h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

This journal entery is about me, and i'm only putting it here so I can have it down in words to make sense of it. That being said, I won't stop you posting on it or anything.

Anyway, the point is that basically recently I have been feeling depressed. Probably due to the fact that exams are quickly closing in, and I'm sick, but also, I believe, it is because I am missing having someone *special* in my life. The last girl I went out with was a YEAR ago, though it was for 2 months. I actually had really strong feelings for her, although I didn't let her know how much because I had to protect her. She was going through a tough time in her life, and that would have just confused her more. Anyway, it ended when I refused to lay her, being a 'good boy'. Anyway, she shortly after got kicked out of her house and now lives quite far away. Why is her business, so I won't put it here. I still have strong feelings for her, but she is my friend and if she knew, she would not want anything to do with me. Trust me, I know her. I just miss having her there; hell, I miss having anyone there. I just want.... i just....





.......I just want someone to love again.

Soory to read that Navigator. When I was younger and studying I was quite the opposite, going out with boys constantly and having sex with far to many once at Uni.

I don't regret it but it wasn't the best thing to do and took time away from my uni studies which was just stupid. If you are making good decisions then that is good news, you arn't rushing into things and you get the chance to savour each one rather than having so many you have forgotten most of the names.

I guess its easy for me to say in hindsight that I feel you are doing the right thing. Its no comfort to you as you are living it, but you really really are doing the right thing.

Its now that I look back and have a crap degree that I realise how important studying was. I have never stopped studying now and take great pleasure in sharing what I have learnt with my husband. By being intelligent and not letting sex take over, you are guaranteeing that one day you will have an intelligent partner to share the rewards with.

As a side-issue, which has nothing to do with you, I had feelings for women when I was younger, but didn't know what to do, so I kept with men. Its only know that I realise I am bisexual and probably more into women than into men. I don't regret marrying my man he is wonderful, but if I had given myself more time when younger, to finding out who I really was, I wouldn't be wondering so much now.

I just trying to say that, give yourself time as it is amazing how life can take over later and you will never have time again. You have time to find love rather than being with people out of habit. You can also make sure that you are really with the right person, by giving yourself time and space to know who that person would be like and also what you are really like.

You don't want to realise in your thirties that you are now in a loving marriage but begining to realise that you are probably meant to be batting for your own side. I am not saying you don't know your own sexuality, but at least you won't be repeating my mistakes!

Good luck, you sound like someone worth knowing and talking to, I am sure you will find someone when the time is right, who will feel the same and fancy you to bits!

Yea, thanks for that. My ex was a bi, which I was fine with, although she didn't want me knowing my mate thought I should know and told me. She still is my friend though, and as she has depression, so I have to talk to her every so often on the phone. My other problem is that I have a 14 year old and a 12 year old after me, although I already told them I'm not going there, and a 16 year old in sweden, a bit far away.

Oh well, life is life. I have to study for exams, run this social, then find holiday work. life goes on.

You seem happier today. Believe me when you look back later, you will be glad you didn't let girls take over everything. You will also be glad that you only decided to do things when you wanted to. Honest.

Yea, I had sea cadets. I am organising a social for friday, theme 1920's gangsters and molls. I can get a suit and a fedora for $19, which is good. I'll get em tomorrow. My friends were telling me to go pirate core, because I am a sea cadet and my classmates call me 'pirate'. hmmm, I'll think about it. It would be a laugh. We are making a movie soon, for a film comp. I think its going to be called 'theres something about mutant hillbilly zombies'. Its going to rip parts off other films hard out, and the final scene will be a fight in cherry blossoms between 2 zombies, one with a pitchfork and a net, like a gladiator, and we don't know about the other yet. We are going to film the pitchfork flying towards one guys head, cunningly replaced with a watermellon with a cap on, then show a nuclear eruption and put 'Fin' on it.

Hi there, sorry I have been away, I really wasn't good company for some time. Sorted now though. So how are things?

Alright, just got back from finalising my courses. Last year at school, next year I'm off to Uni. I passed my Sailing Charge Course, so w00tage, but some people stopped talking to me. Which I think is hypocritical because of what they said the week before. I kinda don't have much inner confidence eh. Though apparantly people think I'm really confident because of how I act. So yeah, this girl now won't talk to me because she got her 1st boyfriend and he's threatened by the way I talk to all my female friends.. But I've always talked to them like that and I'm not stopping. Just because I'm secure in my sexuality lol . I think I annoy people like her boyfriend because I'm not afraid to my male mates in public, and I con't stand people being dissed for being gay, cos my bestie, who I used to date, is a lesbian. I hate the way people change like like that for someone. She's all happy with me because I boost her confidence levels (some stuff happened to her which she doesn't normally talk about but which she told ME about) but then disses me because I upset her boyfriend by sending a text with a heart on it saying 'send this to all your mates'. Oooh, big whoop.

