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Hi darlin soz aint bin about much bin kinda busy recently, am goin out wid that EmmA now, it's nothing serious, i dont really want nethin serious but shes cool wid that More importantly hows u barin up darlin? I worry bout u. Please don't lose faith, i myself am not religious but i have read a few Wicca books and know some stuff
U part of a group of pagans? or solitary "witch". Faith is somethin each person themselves have and only u can decide wot 2 believe in. Just go with wot meks u happy darlin cus we only live once and itz 4 enjoyin not survivin reply soon loadsa MaRc

Morning sugar... No worries about not being around... Well, best of luck with Emma, have lots of fun and stuff

As for me, im gettting along. Im still abit groggy and in a bit o fpain, and im feeling miserable and all the usual trollope, but i'll mess through it again, like i always do, coz thats the person i am. Dont worry about me, coz you should worry about yourself, but its nice to know you're there... As for the lost faith, if it doesnt come home then so be it, maybe i just ned my confused mind to settle. Im not actually Wiccan, its all my own belief, so maybe it'll be easier to get that back. Coz its mine and not someone elses?

Im in a coven. 13 of us, all friends, and they're all really supportive.

Yeah, we only live once, so make the most of it. If there was one thing for you ever, what would it be? And be selfish with that wish, coz its for you not for mankind.

Kitten kisses and licks

xxx

EmmA is already p'in me off lol and it's been wot 2 days. Shes annoyin me cus shes acting like shes summat special and thinkin she can treat me sh!tty i.e. not reply 2 txts til she can b arsed, when a fone her she wants 2 go almost immediately lol a well she will soon learn i can b just as nice lol can't see this 1 lastin long at all. me was drunk agen sat so still dont really know her but since im sober all she does is annoy me lol a well never mind and i will worry bout ya cus me really likes ya darlin urmmm if i had 1 wish i'd prob wish 2 find
hapiness with a woman who i cud get on wid on every level. my immediate thought was 2 wish 4 money but i dont think money brings that much hapiness. if i had another wish i'd wish 4 u 2 be here so i cud giv u a hug xxx neway gtg got 2 exams at uni parisitology and biodiversity yay lol xxx luv MaRc

Awww baby, dont worry about Emma... really and trully, atleast you'll admit she's getting to you, and its only two days so thats good. Lol - im amused that you still dont know her... but only coz with me i tend towards safer relationships now with people i already know... coz of everything. I know it'll change in the end though.

aww huni thanks for saying you like me. It means alot to mewhen people tell me they like me coz i duno... ive not got very much confidence in myself,a and i dont see much to like in myself.

Tell me of this ideal woman then who equals your every level, coz im interested to know.....! Ive had one bit of good news this week, which will probably sound horrible to you, but its not. My best friend Matthew and his girl broke up... that sounds horrible, but she was horrible to me and sent me loads of stuff telling em to stay away from him and stuff, and she was cheating on him and everything. Im so glad that shes not ruining him anymore. And im not sure why i put that there, except that to a point you remind me of him...

My wish would be.... *being totally selfish*... for me to find someone i love as much as matthew (in about 5 - 10 years time) and to be with them forever ...

Good luck with the exams... sounds like fun :/
x

Me 2 exams yday and me exam 2day went really gud U like this matthew, i thought u was with dan??? lol hey u might meet me in a years time if ya cum 2 Aston u can see if a am like matthew My ideal woman wud have blue eyes, brunette hair, nice smile, nice teeth, smaller than me, thin but not too skinny, I like piercins lol, she'd have 2 like the same music as me and she'd have 2 be me best mate aswell as me gf I wud av 2 be able 2 speak 2 her without makin a effort if u understand me lol I hate avin 2 mek a effort 2 talk 2 a girl, it should just cum naturally Thats me ideal woman. Me ex was all these except she broke my most important thing!! she lost my trust to me thats very important wots ya ideal man?

btw darlin u should think more of yaself ya gr8 and really strong me respect ya loads and am very fond of ya any help u need u can rely on me 2 try me best 2 help reply soon LuV MaRc xxxxxx

Well, im glad about your exams! Thats really good...

