h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I want a clear mind, I don't want to waste
any precious thoughts, clarity. I do not want paranoid thoughts.
I went to the Brahma Kumaris tonight,"The Meaning Of Life".
I got there early and meditated for an hour or so then the class
started. The gist of it all boils down to love. Love, love
giving love recieving love, but mostly giving unconditional love.
Everything else are just obstacles to love.
Look at all my own obstacles to giving love, all these suspicions
and theories, paranoid thoughts.Seeing Madonna's ghost saying,"I would be paranoid too." or Tom Cruise's spirit happily saying,"Poor Eric."
When I was homeless. I don't want to think about these celebraties.
It's all in my mind. They make themselves out to be saints, and I think the opposite is true. Man's inhumanity to man.
I want a clear mind, as clear as a quartz crystal ball. I want to love and be loved. Like everyone.
Opposites, say one thing and mean another. What do you want me to think? What do you want the general public to think? Do you care?
Do I care? More gobbledeegoop...
I don't believe these famous stars and presidents know I exsist.
Let alone that they all scheme against me to give me Aids.
Suspicions and theories. I think all the letters I sent out were thrown away in the trash. No ones monitoring my telephone. And if it were all true everything I've done wouldn't faze them, or affect them in the slightest. Paranoia, spirits of the dead and living, hallucinations!
They're all busy people with millions of dollars with busy,busy carreers
and families, nothing I do could possibly affect them.
And I've really done nothing anyway.
I don't believe that many people read these journal entries, I don't believe that many people have seen my shows on public access.
So I'll try and love myself and meditate and pray for clarity.
Lord,make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred,let me sow love.
Where there is injury,pardon;
Where there is doubt,faith;
Where there is despair,hope;
Where there is darkness,light.
And where there is sadness,joy.
O divine master,grant that I may not
so much seek to be consoled as to
console; to be understood as to
understand; to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in forgiving that we are forgiven,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.