h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Hello! It's me again... it's kind of late but anyway.... I just came home and I don't really want to sleep, although, I feel extremely tired. So, how are your try outs? My next week is going to be horrible, for I have to study like crazy. Several days ago I picked a math book for college and realized that I've forgotten almost everything (trigonometry in particular) so yeah... =( It is a sad day.... there was that movie Powder, I cried... still don't know why.... and then all my friends, I'm not even sure if we will ever meet all together again.... and Mrs. Miller (it is stupid but I like her more than my mother.... I'm not allowed to say that.... but that's what I feel). Never mind this letter, it might be long when I’m done, because I feel like talking right now, and there is no one around, you know, like that song about me "Unwell" by MatchBox20.... I wish I could say something cheerful, or happy, but nothing IS so far... well, at least there is nothing bad out there either (yet), so I guess I should thank God for that.... and for everything there is... Like Summer (although I like Winter more)... Summer is still good. Everything is green, and the air smells different.... and there is rain, which I really love.... and at night you can go out and look at the stars, while the sky is so clear, you can even see the milky way. I feel like writing another poem, but it will probably take all night to finish, so I won't start. Hopefully it's ok with you that I'm writing all that crap right in your face, I don't like to be girly... only I can't avoid it... because I am a girl.... a really stupid one...... who doesn't know anything useful. Personally, I don't think that people should know everything, then it won't be interesting to live.... no motivation... nothing. I just want people to tell the truth (or rather don't lie.... there are some occasions when it is better to shut up).... And at the end when you finally find out... it hurts.... hurts so much......
What do you think about the next chapter in our lives? I mean going to college, starting everything all over again. I don't want to leave at all. It was sad enough to leave all my friends three years ago... and now, when I finally got to know people, just several months ago... when I started to feel comfortable again.... oh, that's a horrible feeling. To go out there where no one knows you, and everyone thinks that you are stupid freak from another planet...... Ok, I should stop now... sorry..............
I really miss talking to you.... I feel like I can tell you everything
bye..