h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Has it really been two years since I last activated this thing? Just goes to show, you should never write anyone off.

To be honest, not a lot has changed in this amount of time...I'm still ill for much of the time, but have accepted that I didn't choose to be and as long as I can keep doing something of use every day, the rest of the human race has no right to complain.

I have a lovely little flat now, with my man, and I've started writing again. I suppose what sparked me off was the BBC Digital workshop I took part in, in April. I'm finding it important to remind myself, that my creativity never goes away: it just becomes harder to access sometimes. But life is so beautiful as long as there are artists, writers, musicians and actors around. One day perhaps I'll belong to this club, I don't know. I hope I do something wonderful before I die anyway.

But this depression, it keeps coming back. I cannot call myself reliable in any capacity, and I would like to be reliable. It's something most people take for granted. people say you should just practice and be hard on yourself, but that implies a consistent state of mind which I just don't have. Today I could write a library and design a board game. Tomorrow I might be unable to leave my room. You just don't know what it's going to do to you, or when.

Gosh, I never expected this journal entry to be so long. that's a hopeful sign. maybe a monthly journal entry would be a more realistic target.