h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

jam,

hello. i hope you are doing well lately. i just got back from my second broomball game where i felt alienated from everyone, don't know why. i'm just not like the people on my team. i don't really know who i'm like. i feel so lost here not having anyone to hug. just a stupid little thing it seems, but it is so important. i hug lizzy, but it is just such a lizzy hug--not really it all, just the outside. well, i guess that is not true, there is amanda, she is great, but i hardly see her. my mom drove me back here from home last weekend and she kept telling me about all the schools around cleveland that she would be thrilled if i went to. but then my dad said, when i decided to come here and after saying that i may try a few different schools, that i should stick to one. but i am feeling very lonely. i know that i have molly and i do have friends, but i have such a set schedule with them, monday--lizzy and amanda for dinner, molly for the gym. tuesday--see lizzy in tae kwon do and go to ping (the gym) with molly. wednesday--etc... i just want someone to hang out with on the spur of the moment or just actually hang out with--nothing to do but just sit there in the company of the other. or hell, even go on a road trip with. i am having a great year, and i know i say this all the time, but it would be a lot easier for me (to want to stay here) if i had a boyfriend! someone to hold me to this place. lizzy no longer has time to keep me in line about staying here (saying "no! don't leave me!" and such). i have friends, i have ties, but i just want someone for myself. i'm not making any sense. i was playing broomball and emily (the team captain) had her "sort of boyfriend" there and i was just thinking about how nice it would be for me to have someone there to support me and to just watch me and think "i'm so lucky!". that is all i want. and perhaps for him to walk me home at the end and rub my feet (but that isn't completely necessary). i saw tom again on friday and then yesterday and today. it's all very strange. i am beginning to think i have seen him before, hell maybe i've seen him every day of my life and i haven't noticed. i mentioned this to him today and he said "well, it must be fate then!" but i wish it was coming out of someone else's mouth. i don't know what i want, i just want to feel happy and pretty (in the eyes of a guy who is gaa-gaa over me) and wanted.

sorry this is such a bumming email. don't know where it came from. it just sort of came out like this. i'm feeling too sorry for myself--i must look on bright side. i wish i was on the bright side right now. but as it were i am going to bed. perhaps i will meet a handsome prince in my dreams. perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

christy

Good grief, such an outpouring. Let it go girl, and relax! Having consulted The Feline Lads they are happy to purr for u.

Purrr Purrrrrrrrr (Pulls threads in clothing)

thank you so much for the purrs! i don't know what is wrong with me lately. i just got really childish with my friend last night and i left almost crying. or i started to cry, but he came out and offered me a ride, i couldn't very well do it in front of him! don't know, all i really want is a friend who will give me bear hugs. but as it is i have to wait until i go home every few weeks in order to get the lovin i need to feel really good! anywho.
hey, have you ever read Tailchaser's Song? it is by Tad Williams. just out of curiosity.
*thanx again man!