h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Back to reality, I wish I could stay in Brahma Kamari mode.
Don't we all wish we could be so content and pure and loving every minute like the sisters of the Brahma Kumaris,we'd all be happy.
My mind keeps coming back to the Aids epidemic and how man made it is. My mind keeps dwelling on my civil rights. I want what everyone wants, I'm no different.
Why do I want to know the truth, I'd rather be oblivious,ignorance is bliss. It's going to be my birthday on New Years Eve, happy birthday to me! What do I do throw away my own sister and mother! The only birthday presents I could get. And I throw them away!!!!!!!!!!!!
But the rage I feel towards them is real. My mother has hurt me all my life, I understand shes ill, but still. I don't have much of a choice to turn my back on them, and I'm not about to make up with them at this point either.
I may aswell have been a baby crawling on the satreets of Old Calcutta! How I ever got by is a miracle.
Enough feeling sorry for myself.
Things could be worse. I always knew I created my own reality.
I always believed in the Seth Material by Jane Roberts, I've been trying to reread it but can't.
Despite it all my life keeps going on the upswing littlt by little.
I have setbacks but like the old goat that I am I still climb uphill.
I believe in astrology and know it's not an exact science, it can go either way, like the tarot, it can go either way. Yoga is an exact science though, so I'll keep up my yoga, that's all I really have anyway. Free will exists, I'll make my life better somehow despite it all. I believe in me. I love me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!