h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I feel the edge getting very close. I'm slowly creeping towards a dark depression. It's like living on a slight incline and with every small movement I slide a bit closer to the bottom of it. I can close my eyes to it, but it doesn't help. I have some footholds. But it's not always enough. It often only delays the inevitable. I feel I'm in a catch 22. I know what is happening so therefore it is controllable, but because I know what is happening can it be real? Is this something that I'm just making happen or is it really happening? I also worry about whether I should just not fight it and let it take control and I might get over it or hasten the process to get it over sooner. I also wonder if I go to see someone about it whether it will be diagnosed or just a product of my imagination. I'm not sure what is worse. Having this real or being told I'm not really like this and to go home and smarten up. Curling up into a ball is of course another option.

But I'll have to wait until I get home from vacation. I can't let others see me.

Oh wait there could be someone reading this.

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah whatever.