h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Hey...
I'm not very talkative at the moment, I've lost my faith. Not all of it you see. I dont know where its hiding. If you find it send it to Dragons Postbox 666. I was in science today and God cropped up. Well hes supposed to be every where but I hadnt noticed him untill then. He scares me. My science teacher belives in him (I thought that was impossible) anyway. I realised that god isnt my kind of thing. Oh sure, he comes to dinner parties, but I never see him and it becomes kind of hard keeping that kind of relationship up.
I used to belive in god. Whole heartedly. Its just I keep having to make excuses for him and his book. Im tired of it. I have known for a long time that the only reason I belive in him was because I grew up with him. He was in the houshold, in school, after school. Its kind of hard to dispute a thing thats part of youre every day life. Well I knew that was the reason, until a year ago. I contemplated death. Yes, I know I was only 12 years old, to young to even consider death. But it was then that I realised how scared I was of just dying out and no one remembering me. From then on thats why I belived in god. Because I didnt want to die and there be nothing left of me.
Lately I have been reading "The Samon of Doubt", by Douglas Adams. It made me think. Not at the time, I was laughing to hard at the jokes, but know... I dont know. Will I ever find god? By then will it be to late. I hope DNA is up there somewhere shouting down the answer at us. To bad we cant hear him...