h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I don't think you need to be more tolerant, as you must have learnt how to be tolerant having a child. I do find it interesting to discuss this stuff, it helps me understand me more, although that may come across as obsessive. I think I am too self-obsessed to have had a child, I admire you for doing a good job, its a difficult world to bring a child into as well.

Course it doesn't help being paranoid, no-one had a go afterall that worry.

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Hi Smurfles, I have stopped tying myself up in knots! Maybe I should learn something from this!

Hope you are okay.

well done kaz!!
I think i learn something new every day,and a lot of it makes me more understanding of others.
I'm at the moment ,it's nice to see you in here,as always.

Its a sunny day, I got up early (for me) and am feeling quite positive today. I have booked an appointment with my gp for the day after I see the specialist next week, I intend to get things moving at last(pun intended - leg moving - get it?!).

i did understand
You have to stay positive now kaz,so that you can go and talk to your gp,and try to get some action from him/her!!!Try to repeat the things you've done today,again tomorrow,if you're feeling good.I know you can do it,i have faith in you!!

Thank you Sal

I am writing down the history of all the problems and also all my questions, so even if I get scared and emotional, I will still get all the answers I need.

I am seeing the specialist on Thursday 31st, I'll let you know how it goes.

Take your time writing everything down kaz,do a little each day,remember that you are going through the awful things when you write it down,so don't make yourself sad again.A little at a time is enough.
I shall look forward to hearing what the gp has had to say,if you need a chat before then you know how to get in touch.

I wrote all the history down last week in one day, which really got to me. Now I just need to get it into the right order and make it sound less emotional. I understand what you say about getting it down a little at a time, but it was weighing on me and it was good to get the hard part done at last. Least I can tidy it up gradually. My leg has been worse as well, stress I imagine.

Oooo I have news, Moonglum passed his driving test!! So we will be looking into hiring cars maybe once a month and getting away and seeing relatives and the sea and stuff!! We are so excited!

Oh and Snailrind, thank you for all your offers of help with forms and stuff. I shall probably get back to you on that, just begining to look into it all seriously. I have talked about it for some months, but now is the time to finally get going on it.

Thank you all for being here, it does help.

wow!!Well done to moonglum!!
Congratulations on passing his test
If i can be of any help,along with snailrind,just let me know

I will let you know Sal, thanks.

One the best things about today so far, is that I feel sane. That doesn't happen often, I am usually eaten up by internal insecurities, or paranoia, fear, or something else. I normally feel normal only for fleeting moments, maybe a few hours, so I really enjoy it whilst it lasts.

Congratulations to Moonglum!!!

That's awesome that he has passed his test, I look forward to seeing your seaside snapshots Kaz

Oh well done to him! Don't forget if you do claim DLA you'd have more money for car hiring. If you're entitled to it, why not claim it??

It never lasts, major panic attack today.

Mina, I will not be claiming dla for the reasons I detailed and which Snailrind also detailed. You know I suffer from agorophobia, fears etc. I could not deal with regular appointments whilst paperwork pushers tried to imply I could do a full days work in a shop or something like that. The fear of the upcoming appointment would lead me to cut myself, thats what I do most times I goto the doctors. Why would I wish to bring more authority control into my life? The more stressed I am, the more my leg seizes up, everytime my leg seizes up, the pain inceases. Sometimes it seizes up so badly, I am immobilised, each time that happens it is worse. I am very aware that one day, it may happen and never improve enough for me to walk again.

reducing my stress is paramount. Yes money is difficult but dealing with authority figures is much more difficult for me. So why would I risk my ability to walk, just to get a bit more money. Money is not so important to me that I want to risk my life over it.

I thought I had outlined all this a couple of days ago, please don't ask again, it makes me very stressed indeed, when I feel that one of my few friends here does not understand something I have explained. mYbe in your experience the government and authority figures have always been reasonable, but not in mine.

Ah, I see where the problem lies. I think that you are thinking of a different benefit.

You can get DLA *whether you work or not*, so it's very unlikely you'd have to see anyone. It's not like those benefits people claim *instead* of working where the benefits office has to be sure - you know - where people claim back pain then get videoed up ladders and carrying bricks. It's not like that - you fill in forms, they make a decision, then send back the decision.

If, for some bizarre reason they decide they want to see you before they make the decision, then you could drop the claim if you're not really worried about the money, but if they say 'yes we'll pay' then you've lost nothing.

But I do understand about you not wanting to go out, so I won't mention it again. I just wanted you to know it's not like being on the sick benefit.

Okay Mina, thanks. I wasn't in a great mind state anyway yeaterday. I need to look up all these acronyms as well, so I know what people are talking about.

I do get very anxious before a doctors appointment and next week, I have a specialist and a doctors appointment, and its begining to take effect. Must remember reason and logic first, if I can. Sorry about that.

Ok, stay as calm as you can, got your rescue remedy, and was it mimulus you used to take as well?

Yep I did used to take mimulus, what a memory you have!

I am up and down like a yo yo right now. I get hopeful that the nhs will have an easy answer to my problem and be able to cure me, then reality comes back. Still I should be open-minded, you never know.

I am not seeing the specialist till next Thursday, so there is a chance that I will act like an arse again. Sorry if I do. I shall try and read first, engage brain before making silly unnecessary posts like last nights. It will be a useful exercise for me.