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So long and thanks for all the fish
Kaz Started conversation Apr 30, 2006
Well my time here on h2g2 has been interesting.
I couldn't get help from the nhs and so this was my help for a while. A place to come and vent to share my fears and everything else. Many people told me what to do and what to say and having now come from the otherside, I have to say to them, to back off in future. People dealing with their own abuse, need their own space. You can offer advice but never tell them how to be. We were all told to keep the abuse secret, the last thing we need is to be dominated by someone elses thoughts.
I have seen such hypocrisy here, people warning others about me and then warning me about those same others, people pretending to be something they are not. People accusing me of trying to make them leave, how could I do that anyway?! People accusing me of being as bad as hitler. People saying they are my friend even though they are happy to let me be accused of cruelty to animals without sticking up for me. I have seen so much here. People with such control issues it quite bewildered me, who has always been just me.
Having now felt genuine forgiveness for my abuser and realising I don't care about what happened anymore, I have made a huge step and now need to concentrate on other things.
Severe depression and ptsd has led to quite a few physical things wrong with me. I need to concentrate on those. Without seeing comments elsewhere that I am lying, that I have made these symptoms up. I don't need unhelpful people in my life anymore. I also don't need people who are actually out to harm me anymore. People whom I helped through their depression, who now stomp on me from their lofty heights, denying that they have ever been depressed!! 
On this note of true recovery, I realise its time to move on and leave this site, where I made true friends and also saw how badly people can behave. Where I learnt a valuble lesson - not to care about what others think of me, at least those I have no respect or liking for. I have learnt that now and so can move on at last.
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So long and thanks for all the fish
Willem Posted May 7, 2006
Hey Kaz, I'm really sorry that this has been your experience here, I'm sorry you're leaving and I'm sorry that I couldn't have been a better friend to you...
So long and thanks for all the fish
owlatronas Posted May 7, 2006
hi kaz you will be sorely missed 
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