h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I realise and happily accept that we will never be friends again.

I just wanted to say that I do not wish any bitchyness or for people to be uncomfortable around us.

If either of us is bitchy then the other one has the right to defend themselves in whatever way they wish. However I hope this will not happen from this moment on.

I respect you as a past friend and I hope your life goes well.

I feel your comments about me remembering nothing about you apart from your mother, were uncalled for, but I hope they were only said in the heat of the moment. It was quite funny though, as I can truely only remember only one thing you ever told me about your mother, whereas I can remember many things about you.

Of course you do not have to believe me and I realise you have the right to behave or believe in anyway you wish to.

Ultimately though, I hope our behaviour towards each other will not cause any mutual friends to feel uncomfortable. We should be able to co-exist in friends journals and put our issues to one side and not drag them into places where they do not belong.

I will remember our past friendship with a smile and I will always remember the PC I used to know with affection. I understand that your personality change has been good for you and well done for doing that. I do not like the new PC but I would never dream of holding you back from what you perceive as your true happiness, so good luck and I hope it all works out for you.

Oh I forgot to say, I can't hate you, how could I after being so close for years.

I intend keeping an eye on your journal and if you do well I would like to come and congratulate you, whether on your journal or in my mind, it doesn't matter to me.

I do really care, even though it has all come to this, I realise the friendship had to end, although caring about you never will.

Thank you for taking the time to write this message.

Although when you say things like this (I understand that your personality change has been good for you and well done for doing that. I do not like the new PC...), it confuses me, because I am the same as I have ever been, I guess I can understand that you once *saw* me a different way and thought you liked what you saw. But it's a moot point now.

Of course I have no problem with your wishing to keep an eye on my journal. There's no desire to deliberately hurt or offend you. But also please understand that moving forward, I want to be able to speak freely on my journal and in other convos and discuss whatever.

I hope you'll continue to do well also. And yes, let's make it as free of awkwardness for our mutual acquaintances as possible.

I am sure it is frustrating for you, when you say you are the same person and for you, you are. I can see a big change though and I appreciate that you do not feel you have changed. I tried to go along as before, but I felt I was talking to a different person. That is totally my feeling though and I may well be the only person in the world who feels that way about you.

Anyway, I must get back to scanning in photos and getting them on Fotki, its the greatest fun I have had for ages and incredibly satisfying. Please feel free to have a look and tell if there are any you love or hate, thats the only way I shall learn what people like, I would love to hear opinions from you and everyone else.

I never meant to constrain your journal writing, I thought speaking honestly was a good thing, now I realise it is best to just slip away quietly. I thought by being honest, I could mend the problem I felt between us. I have learnt now though, that when friendships start to die, you can't mend them, its better to give up sooner rather than later.

I seem to be seeing a pattern here, the only piece of classical music you picked on was the one I mentioned. You also picked on the Anne Rice books when I mentioned the vampire culture in New Orleans.

It seems you still have a lot more anger towards me, and I do not feel like seeing everything I say being picked on in our mutual friends convos in this way. So I shall be avoiding them from this moment.

This is not meant to spite you but my personal life has grown very difficult in the last few days and I really can't deal with it.

I would rather not have a reply to this, I can't take anymore nastiness on the day after we find out Moonglums mum definately has cancer.

I am in no way asking you to leave, or to curtail your speech or journals or anything. I wouldn't want you to leave. Just saying I will be avoiding you.