Ok.. the thing with matt is hard to explain, but i'll give it ago.... Matt is my best friend. He s a year older than me and we're really close. We like each other alot, but we decided that if we got together now it'd get too serious too quickly and would ruin everything we have. So, maybe we will further down the line or maybe we wont. In the meantime, im with dan, but he and i both know this isnt a serious relationship that will last forever... i hope that doesnt make you think im a loose lady, coz im not. I just dont want to screw up right now. Me 2 exams yday and me exam 2day went really gud U like this matthew, Itd be cool if you were like Matthew, coz thatd make you an even more special person! Yey...

Your ideal woman sounds managable atleast, but are you really looking for a seriou serious serious realtionship when your so young? I duno - go out have fun and the world will sing sweetly. Now my ideal bloke - thats kindy difficult coz i dont usually go on looks. It helps, and i haev a few things, like they have to be the smae height as me, taller or REALLY close in height to me. Im not a big fan of blonde hair or mayorly skinny guys. I can handle normal build and rounder... he neds to respect my choices and not pressurise me, and not patronise me. He needs to understand why i made certain decisions in my life. He needs to be a good hugger - thats really important. Erm... he needs to get on with my friends and i need to get on with his. He needs to understand my taste in music and not inflict my brothers tastes on me. Stuff like that....

I dont feel strong. Last night i was reading a book where this kid is being bullied. Ive read it before and not cried, but it made me cry last night coz i felt like no one gets me right now. Dan hasn't even asked what they did - just if im ok and coz i find it hard to show alot of em,otion everyone thinks im coping really well, when i just need someone to ask about it and help me let it all out. Im sick of pretending its all ok...

But i wont depress you with that... kitten licks and kisses
x

lol Am not after anythin serious right now!! lol Am way 2 young i was just tellin u wot me ideal girl is like As 4 ya problems please talk 2 me about em You need a form of release and am here 2 listen So wot happened? How am u feelin emmotionally n physically? I feel like crap at mo went out last night 2 celebrate exams and this mornin i pucked up about 5 pints i feel so sh!tty now me a poorly boy If i meet this Matt then i'll tell ya if i like him I can get on wid ne1 but im like marmite ppl love me or hate me lol
reply soon luv a very ill MaRc xxxx

Good good... not something serious. Thats always good. Im not sure you really want to here about the thing... but i'll tell you hear. You dont ahve to read it. At my check up they did an ultrasound and i was half hoping they'd sya there was a mistake and i wasnt pregnant, but i was. 6 weeks. They drew blood and tested me for anemia (apparently i am anemic... dint know before) and that part was ok. He warned em the thign would give me stabbing pains but that it was bearable. On friday morning, my friend Lucy went with me. They made me strip off, whioch i hate coz i get quiet conceious about my body with males over 30 in the room... feels creepy. I had to lie on the table with my legs hanging in the air and they pushed this really cold metal clamp thing inside of me and opened it. It was worse than losigny oru virginity (the pain....) I thought that was as bad as it would get coz they numbed it. They told me id feel a prick, but it felt more like they were using scissors on a pinch of skin and then this thing was inside me. It hurt so much, you wouldnt believe. It was like they were pulling my insides inside out. Little jerky movements, that rent pain right through me. It made me cry and want to be sick. And then i was also thinking i was ,killing my baby which made it worse. It seemed to go on forever, even though it was onl 5 minutes. It was liek have a contraction (i think), but continuosly... and i couldnt wait for it too end. When they finished, i started shaking un controlably and i couldnt dress mself, so the nurse had to help me and i was crying and i had really bad cramp. They made me sit down fo about an hour with a warm cushion, which helped. I came out thinking i was ok, coz i felt fine. I was quiet happy. But my period dint turn up for 5 days so i wasnt sure if it worked. In the meantime, i was trowing up alot... just bile... coz i was in shock. And really small things ahve been making me cry, like my cat licking me or Letters to You by Finch (acoustic version) which seems so stupid. Im constantly energy drained and i feel lonely dirty horrible evil worthless and really really shitty. Sorry. That wasnt something you really want to hear about when you're ill yourself. Im sorry...

