h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

i am really mad right now it's like 1 in the morning and i can't stand all this stuff any more i just spent the past three hours looking for drum tablature and all i came up with was three offspring songs i already knew how to play and this guy that i really liked and described in some other jurnal entry turns out to be this total jerk i see him one time after me and my boyfriend break up and i wouldn't have sex with him and now he won't even talk to me i haven't even seen him sence then i try to talk to him but every time i say anything serious he doesn't answer any of my questions and acts like he's not even talking to me then when i get goffy with him he says he can't take the goffy stuff even though when he starts a conversation he is either trying to mess with my head or he doesn't talk to me it really makes me mad cuz i really liked this guy it makes me think that all men are the same all they want is sex and if you don't give it to them they don't want anything to do with you unless you are another guy it makes me freaken sick now i have the same kind of crush on another guy who probably wants nothing else either i wish i could play my drums right now cuz i have alot of aggression to get out but every one else would throw a fit if i banged on my drums as hard as i could at 1:30 in the morning and on top of all this stupid stuff i'm sick this makes me even sicker i just wana cry