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Claire, the op is on the 19th sept, i had cosmetic surgery that went a bit wrong!!! Well it is being recorrected well hopefully anyway. I could not have the op before as i had a car crash last year and gained 3 stone! only got 8lb to lose now and then i am back to my pre op weight. It has not been an easy journey losing it this time and i have had difficulties with my old problems trying to rear their ugly heads again. But at least i am getting there, this time a place where i never want to return. But how many times have we had the t shirt and out grown it or had to hand it back again...and anyway who ever said one size fits all...my foot

Hey, that's fantastic! You should shout it from the roof tops hun, any amount of weight loss is great - after all, we both know how hard it can be!! It is difficult with all the different advise you get but to my mind it's all about finding a way of eating that suits you and that makes you happy - if you don't do that then I think it's unlikey that you'll have any real success.

Did you find that your weight fluctuated a bit when you started maintenance? I'm trying to find an eating level that suits me at the moment but I seem to be eating for England and still losing - very bizarre but I'm sure I'll hit a plateau soon, otherwise all that will be left of me will be my boobs!

'But how many times have we had the t shirt and out grown it or had to hand it back again' Haha, that made me laugh Diane - I might adopt that as my new mantra Excellent!

I found maintence ok whilst ever i exercised but when that had to stop because of the injury, my eating remained the same...big mistake!! Glad you have managed to keep yours mine are slowly and surely doing a disappearing act!! The one part which wouldn't go were my table top hips! That's why i went under the knife!

Diane sweetie,

Its great that I found you, of course I want to reply to you on here, its not triggering at all, its brilliant that claire has done so well in loosing 8 stones...wow! I enjoyed reading your little into page, I did'nt know you actually worked in this field as such. I wanted to come here for a while but I could'nt figure out how to as such, but today I must be slightly more alert cos' I managed to find you

Love Clara xxxxxx

Gosh I am still on here, this must mean i am an addict!!! Thats another disorder you can put me down for!! I am glad you don't find it a trigger but if ever you do don't worry i am sure we will figure out a way. How did you find me then? I know I have tried very hard before to meantion this site, but any time i have done so on the ED site i have had it returned.
OK so here is some more info. I live just on the outskirts of Nottinham a stones throw away from Sherwood Forest. I live in a very pretty village with only 400 other villagers. We used to live in Nottingham itself but my son had many problems and got into taking drugs...not the hard type but it caused us ome grief and i wanted to help him quit the scene so we moved here and thankfully everything has turned out for the best.
I am surprised you didn't know what i did for a living. I have had alot to come to terms with with regards to my job, what with having eating problems in the past and sometimes even now, but Big Eric and others have helped me to realise that just because I have the problems i do it does not make me a bad teacher either. It can be very difficult at times though, especialy at the moment because even though all my clients know i have had eating disorders they don't undertsand the mental scarring you are left with. One particular group found out i too was trying to loose weight and demanded me get weighed each week in front of them....i mean what a nightmare!! This has not helped me to diet sensibly at all in fact it has been quite triggering!! This week i have not lost a thing and luckly they have had to cancel tonights appointment so i feel i have been blessed, but i must lose for next week or i am for the chop! The other thing is they weigh me at night so you weigh more, i stupidly told them my goal weight and now it seems for me to get there i have got to go lower than i want to arghhhhhh. Hey don't feel that you have to put any info on here you don't want to, i don't mind really.

sorry i couldn't get on this Diane xxx

thanks for telling me so much about yourself, its nice to get a more rounded picture as such, cos' on the ED board they are quite strict! Wow, nottingham, I love it there, although I have'nt been there for a long time. I wanted to go to Notingham university, but they did'nt do the course I wanted to do

Are you dressed yet? Just wondered!!!I have managed to get showered, dressed and do some housework downstairs and have stopped for a short rest (no doubt a long rest though)! I live in Durham, but go to Northumbria University. Its quite annoying having to travel every day on the train and the bus, cos' I live with mum and my twin brothers at the minute. Not forgetting my 4 month old puppy Teddy!!! My mum moved up here from Truro, in Cornwall, last July when she split up with my step-dad. I like it up here, but I do prefer Truro, although I would never have been able to stay in Truro cos' there are no universities there!

I do get mad with people, like your clients, who have no idea how tough living with an eating disorder is. I can't imagine anything worse then being weighed every week in front of people. Honestly, Diane I would be forceful and say no. It reminds me of being at school, and having to be weighed as part of a tally for our maths class, not nice! I think you have done brilliantly to loose weight sensibly, and althouh I did read about your struggle on holiday, I think you coped really well. I hate that feeling of fullness, it always makes me worse. I'm afraid I did b/v today, I kind of new it was gonna happen, I did'nt want it to though. It takes me ages to get back on track after going so long without doing it. Mum rang to say she's gonna be back late, so to sort myself out for tea. This is where I struggle, do I have tea and risk binging or do I not eat? I'm sorry honey, I don't want to whinge or trigger you. I'm also not sure if I'm allowed to talk about my ED here.