It was good that you went celebrating defo... yey! feels happy for him. Shame ou were sick though. Hows the Emma lady? Hope you feel much better soon...

I'm going away tomorrow morning, so i'll reply to anything you write when i get back...
kitten kisses
xxxx

Hi dalrin will miss ya loads Well darlin ya'm really strong 4 goin through this Just remember in future try and use mornin after pill Am u not on a pill? You allergic 2 them? I don't think ya any of them things u've just said (shitty, dirty, worthless) I dont think ya any of them at all. If i did i wouldnt come on here and talk 2 ya! I only properly talk to like 3 ppl on here and ya one of em Ya a very special person GeNe and I make special effort to make sure i stay in contact with ya Will really miss ya even tho i know itz only a week. Soz if am soundin stupid. Yeah emma is fine she foned me last night when was in pub, she was drunk at her mates bday party and was tellin me how much she liked me and missed me and i was like "yeah ok" like i said nothin serious The whole abortion thing really did sound like it hurt and i can only try and imagine the emotional pain u went through aswell as the physical pain If anythin itz the emotional pain ya left with but I will try my best to mediate this pain I'll try my damn best and i apologise if i don't I am tryin not 2 patronise u by pretendin i know what its like but will b here 4 ya will miss u have fun xxx LuV MaRc

Hey darlin am missin ya Cant wait til u get back U have a nice time? I didn't realise u liked Taproot there aren't many of us fans lol I got both their albums, u got em? I've saw em live 2 They supported Pitchshifter Have got house 2 meself for 2 weeks soon when me family goes away 2 ibiza YaY party time lol Shame u cudn't cum xxxx Reply soon LuV MaRc xxx

Your missing me? Really? That makes me feel a bit happier... not in a bad way to you. Just i spoke to my boy last night and it dont seem like hes missed me at all and it wasnt nice. I'll explain in a mo. Arran was amazing - really beautiful, but we was working from 8 am to 10 pm... erg. feel like a zombie... Yeah - i like Taproot... Seen them twice... last time a few months back in leeds. Nearly got crushed so i spent the whole time clinging to my mate Cookie... he's a big scary guy with a blue Mohawk thingie but he wouldnt hurt a fly. Its great. I had there albums... infact, ive had alot of stuff (loads and loads of artists) but there was a fire a few months ago and all my CDs were destroyed... Bout 300 or so, alot of white labeled bands as well which i cant replace, so im nicking stuff off my mates and copying a fair few at the moment. It'll take me years to replace them and i cant get alot of them, like taproot... Me hopes you have a good party... still with Emma?

Ok - now about my boy... wellllllll.... I dint take my phone this week, coz i dint want to lose it. But i spoke to him when i got home last night and tried to get him to talk to me bout it all, coz ive had a rough week - tears everyday. He just doesnt wnat to talk about it. He thinks im this strong little girl who can handle everything, when i cant. And I said that to hime last night, and he refused to accept it. He was adament that imstrong and can deal with stuff. Also, his best mate who's with my best mate said sum stuff about me trying to do stuff with her while we were away, which i wouldnt have. And its like he doesnt trust me anymore. And all i really need now from him is a little trust right??? Sorri... i'll stop complaining. Its just getting to me. And like, Matthew and his evil girl got back together too.

Missed you too this week... kitten kisses and licks
xxx

Well I def missed u Gene would of posted everyday 2 tell ya but then u would of got scared lol well ya right ya bf should trust u It's the most important thing! EmmA is in Amsterdam at mo not saw her for a week now. Nevermind lol Like i said it's nowt serious Best m8s goin out wid each other is bad news i bin there! My best m8 and my ex's best m8 went out and it all ended in tears. They turned us against each other and we were competing for who was the best bf lol sounds silly now But hey we were both naieve xxxxx Well if u wanna escape u am free 2 come down 2 my neck of the woods Got house for 2 weeks in 11 days time yay xxxx How u bearin up? Remember am here 2 talk 2 reply soon darlin xxxx

MaRc

That was really cute and sweetie thanks... what made you do it?

