h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I'm bored again.
Hmm...
Well, Corbin is here.
Last night wasn't the greatest.
There was the most distant feeling between us
and we both felt it.
It was wierd.
I didn't like it at all.
He just kept giving me this negative attitude.
After all the s**t i did for him yesterday.
I picked him up at the airport,
I made him dinner...
We went and got a movie that we didn't get to watch,
Because he got in a fight with Tyler over ICQ
which made me feel terrible...
he was bieng so mean to him.
So I got sick of waiting for Corbin to come watch the movie...
i turned off all the lights upstairs and headed off to bed without him.
I cried and cried until an hour later when he finally came downstairs.
He asked what was wrong
All i could say was "you're so different now".
I told him he's too condescending
and I told him it's to the point where I can't enjoy a normal conversation with him.
And i can't.
I can't tell him how my day went
because he will always be like "why did you do that?" or "that's so stupid"
and make me feel like s**t.
I know he catches himself doing it sometimes and tries to make up for it,
but that's not enough.
Sometimes when you disagree with a situation or with someone
you just need to keep it to yourself....
you know...
for the sake of bieng polite.
Sometimes I just need to vent things to him
you know, just a shoulder to lean on and tell him my problems.
But i can't do that anymore.
It's like everytime i tell him anything
He always makes what i say sound stupid.
We talked about it...
and i think he realizes his problem.
If he doesn't stop is soon though...
I won't be able to handle this anymore.
I was on the brink of telling him "it's over" last night...
I know i don't want it to end...
but if i'm not happy,
there's no point on making it last.
I am more confident now that this is just a phase...
Am I making excuses for myself?
s**t...
i think i am.
i need to think about this.
s**t.
i am making excuses for him and i shouldn't be.
He acts like curtis more and more every time i talk to him or see him.
NOTICE HOW CURTIS DOESN'T HAVE A GIRLFRIEND??!!!
BECAUSE HE"S A F*****G LOSER WHO DOESN"T CARE ABOUT
ANYBODY BUT HIMSELF.
HE IS THE MOST DISRESPECTFUL, CONDESCENDING, MANIPULATIVE
PERSON I HAVE EVER MET.
Corbin has me for a reason.
Because I know corbin is a sweet, honest, respectful and caring person.
I started something with him for a reason...
and i've stayed committed to him for a reason.
But he's moving further and further away from what he was...
and more and more towards the type of guy i can't bare.

I don't corbin to end up alone,
and i don't want to end up alone either.

i need time to think.

~christy~

I feel sorry for you, but in the bad way. I guess I really cant comment on you and corbin but I'll I want to say is that he has changed. He is so different then he use to be.....and it not just the drinking and drugs, he's really changed his attuide towards life. From what I've read(mostly in this post) he was being a complete jerk to you, he shouldn't have and that maybe breaking up was the best thing for both of you. Maybe corbin has to realise that the world includes someone else other then him, some who has feelings and actually cares about him. Maybe the long-distant relesonship doesn't work for you guys.........I'm not sure if you wrote this befor or after you guys broke-up but I'll I can say is that I think you did the right thing about it. People change all the time, sometimes good but in corbin's case his changed for the bad. Of course what do I know, I've never had a boyfriend. This is just my oponion on what I've read.

-Eilene(I'm not really close to corbin so my oponion of him isn't that high)