h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I just told Andy that I needed some time to think. To know me again. To watch out for my life and figure out what I need. I told him I think that I'm so wrapped up in him that I'm beginning to wollow and his moods turn into my moods and that's not healthy.

I told him it wasn't because I don't love him or because I'm leaving, just because I can't handle it right now.

I don't think he listened to that last bit at all. He was so hurt. SO hurt and all I want to do right now is to call him back and undo it. I think I'm having a breakdown.

I know intellectually that I did the right thing. Emotionally I feel as if I've just voluntarily ripped out my own insides. Actually, I feel like I've just voluntarily flushed all my heroine down the toilet and I'm trying to go cold turkey.

I've got the shakes, I can't stop crying and I'm hyperventillating. In my book these are all signes that there's something wrong with our relationship. I have to get worse until I get better, right? Just get through this...

Things need to change, they NEED to change. This will either wake him up to the fact that things need to change or this will make him leave, and if he leaves, that tells me something about our relationship, doesn't it?

It was the right thing to do
It was the right thing to do
It was the right thing to do
No matter how it FEELS it was the right thing to do.

*hugs*

We all need space at times, I hope you find you again. And be happy when you find it.

*hugs*

DD

*more hugs*

even more hugs. Are you working today? Or did all this happen at home? Call me tonight if you like.

I am at work today. Tonight Todd is going to come over and get me drunk and take care of me. The worst part is, I want things to change, and this is the only way they will (lord knows we do enough talking and that hasn't changed anything) but I don't want it to be like this.

The thing is that I just have to remind myself that I'm strong, I'm my own person, worth loving for myself. I'm not just Krissy and Andy I'm KRISSY. Krissy Lee. And I don't take nothing from nobody and there's no reason our relationship should be what it is now and I'm sorry I hurt him but he's been hurting me on a pretty regular basis these days.

Arrrggg it really is an addiction. I'm addicted to this person. I'm going through serious withdrawl.

Thanks for the offer, but I'm sure I'll have people taking care of me this weekend.

Ugh...as right as this is it FEELS wrong. Wrong wrong wrong.

Krissy,
You did the right thing... and you are one of the coolest people, and I know you can be strong.

You rule, and you know it

sbz

Thanks I'm doing my best. We'll see. But thanks for your vote of confidence.

Are we voteing now? Am i registered?

We ARE voting now and you AREN'T registered. Please shimmy on down to your local registration office with an uzi and scream "KRISSY IS THE QUEEN OF YOU ALL AND YOU ALL MUST DIE IN SACRIFICE TO HER!!" as many times as you can before you are shot.

Thank you.

Can't i just pass a collection plate or something?

Sure... do it the easy way.

Nothin' less than $50s though. And if you come back with less than $2,000 you will be shot.

You mean given a shot? Of scotch?

Yes.

Wrapped around a bullet.

Coming out of a gun.

That baby's got kick, believe you me.

I believe the phrase "Thank you sir may I have another" applies here...

and I AM known for my generosity.

Yes, I was just thinking exactly that! "That Krissy," I said to myself, "She's the personification of generosity!"

Thank you sir may I have another?!?!?

THing is, after one bulet, it becomes difficult to ask for the second.

That's why you need to get yourself a good painted sign.

THANK YOU SIR
MAY I HAVE ANOTHER

*obligingly shoots some whiskey again*

Well, it does depend on WHERE you get shot...

*be's rather embarassed* Oh of course, I forgot to inquire.

Where would you like to be shot? *stands around solicitously holding the gun*