I wouldnt be disturbed or scared if you had said you missed me everyday. Id have felt loved in some respect. I saw my boy ystrday and we talked but its not the greatest thing in the world. I dont know if we can last it.

I hopes emma has a nice time in Amsterdam... its my home... well, it would be. Im half dutch but never lived there.

Thanks for the offer of an escape. Id have really liked that, but I just got me a job for the summer so i'll need to stick around for it. I'm sure i'll see you soon mind

Im baring up abit oddly at the mo. Im fightinh not to cry, but its hard and im not sure what the point is cept to protect my mum. Im not the strong girl, but im still trying to be. And everywhere i look theres pregnant peps or sumat simialr... *worries*

What about you... plans for the summer?

Reply soon sweetheart x

Dunno just fancied doin it lol No reason:P Plans for summer is to drink lots, partylots and have lots fun and make people happy Itz cool, didn't expect u wud come like lol never mind will have 2 keep u happy across here
gotta go 2 work in a bit Am there til 22:30 but hey itz all money in the bank which then gets wasted on cd's,drink and dvds lol Wot plans u got 4 summer darlin? Other than gettin wid matt like lol xxxx Well me best b off as im on the from some people who wanna kill me for my skittles ahhh there cumin lol BBByyyyEEEE xxxxxx

Well. thank you for *just fancying to do it* coz it cheered me up a fair wack. Sounds like you have a great summer up ahead of you wish i could have as laid back at time as that, but it looks like im gona be caged up in my house or in dan's house being miserable trying to get into a better state of mind. I have had the worst pain cravings the lst few weeks. Its taking alot out of me not to bend to them.

You do make me happy... thats a good thing. Im duno - methinks its coz you always seem so cheery that it rubs off. But if you werent, id like it if you felt you could talk to me about it coz i want to be a good friend and your welcome to vent about stuff to me...

So where do you work? I would make a guess at this point, but itd be really a realli bad one... from working in a bar to a call centre... if i was feeling reali cheeky and playful and sure you wouldnt take offence id ask if you were an escort... but im sure your not so dont take that the wrong way.

My plans for the summer... AT WHAT POINT DID I SAY I WAS GONA GET WITH MATT? despite the fact its semi true I wouldnt do that to dan, but we're gona be in a open realtionship for two weeks next week coz we're both going away - him on a boys trip to tenerife and me with matt, so we agreed it'd be ok. Other than that. Next week im going on an orchestral tour, then im coming home to eat sleep talk to you on here and sort out my problems. Nothing special. A few parties maybe, i would say lots of sex but... maybe just lots of oral sex - ait warey right now and stuf like that.

Mmmm skittles - i can nderstand the need to protect them. Oooo! Did i tell you my stunning new *skill* - hope this makes you laff. You know the really little marshmellows you get in pink, orange, yellow, green and white? Well, i can now correctly guess the clour of it without eating it or seeing it! How uncool is that?

Ok - me g2g now


ps when's your birthday?

mmmm me luvs the red ones xxx 's am tryin 2 rob em but they can't have em cus they're mine!!! U can have some though darlin i'll even let u have my purple ones!!!

