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Wandering Thoughts
Kheldar (Don't hate the media, Become the media) Started conversation Apr 10, 2000
Such irony
It seems my path is laid out for me
The fact that there is no light along the way
Makes me stumble and almost fall sometimes
And I hope I'm still on the right track
The game I'm playing is not mine
And the rules I sometimes don't understand
Still, I have to go on
Because I'll lose too much if I quit now
My skills, which I have been building since birth
Are pulling me through and keeping me up
When will I be shot down?
Will it always be like this, like an addiction?
Once you start it, you can never drop out
I despise it, I fear it and yet I love it
Only when I'm playing, I feel truly alive
If not, I'm bored, messy and tired
Perhaps melancholic is the right word
For describing my mood right now
Don't know why and no one can tell me
I know it's a messed up world we live in
But it's the only one I got
So the playing is for the best
Even though I know there's not much use in it
Someone once said: "We're Knights in a world
That doesn't know honor anymore."
I guess that means that we do what needs to be done
No one ever said you have to like everything you do
I have to clear my head everytime
My system needs a refresh, or else it's gonna blow
It's getting harder everytime
My battery must be recharged everytime
How much more can I take?
Nevertheless, I know I have to go on
Wouldn't know how to live without it
Such is the path I'm walking on
It's like a drug, I need it to keep going
I'm just stumbling over the non-lit path
Staggering into unknown problems, not knowing
If I'll be able to solve them, able to eliminate them
On the other hand, unknown problems are the best
They make sure I keep my attention where it belongs
They tend to keep the game very alive
If it wasn't for them, the warning shot would be a hit
Life is a game, just like it always has been
Just like it always will be
If you want to win the game, you gotta be good
If you want to be good, you can never stop playing
If you never stop playing, in the end it gets you
Such irony
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Kheldar (Don't hate the media, Become the media) Posted May 18, 2000
I just wrote this when I was in a very depressed mood. When I read it back later, I thought it wasn't even that bad, so...
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Kheldar (Don't hate the media, Become the media) Posted May 18, 2000
I thought we had a dance. You asked me, the Monkey boy took over. After that we had a dance, I believe, but correct me if I'm wrong...
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- 1: Kheldar (Don't hate the media, Become the media) (Apr 10, 2000)
- 2: alicat (Patron Saint of Good Taste) (May 18, 2000)
- 3: Kheldar (Don't hate the media, Become the media) (May 18, 2000)
- 4: alicat (Patron Saint of Good Taste) (May 18, 2000)
- 5: Kheldar (Don't hate the media, Become the media) (May 18, 2000)
- 6: alicat (Patron Saint of Good Taste) (May 18, 2000)
- 7: Kheldar (Don't hate the media, Become the media) (May 18, 2000)
- 8: alicat (Patron Saint of Good Taste) (May 18, 2000)
- 9: alicat (Patron Saint of Good Taste) (May 18, 2000)
- 10: alicat (Patron Saint of Good Taste) (May 18, 2000)
- 11: Kheldar (Don't hate the media, Become the media) (May 18, 2000)
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