This is a Journal entry by Marmite

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Post 41

Marmite

Dont know what to say, but hiding his illness and still having sex, thats not far from manslaughter is itsmiley - sadface


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Post 42

Reefgirl (Brunel Baby)

That's such a shame, but as you say then there was a lot of ignorance and deniability


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Post 43

Mrs Bojangles

Well quite, I had a very weird moment, when he told me. I was stood at the end of his (my friend's partner)hospital bed, he was in a terrible way, hooked up to all sorts of machinery, oxygen etc, and I remember simultaneously feeling utter sympathy and thinking 'you(he) killed my best friend'. smiley - erm


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Post 44

Marmite

That must have been very hard to take, and the anger must have been strong... people say thats life... its not, it is just very unfair to take someone so young that was not their fault, gay or not gay no one deserves that and not even knowing that their partner carried the virus and they knew it... selfish bastard


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Post 45

aka Bel - A87832164

That's exactly what I thought when reading this. smiley - grr


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Post 46

Mrs Bojangles

It was...and he was, selfish and a bast*rd! We had never got on, he'd manage to put off and alienate every one of my friend's friends. Except mesmiley - evilgrin and I was the one he most wanted rid of, because my friend and I were so close and shared such history. Curiously, after my friend died, I was the one he wanted to be around and be around him, as I was the only one who was at least as close to my friend as he was, and could evoke and keep his memory alive. It was an odd couple of years before he too died.


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Post 47

Marmite

It is obviously heavy and there in your mind to be mentioning it now after all these years, have you ever spoken to anybody about this before, as if you havent you need to, it is a ghost you need to put to bed now, clear your heart and thoughts and pass on the memory to the grave....otherwise it will bring you down, trust me i have been there


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Post 48

Mrs Bojangles

smiley - wow This was a bit heavy for Sunday, sorry guys...and you're supposed to be convalescing young man!smiley - cross

I better go, my darling son is gnawing my shoulder, literally...I think he may be trying to tell me he's hungry!smiley - cross


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Post 49

Mrs Bojangles

No, I'm cool about it, in as far as I can be pretty philosophical about it all now. I still miss my friend obviously, friendship like that's once in a lifetime stuff, but, y'know, all part of life's rich tapestry n'all that! Don't remember why I mentioned it in the first place...but then, I don't usually need a reason to waffle on endlessly!smiley - biggrin

Take it easy BK, enjoy your partysmiley - evilgrin


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Post 50

Marmite

smiley - hug bye Mrs B, chat soon


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Post 51

redpeckhamthegreatpompomwithnobson

I really like this thread! smiley - smiley

It's really real!


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Post 52

Marmite

Hey Redsmiley - hugsmiley - ok, hows you


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Post 53

redpeckhamthegreatpompomwithnobson

OK am I. That's me being really real smiley - winkeye


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Post 54

Marmite

you sound like Yoda from star warssmiley - smiley


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Post 55

Ducky - Chief CPU CEO: The Right Hon. Ms Ducky, QC, PDQ, PMT, ADHD et al.

I was going to say that lol, You're not small and green with are walking stick are you, red? smiley - winkeye


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Post 56

redpeckhamthegreatpompomwithnobson

smiley - laugh Yes actually I'm really into Yoda speak, and make up my own convoluted variations sometimes. I haven't seen the film but I've certainly got into the concept!

Anything to do with language that's mixed up and confusing appeals to me!

Except when I'm feeling grumpy and pedantic! God I'm a difficult so and so!


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Post 57

redpeckhamthegreatpompomwithnobson

>>small and green with are walking stick<<

smiley - yikes Is there a hidden camera in my flat. smiley - winkeye I presume Yoda looked like that


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Post 58

Ducky - Chief CPU CEO: The Right Hon. Ms Ducky, QC, PDQ, PMT, ADHD et al.

Yes, he does, lol, love the films i do. smiley - biggrin


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Post 59

Ducky - Chief CPU CEO: The Right Hon. Ms Ducky, QC, PDQ, PMT, ADHD et al.

Yoda's like the germans, he pushes the verbs to the end of the sentence. smiley - winkeye


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Post 60

Marmite

Medication taking over, need food and bed, so bye for now peepssmiley - smiley


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