h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Argh, I wanted/could write about 100 pages, but I have about 10 mins so here goes:

I finally admitted to my mum about my abusive brother. When we were moved into separate rooms, I decided to forget and deny the past, but this holiday had been just argh, horrible. He started his sincere threats to kill me again last night and I had kind of "flashbacks" and ended up running around the hotel crying and screaming. Hm
A brother can be a lot worse than any drunkard abusive stepdad. Ever since he was about 13, he has been an amature weightlifter and boxer. Hes been dishing out sincere death threats since I was about 5; hes tried getting me on illegal drugs; hes got gangs to beat me; hes beat me himself- thrown me across walls, pinned me down and spat on me. I told my parents before, but they perceived me as naive back then. "Boys will be boys" and all that, grr. My grandparents have always perceived him as an angel. He used to point out the bruises and scars he had given to me and asked me in front of them where I had got them from. I could go on all night, but hm. Hes made me feel pointless and lowly (which to be honest, I am). I used to pray that I wouldnt turn out like him, now that thought reccurs repeatedly, like a broken record that never turns off, I hate him, with good intent. (Theres so much more I could say, but its best to keep it short I suppose).
On lighter notes:
1. I wrote a song about ppl I know on h2g2. It has a verse on amy, hammy and suz. I havent got time to type it all out, and I would of forgotten it by tommorrow, hm.
2. I hate americans (with the exception of amy of course). Ive met about 200 this week and they have all been whiny, spoilt, loud mouthed brats. Argh.
3. I touched Cool Japanese Girl Who Is Actually From Malaya today. Shes so cool, I also said hello. I have no confidence *Sobs*. Im such a creep. She goes away to Sicily tommorrow, lame. I havent found any japanese kareoke bars yet, hm.

I'm so lonely, all my friends pity me, I want to go home, *cries*

You're not worthless, and your brother's an idiot and an a*****e. And you know me well enough to know I don't cuss.

And not all Americans are spoiled brats (I know you said I'm not, and thanks, but I'm not the only non-spoiled one...)

I know, maybe its a certain State, any ideas which one? (Im back by the way, )

Yay, you're back!

No idea... Quite likely it's just that you ran into jerks that happened to be from the US...

Hm, 200 odd of them

Well, still...

I'm sure there were annoying people of other nationalities there...



Anyway, I've got to get back to work--I'll IM you later. But because of the timezone thing, it likely won't be until tomorrow...

Well I'm trying to invoke insomnia on myself so I might catch you.

Tom and I are going to someone's house for dinner, so I probably won't be able to get online until it's morning there, frankly... If the only reason you'd be staying up would be to catch me, I'd really rather you got some sleep and maybe got up early... Up to you.

I slept

Sleeping is good. I didn't get online until about 6 or 7 am, your time...

And sorry I wasn't able to talk long Sunday.

hm, I stayed up untill 3 am in hope of catching you. When do you actually usually come on?

If we don't go anywhere, and I don't have to do anything, and Tom doesn't need the phone, usually around 2 am there... Sometimes I don't manage to get on at all, though.

Oops, sorry, tired, did the math wrong... Actually 3...