(((((((((((((Diane))))))))))

Lots of love Claire xxxxxxx

P.S. Thought I better use my real name here cos' it should be safe as it is'nt an obvious ED board as such

Claire, It is so difficult not to binge once you have started honey, but think you have managed 2 whole weeks and that deserves a medal, even a blue peter badge! If you can do it for 2 weeks then see if you can try again, how about saying well i have done it for today, so i am not allowed to do it again, once is enough. When i was recovering from bulimia i would only allow myself small very small amounts of food, because as we both know it is very difficult to bring a very small amount back up. Instead of having your tea in one full go divide it up and eat it in 2 or maybe 3 sittings. Going without it will lead to you feeling in control when really your not. Don't let this ED head get its own way, you are a strong girl and i know you can do it.
I had many happy holidays near where you used to live, i agree it is lovely there.
I have to cats Flounder and Sebastian. Love them to pieces.
I don't think we will have any problems talking like this on hee as it isn't a place like you say that can trigger off hundreds, and as long as they can see we are becoming friends without risking the feelings or well being of anybody, i think we will be ok.
(love> Diane xxx

How did you get to be so clever? I think your suggestion is good, and I will try it. I think its just hard for me to eat properly when I have the next five hours with noone in the house except me. I have come to the conclusion that my main trigger food is icecream for obvious reasons! I hate this fear I have of eating, because I am hungry, but scared that when I eat it will make me binge and then I'll end up with my head down the toilet. Its very much like a circle, fine, not fine, fine, not fine. I think I also find the idea of getting better scary cos' I still want to loose weight!

Truro is a gorgeous place to live, I used to live in a little townhouse and it was about 5 minutes walk to the city shops. I miss it lots, its so cute and safe! Are you near Sherwood Forest? I might have just made that up actually!I think I'm thinking of Robin Hood! I'm not a cat person at all I'm afraid, I'm allergic to them, my eyes go all puffy and my skin goes red. They are cute though

Love Claire xxxxx

It wont be easy but you are not on your own honey i am here to help you. Shame you have to have ice cream in the house, or do you do what i used to...go out and get the stuff?
Yes Sherwood Forest is the home of Robin Hood, and i live about 4 miles away from the famous tree the major oak! Although that is abit of a scam really cause by the time you have walked through the woods to find it, there is a notice to say that this could not have been the actual tree itself because this one would have been an acorn at the time!!! But it is the oldest and biggest tree in the forest. It is lovely living so rural but at the moment it smells of pooh! the farmers muck spreading again. Diane xxx xxx

I'm so glad the forest does exist, thought I might have just made it up! Its sounds beautiful, really gorgeous and peaceful! I like places like that, I hate where we live at the minute, its just so far from beautiful its makes me want to cry. I live on a new estate in durham, everyone who sees my house thinks its gorgeous, but I hate it. All the houses look the same, and the whole estate is so perfect its unnatural. I like quaint little houses where they have character. The one in truro was beautiful. The one we live in now is just bricks. Mum loves it cos' its on a posh estate and its all new and pristine, but its too perfect for me. Mum can tell if there is a leaf out of place in the garden!

I have just had a bit of chocolate cos' I felt a bit dizzy after being sick earlier. I hope I can keep it down cos' my throat hurts lots. I don't suppose you have any idea how many cals I should be aiming to eat if I want to loose weight? I know I seem mad cos' the liklihood of my keeping more than 500 cals down at the minute is pretty low. I just wondered!

Love Claire xxxxxx

The house where i live is new too although only on a very small development.
As for your eating honey it really is very hard to say. I too don't like to eat no more than 500 at any one time, personally i don't think my tummy could hack it, thats what went wrong on holiday! It is a very difficult line to cross to recover and still lose weight but i am sure it is not impossible either. You need to try and avoid the foods you know that trigger you off like the ice cream if you can. I don't know wether you can remember this one, but it was once said that a bulimic wont bring all the food up despite how hard she tries her body will always keep some for itself. So just try to eat those small amounts like i said but on a regular basis, and see if that works for you honey. What ever you do you don't want to make yourself poorly.
Diane xxx

thanks honey, I know its hard to want to recover and loose weight, I think that's the problem. I'm so used to starving and then binging. Those two weeks where I did'nt b/v consisted of mainly starving. I know its slows weight loss and metabolism and I also know that I can never get rid of all the food I eat, its just a ritual I am used to I guess. Garry is always telling me that my body is in starvation mode, because of the way I treat it, but I don't think I can actually handle the thought of food in me. I would love to eat like a 'normal' healthy person, but I find it impossible. Even having a yoghurt triggers me into binging. I do hate it. I am also trying to support a friend at the minute who is in recovery from anorexia. I find that triggering too, because she is 3 stones lighter then me, and she says she's fat. Then there is me with a BMI of 24, who is fat.....argh!!!

We all know what we are doing to our bodies its just that sometimes we can't stop it.
Hey whats this being fat at a BMI of 24, You are not fat at that at all, in fact you ain't that far off what my BMI says and that is honest. And what would you say if I said i was fat you would tell me im not. You need to think about yourself chick not others Diane xxxxxxxxx

thanks diane, you are right I would say you are not fat! Have got to go now and return a video but I will probably be on here in an hour or so if your around

Love Claire xxxx

OK chick will check on here later. I have really enjoyed our little chit chat today. I am at work most of tomorrow so if i seem quiet enjoy the peace as i very rarely am quiet! But i will pop by to try and say hello. Thursday and Mondays are my manic days. always Diane xxx

Hi CP. It was me who suggested apple juice to soften up your gallbladder contents and olive oil to make the gallbladder empty itself.

If you stay on an ultra-low fat diet, your gallbladder may clog up completely. What do you reckon, Diane?

If you're worried about eating fat, stick to oily fish as it's rich in heart-healthy omega-3 fats. Do you like sardines or smoked salmon?

Hi Nige, phew what a day i have spent all day trying to get on here, the house is a mess etc etc.
Anyway with regards to your advice, yes i agree, apple juice is great, but remember we are speaking to a girl whom suffers from an ed here, the very mention of the word fat will send her running in the opposite direction. We are not just talking of an ultra low fat diet here, what we are talking of is an ultra low diet, with bingeing.But don't worry what you have said is right. Diane