h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Hi Terri-wooh,

Sorry if I took things too far on the "Eyes" thread... it's a pretty public place for me to be expressing so many feelings and I apologize if I went about it in an overly harsh way.

I think you understand that I do trust that you know what's best for you, and I'm not arguing with your explanations of events and telling you the guy is all bad. Just when I see bad behavior patterns repeating themselves, when I see manipulation being done, I have to call it. I probably should do so privately and not on your journal, no matter how much private stuff *you* disclose.

Please please please don't write me off as not caring enough to listen, or being to stubborn. And I sure as hell don't want to talk about the weather, it being hat it is.

I want you, as one of my best and dearest friends, touchable reality or real life or not. I do *not* want to see you heartbroken, and it angers me to see you hurt. It frustrates me to hear some of the things you say. But I know you are tough: you listen, you grasp, and you know it's only because I care, even if I don't say it right or say what you want to hear just then.

I love you and I am going to be here always, no matter what. But if you want me to butt out of Viking-related issues, I will honor your wish. You asked me not to butt out, then you unsubbed. I didn't want that to happen.

Please forgive me if I've inadvertently hurt you, but I'm not sorry for caring and for ging into that mommy tiger mode you know so well, when I see you hurting. I love you!! Bisous, if you'll still have them!!

Your lack of response and seeming disinterest in considering or accepting my apology makes it clear that, as happens with friends in RL as well, our lives have drifted to a point where friendship no longer suits us. These things happen.

It hardly seems fair for you to remain subscribed to my journal, or for me to remain subscribed to yours. I shall remove you from my friends list forthwith and you'll never have to hear another peep from me regarding your personal life and your willingness to settle for less than what you deserve. I understand that you think that allowing people to mistreat you because they are unhappy is being kind or sympathetic, but even the best martyr needs to come down from his/her cross eventually if he/she wants to be even remotely happy. I truly hope that you WILL be happy, and wish you all the best.

I will mail you the clock hands for your cheese box idea as promised, and will leave you alone thereafter. Best of luck to you, and I'll miss the IM and phone chats and stuff.

I'll also ask you to please respect my and K's privacy and link to no more of our personal info or photos here. I'd hate to have to leave h2g2 completely, as I'm sure you can understand.

Take care, best of luck, and I'll prepare your clock hands shipment towards the end of the month when you will hopefully have returned from your holiday alive and in one piece.

Oh for goodness sake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have just posted to one of your other threads, nice, friendly stuff.

Was unable to get on here for the last few hours 'cos of bloody hellish storm which threatened to blow the windows in; having had two modems blow due to previous storms, i don't relish the thought of forking out for another one, so switched it all off.

Please don't be silly.

zdt

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And that is really very silly indeed.

A)In all likelihood i am not going on holiday, with or without viking, simply can't afford it & we have discussed alternatives like just taking days out to various places round here; he pays for gas & drives, i sort the food out, we find a place with water (for him to swim) & shade (for me)

B) He ain't no axe murderer; far; far from it. The reverse is true; i am 100% certain that he would protect me from any evil that might arise. But he cant't protect me from stuff like the car crashing (unlikely; he is the safest driver i know; & believe me, i am paranoid!) so, yes, it's possible i might not be in one piece at some point.

C) He doesn't know this, but i just applied to do volunteer teaching in Thailand for tsunami hit places; me not be particularly afraid of disaster zone stuff; so chances of emerging in one piece from that be considerably less than tame holiday on beach with viking.

Life is a gamble. I don't do things by halves, whether it's where i live or who i love.

zdt

>I don't do things by halves, whether it's where i live or who i love.<

Me neither. And you're one of those I love, so I guess that means I will occasionally get on your nerves for it. But you've proven time and again that you love me enough to deal with occasionally wanting to wring my neck. And I love you enough to deal with occasionally wanting to wring yours.

As for returning safely from holiday or Thailand or whereever... it was meant in the same way I say it to everyone and I honestly didn't mean to imply that I thought that whomever you might go on holiday with would chop you up into little bits or anything. I'm sorry if I made you feel bad by saying it. I didn't mean to be as snippy as I sounded, at least not with that remark.

As you say, I was being pretty silly. It's not the first time, it won't be the least. Thanks for being a dear friend (one of the best, lady1) in spite of it all. And please don't be offended if I worry about you sometimes. You're a spectacular woman and someone I value very highly. I get upset when it seems you don't get all the good stuff I want you to have and think you deserve, be it cooperation from Cotorep or the phone company, Vikings, students, friends, fellow villagers, total strangers, the weather, you name it.

I forget sometimes that certain special people, like yourself, can exist blissfully even in utter chaos. I think I work in entirely the opposite way!

Forgive my silliness and my outburst, forgive my over-reacting to a situation that frankly scared the heck out me, and forgive me for opening my mouth even after I *told* myself not to? No hard feelings?

Bisooooooooooooooooous!! xx

I try not to do hard feelings stuff; certainly i appreciate that you were coming from a place of concern for me, so thanks!

Everything is just in limboland here, so many imponderables. The latest being Morgane being rushed into hospital for appendix op; she seems to be fine now, but when we went to see her today was badgering away "papa, are you going off on holiday? If so, when? Are you going with Terri? Can I come too?"

Me, papa & mama all looked at each other & almost with one voice gave the infuriating classic adult response "We will see! Just get better first!"

zdt

Thanks for understanding where I was coming from.

How is little Morgane feeling today? Hope she's recovering rapidly and fully as we squeak.

Have you been to visit her again today?

Nope, I doubt that viking has enough petrol to get there; he doesn't have any credit on his phone either, so is relying on "no news is good news". Certainly if there was any sort of complication no doubt Vero would phone him; but if all goes according to plan, she should be out tomorrow.

I am pretty sure the kid is tough as old boots, within an hour of coming out of the anaesthetic she is demanding "WHY can't i have something to eat??? These people first of all slice me into little bits, now they are trying to starve me to death! And WHY can't i use my mobile phone? Someone give me a foot massage NOW!"

If this kid doesn't end up as an actress i will be very surprised indeed!

zdt

How old is she again? I'm sure you mentioned it previously, but I have forgtotten.

Adolescent girls can be pretty melodramatic, but this one sounds like she has a true Drama Queen calling.