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Life, love and liberty
Posted Apr 12, 2004
Evening all!
Finally wrote a bit about myself, it's naff, but I am very tired as it is 11:30pm!
I got a bit down at the end of it, there are a lot of things I have experienced recently, namely my mum dying last year. When someone dies who I care about, it reminds me of everybody else who died, who I cared about, and it makes me wonder (yet again) WHY do we have to go through all this? Why do people die before they have achieved all they set out to? Why are they taken as they are about to embark on something new? My mum wasted her life missing opportunities, and so have I, and quite frankly, I don't want to any more. So that is why I type out all this stuff, as a year ago I would have been too nervous to bother, and I would have put it off until another day. Well another day may be too late.
Onto my subject, which is Life, Love and Liberty. These three things are foremost in my mind at present. I ponder a lot on life, to the point where I get so amazingly depressed that I almost will myself to wink out of existence. A weird feeling!
I haven't done much with my life, and I hope to rectify that in time. My partner has become friends with a man who owns a BIKE! Nice. And guess who wants to ride on that BIKE? You guessed - ME!!!
Problem is, I am very shy, and I get too shy to ask if I can go for a ride on the bike, as I feel that the bloke in question doesn't regard me as a friend, more as 'my mate's other half'. Or, as Del Boy said in an episode of OFAH, 'significant other'. I feel more like an object in a graphic adventure that doesn't bear any importance in solving the game, but is there merely as a nice background decor.
I am obviously lacking in some confidence here, but maybe some of you know what I mean and how I feel. I want to be my partner's mate's mate as well. I like bikes, and I would like to learn more about them and get out of the house on one of them as well. I want to experience things I was too scared to do before the reality hit me that I could actually die of other things than motor accidents.
That leads me nicely onto liberty. Freedom. I would like more. And the bike thing is one part of it. I want to be able to go out and do things without having to take someone with me. That would be nice. Although it would also be nice to have someone around to go with me, so we can share the experiences together. That is more enjoyable to me.
Oh well, as my poetical friend always says to me, 'things will sort themselves out in the end'.
Sorry for rambling! 
RIP mum, we scatter her ashes on Friday, her birthday. 
'Always look on the bright side of life....'
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Moving house
Posted Mar 4, 2004
So the chaos that is the house move begins...
Well, off to a good start - NOT! My ear is blocked and aching, and my youngest daughter has a tummy bug and is throwing up all over the place, great. We are still packing things but have no more boxes left, so most of the remains are going in bags, this is complete madness.
Also, I have to notify everyone of the move, at the last minute, because we only knew exactly when we were moving two days before we had to! I also went onto the Royal Mail website to try their new change of address notification thingy, but found that all the companies I needed to notify weren't on their list, so I had to phone them anyway. Grand.
Now I must go and continue my panic-stricken charge around the house, trying to tie up all the loose ends, before my youngest (the pukey one) unpacks all the boxes for us. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
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