h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I'm feeling a little down. To be honest, it's all my fault. The fact is I spent much of 2002 and all of 2003 mentally juggling a whole host of problems and things-to-do that I'd kept at the back of my mind in recent years and didn't want to deal with. As a result I've become increasingly moody, aloof, angsty and generally unpleasant. This has manifested itself in quite a few ways and one of these was my increasing belief that I had been "wronged" by someone, despite the fact that the issues between me and this person stemmed from something I did, which itself was a result of my increasing attitude-problem.

Every bubble bursts and I've been nurturing this one a while. But a few days ago I was inexcusably rude to this person and managed to insult them and someone else who I had no issue with and thus no right to be rude to. As a result of this, my "bubble" burst and I got to thinking what a deluded arse I've been this last year and that I should take responsibilty for all the things I've done. My reason for feeling "wronged", incidentally, was that this person used to be a good friend and I thought I should have been treated better. It seems incredible that I should have to tell myself this, but that is something that went both ways and *I'm* the one who should have treated this person as someone who used to be a good friend, not as some sort of enemy to be suspicious of and someone whose feelings were something to take for granted.

So, yeah, I probably deserve to feel a little low. And maybe my resolution for 2004 should be "sort my life out".