anymore. I've got an old television with a green hue to the screen, a snare drum, an old computer monitor, an inkjet printer, a tractor printer, and some assorted computer parts. Maybe I can get $100 or so for that lot. That will help us some. I would like to ditch DSL to help save cash, but I signed a contract for one year and two years with my cellular phone.
It just doesn't seem to end. I should be in Ohio right now, dammit! I should be living in a small apartment in St Clairsville, behind the park. I should be in bed, asleep, about to wake up and go to work somewhere. I should be hanging out with Big Daddy and making brownies with Web Masta. I would be happy. I would be so f*****g happy. I'd be away from my f****d up family. I'd be orgasmically happy.
Alas, instead I sit at this computer at 5:25am, unable to sleep (always been a bit of a nightowl, really), chainsmoking (almost quit before I was supposed to leave), screaming inside my head, wishing I had the guts to call Web Masta, and generally hating Life.
Again, any info on what it's all about and all would be welcome. And no religious gunk either. I'm starting to not buy it anymore. Seems like a bloody load to me these days.