So what courses are you signed up for?

Well done at the sailing course.

People eh, I still have difficulty dealing with them and working out what is going on and how things can change so suddenly. I have had so many male friends who have to disappear for a while when they get a new girlfriend, and they are not allowed to spend time with another female. I do understand jealousy, but we have to use wisdom and logic as well. Well good luck at working them out, just be true to yourself, and treat people well, it sounds like you do that already, so don't let the b*****ds grind you down.

Yeah. Thanks Kaz.
I had to go to the funeral of a teacher today, Mr. Peter Dimitri Eliadis, who had a great name and personality. He taught at my school for 20 years, the last 5 just part time work. He was only 61. He was a great man and we'll all miss him. Quick with the bad puns and jokes, but taught and trained people all over the globe. Was a mad sportsman, and although I only do sailing and as the school doesn't do that never had him training me, he relieved some of my classes over the years. I'm not ashamed to say that during the funeral, Johannes, one of my best mates, and myself nearly many times. The best remembered joke he always told when someone was chewing gum in class; it was 'hey, don't chew gum, you'll come to a sticky end'. And our Assistant Principal, Mr. Mel Young, who teaches 5th and 6th form History and who I've had the last 2 years teaching me has been diagnosed with cancer of the lymph nodes. He's having Chemo, but most cases of lymph cancer are fatal. We live in hope though, he inspired me to do my best in history. I feel for me to trust them, teachers need to earn my trust, and he very quickly did so.

In regards to my courses, I am doing 7th form English,Statistics, Geography, and History in school and 7th form Classics by correspondance in a spare time slot. Next year I hope to do Planning at Auckland University.

Its great you have been inspired by your teachers. I may use that gum joke myself! I hope your other teacher fights the lymph cancer, it can be done sometimes, so keep some hope.

With your planning course, is that like town planning?

yeah, but its a full planning degree so I'll be able to do city planning, coastal planning, business planning, mine planning, the whole lot. I think I'll aim to do transport planning and do a double degree with law. Planning makes a lot of money anyway, but Transport Planning coupled with law makes the mega-bucks in the planning world. Hundreds of thousands per year

Full planning sounds interesting, with ocean levels increasing we will need people who can deal with that and think ahead. To combine it with law is just awesome though, think how much money you will save by not having to hire your own lawyers!

Yeah i know. It also allows me to be trusted by major corporations to make informed decisions with the minimum of safety checks by the companys lawyers when I make a decision based on planning, which will increase my employability by a huge amount. Apparantly the starting wage is about 60 thou for a good planner, going up into the hundreds very quickly. A mine planner with 8 years experience can get about $138 thou Australian, and transport planners make a huge amount more, especially coupled with law. Mmmm, money

Sounds good, agreat future for you there.

I believe you live in New Zealand, does that mean you are fed-up with hearing about the great scenery in The Lord of the Rings films? We all went mad for NZ when they came out, it seems many people didn't realise the wide range of environments you have there. What sort of area do you live in, if you don't mind me asking?

I live in Hamilton, the area below auckland. The main city of the mighty Waikato region. We are really close to Auckland(2 hrs at most), Tauranga(1.5 hrs), Port Waikato (the other side, a few hrs), Raglan (.5 hrs)etc. It's great. We live in an area that has a lot of winter fog and frost, and the autumns are great. Red and gold among the white fog. Foggy from halfway through autumn to halfway through winter. Um, LOTR was a bit over-the-top, and King Kong is kinda gimmiky, I think that Narnia shows NZ a little better. Though I do like the scenes in LOTR with the mountains, they look good. Last year my Geography class climbed Mt. Tongariro because we were doing a case study on the effects of Heather on the Tongariro Volcanic Centre, which I made a nice entry for on H2G2, so you can look up hehehe. The area I live in is surrounded by mountains, so we cannot get any snow in the rare occasions it snows in the North Island, but as I said before, we're close to all the stuff in the North Island, so we don't have to go far to go skiing at Mount Ruapehu etc. Umm, thats all I can think of off the top of my head, anything else you want to know?

It must open the mind to be surrounded by mountains. I recently saw Narnia, it looked very nice. Lots of rocks and hilly bits for varied rambling, for that I used to goto Dartmoor, I hope to get back there again one day.

I won't be bothering with King Kong! I am sure in LOTR a lot was CGIed. We also saw Whale Rider, which didn't show a lot of scenery apart from the same bit of coast, still a good film though.

Here we are surrounded by concrete with bits of earth peaking out and honoured parks which are protected from building - mostly. Do you live surrounded by concrete as well, or are you lucky?

Nah, we got a lot of green

I did a film study on Whale Rider, it's quite interesting when you get to know about the story behind it, with the writer and all