h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Yay, I'm so glad your computer's back. I'm way behind on backlog myself and I've not been gone.

Hi HBJoy -- That happens!
Nice to see you again and MV also.
This season will make catching up trickier.

MY computer is not doing much better so I just may slip away again.
I do not have much emotional or physical energy to work with at the moment.

Looking forward to saying goodbye to this year.
I am feeling down.
3 years ago at this time I was bummed my health was not seemingly returning (and it did not)
2 years ago I was bummed at this time because I had lost 7 people in 14 months.

THis year I have had my heart broken a number of times.
Blindsided by the blindness of others.
I need an attitude adjustment.

Luckily I work in 3's so that may be my best hope for a good change in the year to come.
3rd time charm?
Hope so.
I know some things got better during the last 3 years.
I cannot seem to remember or focus on them just now.


Now the question is just where did I put that hope the last time I was done with it? Maybe I have a safer place for it!

I recall thinking I had permanently lost my humor but found it merely misplaced , and more than once!

Perhaps my trust was misplaced.
If I could find trust in myself again, I think I would find a ray of hope inside.

I was waiting to post until I had something to say
I guess until I say this, I cannot go on to new things.

*Hope so!
Oh Look there's a splash of hope

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More bad poetry;

Her lashes slashing me as they pass.
A Lasting Fasting without thought of relaxing.
A crass lass whom cracked in a flash.
Nevermind
In case of fire - break glass.
Forget the past and send up the mast.
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Ok done.
Maybe that will break the chain of pain so that I may refrain from the ongoing brain drain.Let me off this train!

The family ,friends of ours that relocated to this area -
The daughter "T" had broken her back the first month and I spoke of it earlier posts.

She is still braced but in school and she has come to visit a couple of times. Her Grandma is a school teacher and came to catch her up in school. This school district is much stricter and advanced than her previous school in Texas. She would have been behind without this accident. It is a strange blessing that she has caught up in school this way.
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Their house burnt down to the ground last week.
It was a fireplace problem and shown on the local news.
All are OK but it is a huge hassle for now that should work out OK in the end. I hope no more "bad luck" happens until they can get settled.
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Have your fireplaces checked and cleaned reguarly!

1)The fireplace was built wrong.
2)The building inspector did not find the issue when they bought it and should have.
3)The fireplace needed a cap on the top and the man whomm installed it caulked it in such a way that it helped to create the fire. He was inexperienced.

3 people at fault through sloppy work ethics or incomplete knowledge of their job duties.

There is a realiy show coming on where an adopted woman will guess who her father is. Part of the idea of the show is to try and fool her

This is a new low in reality shows, not that it started on high ground to begin with.

That sounds awful.

I hope things go better for you in 05 abbi.

Thanks HBjoy

Bad form but I was too tired to post all three of those topics seperately! This is my journal so I suppose I can

Think I will call it a night.
Hopefully I will get some decent sleep, if not I'll be back in a couple hours.

We all love you, abbi, feast on that if you can. I send/receive all that I can. As the days lengthen again, the New Year, Spring, always bring new hope for me, drive those blues away! I know, the spirit is willing...... God bless.

Love, ed.

Lovely to see you Ed
Thanks for those thoughts.
I *think you are right but it would be nice to *feel it.
This exercise might help....

I wonder what new things await me?
I knew the addition was needed to feel more lively in my space.
Maybe I have just grown weary of waiting.
Yeah I bet that's it. It has not seemed real lately.

It is my creation (but not my sweat)and the biggest thing I have ever asked or pushed for. I am not good at asking for *things that are just for me.

I need to see more of my creations!
I knew it last spring (Thank Goodness!) so this spring it will be a reality.

I am very glad to have a change coming in my daily surroundings.
It is THE thing that has kept me involved. "things" usually do not rise to that high of a priority. Well maybe the computer these days!
Maybe the pause in the work has just given me room for pause and forgetting change is coming. Room to reflect on the unexpected saddness and loss this year.

My plan is;

If I create more there may be a bit more joy in my week.
I want to be more of a participant in my life.
I want proof of my existance thru some creations.
I do not want to be *afraid of wanting more and not getting it.
I do not want to be afraid of loss. I know it will happen but such valuable time is lost while being afraid.
I do not want to be afraid!
And I want to give more.
Creating will hopefully bring new forms of energy and new hopes.
Cannot give to myself OR others without energy and hope.

Here's to the joy of creating then Abbi!

PS That reality show sounds just sick!

That reminds me JEllen. I just got "Series 7" out of the library. Have you seen it? I haven't watched it yet.

My so dear abbi,

I KNEW I had missed your wonderfully stimulating comments. And now it seems that you were not feeling your usual chirpy, involved, observant, eloquent, supportive, compassionate lovely self.

One cannot feel on top of the world all the time. Otherwise one would never be able to understand anything!!.

You have the most creative gift of knowing when any of us need support -need encouragement - need your wisdom.
I would really vote you top of the hootoo for all your wonderful gifts.

It is draining emotionally though, so give yourself a break, and enjoy that lovely little friend coming to see you - and all the other people who love and need you.

Looking foirward to planning our visit to the Colorado Nature Trail.

With ever so much afffection

Also Ran1

Thanks AR1 but I will not be doing any of the Omplypic feats on the trail that you have been up too lately!
So glad you are OK!

P.S. The trail however lovely is not "long" in the normal sense It is just a rare chance around here to get up high in altitude. I do not want to mislead about it's importance as a start...
It is not worth a trip in itself but IF you are coming might be worth a peek. I would hope there are longer better nature trails coming or already in place elsewhere.

Make no mistake I would love to meet you AR1 given the chance.

I am going to remove this from my front page because it is titled "help". Wish we could change the titles part way through