I guess I am kinda happy lol Makes ya sick dont it lol Nah u see GeNe I made a decision a long time ago 2 not give a sh!t about how ppl think about me when it's negative, there am enough ppl in my life that love me for who i am and i aint gunna care about ppls opinions who aint important 2 me! See if u didnt like me then it'd hurt cus i actually give a sh!t what u think lolBut like i say i live for 2day and if u dont like me BITE ME lol :p

My birthday is on 30th August, I only made my year at school by bout 3 days lol I was prob youngest person at uni last year lol

I dont agree wid open relationships lol I think if ya am willin 2 let each other see other ppl then u shouldnt b 2gether just my opinion lol whoever ya wid is very lucky darlin xxxx

I thought u knew where i worked darlin?!?!? I work at Sainsburys on Customer Services. You see im always dealing wid problems at home and at work lol I like helping people And like making them happy Theres nothin better than turnin a frown upside down
LoL Me sounds very stupid and hippy like i guess lol but nevermind I just hate, i really do, seein people sad I mean if i saw a stranger cryin i'd go up and ask if they're ok lol

I was a bit upset at work 2day tho Me mate Emily is leavin I got a cuddle, kiss and her phone number 2day tho so wasnt all bad lol

Was pretty quiet at work 2day Spent most of it off the customer services desk and helpin me mate kuli on the kiosk was singin 2 her lol Made her cry lolI got a nice voice lol Used 2 sing in rock band but i can sing very sweet lol xxxx

The security guard Scott's a b*stard lol (He's me mate like but..)he keeps goin by the customer service desk, farting (and they stink!!They make me heave LoL) then he leaves the scene Leavin the smell and me lol now customers come and think itz me lol and i get some looks lol xxx nevermind it makes me laugh lol anyway am prob borin u now lol so i'll stop writin:P reply soon darlin Whens your bday? btw if im ever sad i know ya there U mean a lot xxxxxx Ya gr8 darlin btw i put ya name thing up 4 review so "the everyone can see it" lol i read a post where u said u wanted more ppl 2 see it so i make it happen lol xxxxx BBBYYYEEEE luv MaRc Think am guna get a now and watch phoenix nights on DVD XxxxxxxXXxxxxxxX

aaaw bless... i do like skittles but id hate to deprive you... i'll stick to marshmallows for now.

I thinks its good that your happy. Id still be there for you ifyou werent, but its good to know there are some people out there who can still have a cheery time. Sounds like your decision was a good one.. Believe me ive tried along the same lines, but after alot of the stuff ben told me its been really hard for me to accept stuff, so im just this really insecure little lady... U give a sh!t waht i think? Thats lovely... it really is coz it says we're friends. Regards the *bite me* comment... i wouldnt unless u asked *teases*

aww bless - hes a virgo! *thinks* one of best mates only made our year by a day, so i know how you musta felt being youngest... I've never had that problem - my birthday is Jan 9th so i always been in the middle.

I dont agree with open relationships either, but its just he was going on a boys holiday witha bunch of single guys and i felt bad about him being the only one who couldnt do stuff. So we discussed it and we decided it would be fair spesh coz we know we're not gona be together forever. Its not exactly seeing other people anyway just being able too do stuff and even then not serious stuff. You know, im amazed he's still with me now anyway, coz i dont see whats so great about me for him to stay...

Nope - i dint know where you work... but now i do and i told you my guess would be really far off. Ah well... I never really got what a customer service desk does mind. Not that you have to tell me coz thats an odd thing to talk about... Sorri your mate is leaving, but im sure you'll still see her so it'll work out ok.

Yeah you said you sing. Sound like you got a wide vocal repetoire - me i cant sing any of the shouty stuff, i can only do soft vocals but i do them well. It cheers me up. Infact, ive just been singing Evanescence stuff... track called My Immortal. Its lovely all about how this girl is trying to let go of someone who isnt there anymore, possibly dead...

Yeah and thanks for putting the name thingie up for review - i appreciate it. Lets see what happens.

You a vvvvvvvvvvvv special guy, id love to end up with someone half as nice as you. Your great

and

xxxxxxx

Me again ... coming in for a coz im
* s to and you coz it feels safe... *

Are you ish?
Thanks sweetness for being there...
xxx

lol shame that aint a smily nevermind lol xxx

Nope me not ticklish u? Me txt u last night when i got in, no txt back boo hoo xxxxxx

RePlY SooN xxxxx xxxxx
MaRc