This is a Journal entry by Kaz

Giving up

Post 1

Kaz

I have been talking to you guys here for years now.

Recently another person has appeared on most of your spaces, this person says that paganism is nonsense. As a lot of you are pagans, I didn't want to get involved in having to sit and watch my faith be slagged off like that. I must have got something wrong though as none of you seem to mind your faith being slagged off.

I went to this person and tried to start a dialogue, I also asked them to stop slagging off paganism in our mutual friends spaces. I got a very hostile reply, where I was told I hadn't been invited to these convos anyway, so what was my problem.

This person is completely unaware that I have been friends with some of you for years, and thinks I am becoming friends in the last week only. So all our past history of friendship is completely gone.

It has been made clear to me though that some of you get more from this person then they get from me, so I guess its a case of boring friends out and new interesting ones in to take their place.

I am falling apart here, I am very depressed, and wanted to be welcome again in my friends convos. I need help, advice, support etc.

I see that is not going to happen as the new friend who slags off paganism is much more interesting than me.

Yes, I know I am feeling sorry for myself, but its hurts to see that suddenly you can be ousted so quickly. I wish I knew how to make myself interesting and worthwhile again, but I don't.

Which is why I am giving up, on my oldest friends here. Cause its tragic holding on when friendship has moved on, so I will get on with it and stop hanging on to friendship which has died.


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Post 2

Dragonfly. "A poet can survive everything but a misprint"-- Oscar Wilde

Youch, love. Youch all over!!! smiley - hug

I hate to see you depressed. I'm here to support and love you, though. You're a dear and an angel. I'm sorry I am not closer. I'd call off work and comfort you!!! smiley - hug


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Post 3

Kaz

Hi Dragonfly

good to see you. I enjoy reading your journals lately, you are doing so much and open to new ideas. Its great seeing you go through all that!


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Post 4

Serephina

smiley - cuddle

youre not boring Kaz!and Im always here too.


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Post 5

Dragonfly. "A poet can survive everything but a misprint"-- Oscar Wilde

YEAH!!! You are not boring!!!

Don't let petty people (or what seems as such) get to you. It's not worth your time, dear!!! smiley - hug


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Post 6

Dragonfly. "A poet can survive everything but a misprint"-- Oscar Wilde

::whisper:: Oh, and I read that other recent journal entry. I really can't help much in the way of advice, since I can't say I've had a successful long-term relationship, really. Distance helped and hurt at the same time. Maybe some distance is possible? smiley - erm


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Post 7

Kaz

Distance in a one room flat?

Not likely is it!


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Post 8

Ellen

Kaz, I feel I need to explain why Ed is on my friend's list, and why I do consider him friend. When I lost my therapist, Ed posted some very caring posts, making some excellent suggestions on how to cope with the loss. He made it clear that he really cared. He is interested in White Rose, the German resistance group I feel passionately about. And I enjoy hearing about him puttering around and cooking, etc.

I happen to be a deist, and I suppose Ed finds that silly being an atheist, but he has never confronted me over it. If he has offended others over the issue of religion, I don't think it was intentional.

HOWEVER Kaz, as you say, you and I have been friends for a long time. I do want to keep that friendship, and I want to keep you on my friends list. Please, please do not feel slighted. I respect your pagan beliefs, I know how important they are to you. I LOVE your photographs, you are so talented.

I am keeping all my friends on my friends list unless they ask to be removed. I apologize if this puts you in an awkward position. I do care about you Kaz.


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Post 9

Ragged Dragon

Kaz

No idea who this might be - whoever it is hasn't turned up around my space LOL

Kaz, love, never, ever feel you are worthless. You are special. Unique. And talented in a way few are, with such fantastice photography.

And this Yuletide, you are blessed with friends, even friends who you have met IRL only once or twice.

Jez


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Post 10

Researcher 556780



Kaz smiley - smooch

smiley - hug


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Post 11

Grim Reaper

Look, this dog dung whoever he is, seems to be some very rude words which I could be kicked off of H2G2 if i said them. It has no right to , more rude words, to insult any religion. Pagans, Wiccans, Jews, Druids, Christians, Egyptian, whatever. Its bad, but its just got to be shunted to one corner and try to ignore it.

*Feels heartless because he wasnt very comforting*


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