h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

""I'm fairly sure it's a bad idea to be talking to you about this while you are drunk and I am stressed though. ""

OI!!!!

effers....BED!!!!

Kea....RELAX!!!

do i have to come round and knock your heads together????

You haven't been explaining it really clearly in a language I can understand. I want to do everything to make you feel better.

It's not a bad idea if people are drunk. In vino veritas.

What are you stressed about? Maybe I can help.

No I'm not going to bed. Leave it Taff.

stop it

small talk only!!!

don't rush it!!!!

Okay Taff. But I want to help her. But she has such a low opinion of me as part of this site.

And I think I'm an excellent part of this site...And I'm doing everything I can to change my ways about the negatives.

And those journals are going to carry on, especially the let rip one.

But kea is really good friends with someone who is really vicious to me. And I'm not going to keep quiet about that...he was the reason for the second thing...and I'll never forgive him for that..Yes it was me who said you are no longer my friend which was completely untrue, said in the heat of the moment.

But he called me 'mendacious' a liar...and kea you said nothing to that..no wonder I was angry. You sided with him.

I'm a woman for christ sakes..and much closer to you.

Okay I'm off to listen to more Jam.

kea for god sakes woman...oh I don't know...no not tea...

And something else I'm going to point out here is that in real life nearly everyone seems to see the positive side of me..all the love I have in my nature...yes they know I'm difficult..but they still love me...but yes all through my childhood I was threatened with banishment.

I'm not going back to that hell. Also everything in Nature seems to like me.

So stuff it it if some here think I should be ejected.

Ok, I've had a think about this this afternoon:

yes I am hard on you.

That's because (a) I have little emotional energy so I'm not using smileys etc to cushion what I say, and (b) because what you did in trashing our friendship, trashed our friendship, so I"m not inclined to make myself be nice for the sake of it until something changes back to something good.

I know you are sorry for that, and I know you want us to be friends again. That's fine. What's not ok is that my needs are not relevant here. I know you say you want them to be, but you don't act as if they are. I'm not sure how much choice you have over that, as you seem to be acting in the now alot and not remembering the longer conversation we've been having.

I don't blame you for that. And I don't blame myself for not wanting to make it all pretty again.

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I don't like it when you assume that because I'm saying negative things at the moment that I think only negative things about you. If I thought only negative things about you, I wouldn't talk with you at all. I don't feel like it's my job currently to make you feel good. You have other people that can do that.

You've asked me to be honest, and I think that's the best thing for me to do too, so there we have some common ground.

I don't like it when you hyperbole issues. I don't think I've seen anyone say you should be kicked off the site. When you exaggerate like that, it smudges over the truth, which in this case is that there are too many people who are annoyed with how you behave. If you don't care about the community, that's fine, but you will have to accept the consequences like everyone else who disrupts the place.

Firstly you should know I'm still drunk, and I just got a bit more so. I'm being 100% honest.


I know you don't have much emotional energy and I certainly don't want smileys. And I still don't fully understand what it means to have no or little emotional energy.

But you need to spell out your needs clearly to me.. And I certainly don't want things 'pretty'. You don't know me if you think I want that.

I'm pleased you don't only think negative things about me.

What I *don't* do however is to try to hurt people in a malicious way..which I get some of..and its scary.

And yes it will appear as if I have hyperbole issues. Artistic people very often do. But if people want something 'comfortable' which they appear to...just like people in real life that don't want to face the reality of this horrible world I will appear disruptive and annoying.

Of course I care about the community.

And lastly it means a lot to me that you actually thought about it in your afternoon. I was most probably asleep.

And actually it appears to me you *do* have emotional energy.

I also notice that you frequently go offline the moment I appear.

I'm going offline.

Taff has told me not to push things and I won't.

But that's difficult for me.

And I think a bit of pushing from me has been good.

Right I noticed you unsubbed from this.

I won't.

I hope you change your mind. Because I may pretend I don't care. But I do very much. It hurts a lot. One thing you will always get from me is honesty. But if you don't want the kind of good things I have to offer too bad.

And I don't think I said anything so awful.

But obviously you do.

But if you prefer for us to have this kind of horrible thing..not a lot I can do.

looking forward to getting smashed again.

(Actually that last post wasn't meant for this thread..but the rip one. I don't know how it got here. But then I don't think straight anymore)

Effers, calm down. I suggested to Kea that she unsub and take some 'Time-out' from this thread for a few hours.

She will be back when she's feeling less stressed.

May I suggest you stop posting for a while and give her some space? Flooding your feelings to all and sundry isn't really helping the situation, is it?

Keep it to one journal, then those reading the <./>Info</.> pages won't have ammunition to prod and poke at you


lil x


PS. I will unsub from this now, and leave you to your 'virtual' privacy.

Yes I shall keep it to one journal..the 'let rip' one.

But I don't understand why these things can't be sorted out like grown-ups.

But despite my own feelings I shall respect kea's..and I have heard she has real life problems which maybe affecting this.

kea take as long as you like. I'll stay subbed to this though. You should continue to feel safe with me though on h2g2.

I don't know if I should post here for sure..and I don't even know if you read it.

But I wanted you to know that I now really understand that I've caused you a lot of hurt and pain and I'm truly sorry for that..and I've no right to expect you to spell it out. I know, is what matters. I think it was good that you got a real apology from me eventually rather than a hollow one earlier.

Hopefully you won't feel invaded too much..I don't want you to feel that.

I won't post here again.